disclaimer : I don't own the characters , sad but true !
Chapter 11 : Can you ?
There must be a better way of sayin it's over
Where nobody walks away with tears in their eyes
When you stay 'til regret is all you have left
That's a bad way of saying goodbye
Haruka ( The future one ) Looked back at Neptune when Hotaru stormed out of the room when she figured out getting laid wasn't a good thing to ask about to her parents.They just stared at eachother , the confussion about their kiss rising up again.
'' If it helps , I'm coming back tomorrow , to the future i mean.'' Haruka said while stepping away from Neptune.She was too confussed to let this happen again.At least , to let it happen now.She didn't know what she wanted anymore.She came here with a mission , to win Michiru's heart , but now Neptune was here , telling here there was no need in that simply because Uranus had always been in her heart even after their break up.
'' You still didn't answer , kissing me doesn't mean anything.'' Neptune said , her voice colder than she wanted it too be.
Haruka also felt the urge to shout at Neptune.She had to stay calm.But the look in her face betrayed her.'' Listen Neptune , i kissed you because i wanted to know what i feel about you right now , i wish i could answer you right now but if i had to tell you that i still love you , it would be a lie !'' It was out before she even knew it.
Neptune's heart broke at those words.But she wasn't planning to cry , not in front of Haruka at least.'' So that's it ? You're not even going to try ?'' Neptune asked with a broken voice that gave away her emotions.
Haruka hung her head in shame.'' I don't know...'' It was only a whisper but it was enough for Neptune to hear.'' I know i still have feelings for you but...''
'' You don't know if it's enough..'' Neptune finished for the blonde.
Haruka now looked up at Neptune who was fading into the nothingness of the room.'' Michi...what...''
'' My time is up.'' Neptune cried as she looked at herself.With tears in her eyes she stared at her blonde love.'' I love you Ruka...'' With that she dissapeared completly leaving Haruka the only one in the room.
Year 3054 ( Future ) Settings - Crystal Tokyo...
Neptune suddenly stood in the middle of her bedroom.Lokking around she noticed she was alone again.For a moment she thought she would take Haruka home again but when Haruka told her that she maybe lost her chance Neptune's heart had broken in a thousand pieces.
Without knocking Pluto slowly walked into the room.She sighed when she noticed Uranus wasn't with the aqua haired girl.' If she didn't succeed , i don't know if their love is strong enough to survive and tops that , they told their past selfs about this all , they just killed off the time line and changed it.The result will mean the end of crystal Tokyo.'
Neptune just ignored her friend who now stood next to her.'' Neptune...Michiru...please tell me what happened.'' Neptune now finally turned around to face her friend.Her eyes were red and swollen , tears were still falling down her face and the look on her face was nothing but blank.
'' She told me...'' She sobbed before breaking down again.Pluto just stood there looking at the sad senshi , the crying senshi who's fault this all was in the first place.Pluto just decided to strug it off and try to calm down her friend.With that she put her arms around the smaller girl who leaned back into the hug.'' I'm so confussed.'' She sobbed as she hugged Pluto harder.
'' It's okay , things will be okay ..'' Pluto lied as she stroked Neptune's back.
'' No it won't !'' Neptune yelled as she pulled back.'' Don't give me that positive shit , i know you are lying ! I screwed up and you are mad at me for that! But you have no idea how i can possibly feel right now ! I lost my lover , my friend , my partner and because of what ? Yes because of me ! Me ! And now i fucked it up so bad that not even a trip to the past could save us ! Nothing can save us now...'' Her voice started to get more quiet after each word she said until the last words were almost a whisper.
'' I do know how you feel.'' Pluto suddenly said with a strong but broken voice Neptune had never heard before.'' You just didn't know.I know how you've felt the last past years and do you wanna know why ? Because i wake up every morning knowing i can never be with my love , simply because destiny had other plans for me.I'm Sailor pluto , the one who's doomed to stand alone through the test of time.So don't tell me i don't know how you feel , because i feel it everyday.I never had a chance with my love , you had but you two took that for granted.I never got the chance...'' Pluto now cried.It was the first time Neptune had ever seen her friend cry.
'' I...i didn't know...'' Neptune said feeling guilty all of a sudden.When she tried to comfor Pluto like she had just done with her Pluto backed away.
'' Don't touch me.'' The green haired woman said and turned around heading for the door.
'' I had the chance...'' Neptune whispered after the woman who was now gone.'' But now i lost it...''
When I think of you I'll remember
How you looked at me when we met
But the way that you're looking at me now
I'll do my best to forget
To be continued ! I hope ya'll liked it so far , because i'm running out of idea's ! Ah and again thanxx for all the reviews ! Ah yes the next chapter is almost done , it's about how Haruka and Michiru had met ( my way ) and became senshi.It will be a flashback , written from Neptune's point of view !