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Parings: Naruto and Sasuke

Kindness flowed from the brunette as he nuzzled his face into the warmth of Naruto's neck. The blonde's eyebrows rose, staring at the affectionate boy. How different he's changed, this isn't how Naruto remembered him. From the first day that they met there was a strange aura that came from avoidant youth. Something that drew you to have feelings for him, some where from his cold stare right down to the fluid motions of his steps. Curiosity made you fall for him. And curiosity made you keep your distance.

"Sasuke I-" words stopped as cool lips slipped over his. Naruto's eyes remained open looking at his partner's scrunched eyelids pressing tightly against each other adjusting to the feel of kissing his closest friend in such an intense way. The blond caught slightly off guard let his mouth move gracefully over the brunette's, taking in this feeling that he had been longing for, for such a long time.

After a few uncomfortable moments of the new texture Sasuke relaxed his tense face and licked his dry lips nervously. He let his lower jaw hang in mid-air, frozen, waiting for Naruto's to join his again. The blonde took notice of the playful measure, and all thoughts of another possible lover vanished from his mind. Now the only thing that he was interested in were the pictures in his mind of the Uchiha sitting on his lap kissing him with so much eagerness and anticipation Naruto could hardly hold back. Their lips met again and their bodies moved closer to each other. But just when the soft sweet kiss started to pick up the younger blonde could feel his own hand slipping under the fabric of his partner's pant shorts. Sasuke's breath hitched as he whispered four simple words that would start a whole mess of trouble for the two ninja.

"I love you Sensei…"

Almost instantly Naruto broke away to stare at the Uchiha. Their first real kiss and something had to interfere.

The brunette furrowed his brow in confusion he tilted his head to the side to look up at Naruto, who had a look of mortification plastered on his face.

"What's wrong Naruto?" were the words that slipped out of the Uchiha's smooth quivering lips, his voice unstable.

Hesitation was in Naruto's response.

"Why did you say that Sasu-kun?" Naruto's semi-horrified express scared the brunette.

His onyx eyes screwed up in fright, "I-I Naru-kun I'ma sooo sorry! I didn't mean that I swear! Don't be mad at me…"

The blond massage his temple caught between frustration and annoyance. "Sasuke." In a serious tone, "what happened?"

"N-noo!" Sasuke panicked he sprung off the blond and left the morbid room as fast as he could down the dark halls of the Uchiha manor. Naruto's body felt cold knowing that he had frightened the older boy away again.

"great." Naruto threw an arm in the air in front of him, in hopes to relieve some personal frustration. It didn't help.

Nono no nono! Stupid! He'll hate me he'll hate me forever. Sasuke's thought repeated over and over again as he ran. He ran as far as he could. He was remembering all the times he had been with his sensei, how much he missed him.

Sasuke foot steps had lead him to a stone wall, the Kage monuments, his hands reached up and rested on the cold rock. He pounded it hard with the side of his fist as he choked on memories from long ago.

Kakashi would hold him close and tell him ' your nothing special to anyone… but you're the only thing precious to me ' those words meant the world to Sasuke, but he didn't care that he would never hear them again. No. the only thing he wanted was to see was Kakashi smiling down at him.

The Uchiha let the small memory remind him that he was once happy a long time ago. The images in his mind would fade quicker than the use to, only to be replaced with pictures of the blonde standing by his side no matter what had happened. All the time he had helped him live through another day.

"I should have told him," the brunette fell on to the back of his legs.

Naruto walked up behind the smaller man and placed his tanned arms around aboust Sasuke's shoulders, "I would have listened," he said in a mature reassuring voice, "and I still will if you trust me enough."

Sasuke held on to the arms that surrounded his neck. His voice seemed to have had vanished so all he could do was nod.

"you'll tell me when your ready okay?"

Another brief tilt of the brunette's head followed, and the new rain sprinkled over the hidden leaf village. The two ninja stared upward at the hazy sky when a chilling breeze swept over them. Naruto took a hold of Sasuke and carried him in his arm back to the blonde's house.

When they entered Sakura was nowhere around but the damage was evident. Chairs and tables had been flipped, more of Naruto's little trinkets had been broken in most likely frustration. In any different situation the blond would have reported this to Tsunade, but this wasn't a different situation this was an on going problem that happened a couple times a year. She would look for someone, basically anyone that would be willing to challenge her. And when the answer was 'no' or 'I can't right now' her reactions weren't exactly rash.

Sasuke looked up to Naruto with a guilty expression and when the taller boy caught sight of such a sad face he chuckled and flashed him a kind grin.

"it's not your fault, ya no?"

"It wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been here."

"Maybe, but who knows, Sakura-chan might be going through a phase in her life where she just likes making a mess."

"I doubt it." Sasuke then began to walk over to the chairs that had been turned over and turned it up to its proper position. The blond boy couldn't help but smile at the Uchiha but his smile quickly fell. In the bottom of his stomach something churn and there was something that suddenly made the feeling of guilt reach the surface.

"Sasuke…"

'You never asked for this,'

'You never really wanted to be with me. Did you?'