a/n: inspired by the summary to mimi's 'proposal' on gurabiteshiyon . net
Title: You Dare Not Think It.
Pairing: Shuichi/Yuki
Rating: R
Genre: Angst
Length: Drabble. 290 words.
Summary: Shuichi is pondering proposals and Yuki.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation.
1You can't really understand your reasoning when you went and bought the ring. You know that you won't give it to him, it will lie there in the little box in your jacket pocket – occasionally taken out and turned between your sweaty palms. But you'll only put it back there again – back in the box and slipped into the pocket of your orange jacket.
You hope that someday you'll be brave enough. You have done a lot of things based on your hope in him – in your relationship. But you know - deep inside, that hope is fading in you.
You wonder how – if you ask – he'll say no. Perhaps he'll start laughing at you the way he did when you proposed getting a puppy together, perhaps he'll tell you that you're a stupid kid and that you have delusions of yourself. Or, perhaps – and this is what scares you the most – he will just look at you for a moment, then pretend he didn't hear you. Because ignorance is one thing you can't stand from him. Any reaction is better than none at all.
You dare not think of him answering anything other than 'no', dare not think it – but you still hope. It's still there, the little voice inside you telling you not to let go, that he'll come around soon – that he'll realise just why you're there and what that – what you – mean to him.
Then there is that time late at night when, just as he is overcome with his orgasm, he murmurs into your hair; "Yes... Shuichi, yes..." and you can't help but feel the little jolt in your stomach and hope that this, THIS is what he'll answer – but you dare not think it.
a/n: I'm going to make a sequel to this. Someday. Because it wouldn't be me unless I tried to make the ending happy. Altough, it's terribly cannon as it is... So, anyway, UU8 is underway, along with a very long additional scene winks