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A/N: I am terribly sorry about how long it took me at updating. Apparently the chapter got deleted when I send it to my beta, and when I send it for the second time she accidentally deleted it. And I have very bad news too. My beta cannot beta for me any longer because she is very busy at the moment and does not have the time. If anyone that is reading this and is interested to beta just let me know. But if you want to beta your hotmail has to be something Thank you and again I'm sorry about the lateness.

A/N 2: THIS CHAPTER IS NOT BETA READ. So there are most likely more errors then usually and I am very sorry about that.

But anyways...

Chapter ten: Is it really worth it?

"Are you ok James you have barley spoken a word in all day?" Harry asked concerned

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just a bit nervous. I wish I was as good as you in DADA" James lied

"Mmmm, I wouldn't worry so much about it James. You'll do grate. You always do. And besides even if I am as good as you say I am it doesn't really help if this is anything like the usual dueling clubs are for me. Maybe if I am lucky it will turn out like last time," Harry said thinking about when Draco had made a snake in a duel with him.

"Psst, Harry, is James ok? He looks a bit... weird Ron asked

"Well he says that he is just worried for the club later, but he is lying" Harry whispered back

"How do you know?" Mione, who had been listening, whispered to Harry

"Well firstly the James I know from both home and here wouldn't be nervous with something like this and besides I can tell when he lies" Harry said blushing a little

"How can you tell? Are you saying that he has been lying to us?" Ron asked

"Well there is of course the a little fact that we are not supposed to know about Remus, and no other than that they haven't lied to us. He always looks like that when he is lying to the teachers"

"But the full moon was just last week, the next one won't be anytime soon, so why should he be lying'" Mione asked

"I think that he is starting to suspect something about us"

"You think he knows?" Ron asked horrified

"No, I just think that he is getting rather curios about us. I mean he isn't stupid, and he will probably now by now that what we have told him doesn't add up. And besides we never talk about our past, we are always having secrets and then I suppose that it doesn't really help that we disappear every night" Harry whispered

In the mean time on the other side of the room James, Sirius and Remus were talking.

"I know you were lying to Harry. Why?" Sirius asked

"I don't know really. I have just been thinking. I mean surely you have noticed all these tings about them?" James asked

"Huhh?" Sirius

"Well some," Lupin said

"What are you guys talking about? Sirius asked annoyed

"I am talking about that I have been wondering all day what they are hiding and trying to convince my self that they aren't death eaters" James whispered

"Why would you think that?" Sirius asked shocked

"I don't know, maybe because they never talk about their past, they are always hiding something, and even you must have noticed that they disappear every night. I mean we don't know anything about them." James said

"What are you talking about of course we know stuff about them. We know that they all come from a small school in a small village that was attacked and they were kidnapped but got away and came here in hope to start a new life. And besides what does there past mean anyway? We have taken them under our wings James and I trust them. I have been hanging out with them for a month now and I may not know all about Ron's mom or know what happened to Harry but I still know them. I can't believe that you think that they are death eaters James! I mean it's not like we don't have any secrets!" Sirius snapped at his best mate

James looked a bit ashamed and didn't say anything. He just nodded and stood up,

"Hey guys, Harry, Ron, Mione, go find Gin, dinner is almost done. If we are supposed to eat anything I suggest that we leave now."

So Harry, Ron, James, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Mione and Ginny all walked together to dinner, but found the Great Hall almost empty. They had missed dinner and the dueling club was about to begin.

"I would have thought that there would be a better turn up," Ron whispered to Harry when Dumbeldore stood up to address them all.

Even if Harry didn't say anything he couldn't help but agree. There were only three slytherins. Blaizes dad and then Malfoy and Snape were there most likely too spy for Voldemort. In Hufflepuff there were two seven years and only one sixth year. In Ravenclaw there were a bit more, three seven years, three sixth years and two fifth years. But there were way more in Gryffindor. All of the seventh years, (three) all of the sixth years (13) and most of the fifth years (5)

"I want to thank you all for coming to night. You are all here to take a stand for Hogwarts in this war. It brakes my hart that I have to do this, but you must be trained properly because I can guarantee that most of you will one day have too use what you are about to learn. I just hope that it will be later than sooner. Voldemort will most likely attack the school sometime in the next two to three years and I want you all prepared. Not just for that battle but also for yourselves. But I won't interrupt any longer... it is with my great pleasure that I bring you Mr. Moody who is a well-known auror that has agreed to teach you all. This class is only a try out, if you do not wish to come back you don't have too but if you do come back next week this class will be on your time tables."

The students all clapped madly when Moody entered the Hall and some even asked for an autograph much to Moody's annoyance. The travelers all noticed a huge difference in Moody. For one his leg was fine, he didn't have as many scars, his nose was also fine and his magical eye was missing. He actually reminded Harry on a pirate, he had a black thing around his eye and Harry suspected that it was around this time he must have gotten his eye.

"Good day class, I am Alastore Moody and I'll be teaching you how to duel. I expect you to be serious and I will not dolerite any goofing around in my class" Moody growled" Now when I read your name you will step forward and I will tell you who you are supposed to pair up with"

Moody looked over the crowd and barked

"Amos Diggory, seventh year Ravenclaw"

Harry paled a bit when Cedrics dad stepped up, but a reassuring hand on his shoulder from Ginny calmed him down

"And Lucios Malfoy a seventh year Slytherin"

Amos looked horrified at the idea of paring up with Malfoy but didn't dare say anything too Moody

"Severius Snape, a sixth year Slytherin and Remus Lupin, A sixth year Gryffindor,

David Zabini a fifth year Slytherin with Peter Pettigrew a sixth year Gryffindor

Kate West a fifth year Gryffindor and Doreen Hudson a sixth year Hufflepuff

Frank Longbottom a seventh year Gryffindor and Alice Green a sixth year Gryffindor

John Johnson a fifth year Gryffindor and Linda Clarkson a seventh year Huffelpuff

Sirius Black a sixth year Gryffindor and Ron White a sixth year Gryffindor

James Potter a sixth year Gryffindor and Harry Jameson a sixth year Gryffindor

Hermione Granger a sixth year Gryffindor....

And so Moody continued to pair up the students, in the end Mione had Lily and poor Ginny had Draco.

"When you are in class it doesn't madder in what house you are, it doesn't madder what old you are and it doesn't madder what you have learnt before. Out in the real world you will face all kinds of people and you will have too learn how to do so. To day we will start at the beginning. I want you to practice the expelliarmus spell. You all know that spell right?"

A seventh year Ravenclaw by the name Anne nervously but her hand up in the air

"Sir? Isn't it a fourth year spell?"

"Yes it is Miss Burton, but like I said. You will start from the beginning here. Now has anyone else a question?"

No one said anything

"Good, Now before we begin I am going to tell you one thing...

Harry and the time travelers looked at each other each thinking the same thing

... CONSTANCE VILENGE. Now begin ---------------------

Harry was looking at Mione and his mother curse each other with interest. At first his mother had been rather reluctant to curse Mione but when Mione had disarmed her the third time things started to happen. Harry had already disarmed James 32 times and James had disarmed Harry about 15 times. Now they had had enough and were just watching their friends. Ron was barley winning Sirius and Ginny and Draco was tie. Peter of course was loosing and Remus was winning. Mione was also just barley winning Lily. All of the sudden Harry felt depressed. He hadn't gotten to know his mother very much over the time he had been here.

Mione and she were pretty close and they often pared up in classes. Ginny was also rather close to her but not as Mione. She preferred the company of Alice, the other Gryffindor sixth year. But they still got along great. The girls had often tried to get Lily and Alice, who was actually Neviells mom, to hang out with them. But Lily flat out refused to associate with the likes of Potter (James) and every time Harry and the guys were alone she didn't talk much to them, only to the girls. Mione and Ginny had tried to tell Lily that Harry wasn't like his father but Lily was having a hard time buying it. Alice on the other hand was with them whenever she got the chance too. Witch wasn't that many times since she was always with her boyfriend Frank or Lily her best friend.

Harry was torn out of his thoughts when he saw a familiar figure in the Hall and gasped loudly bringing the attention of the group.

"What's wrong Harry?" Alice asked

"N-nothing" Harry stammered, his eyes never leaving the figure

Hermione saw where Harry was looking and quickly followed his gaze. She also gasped but was wise enough to turn around again so the others wouldn't see anything.

"Nothing my ass, what is it?" Sirius asked looking at Mione

"I-I'm not sure. Harry is that what I think it is?" Hermione asked her voice shaking

"If your thinking of last Christmas then yeah" Harry said, his voice flat and emotionless

James and the others looked at Harry in surprise never have hearing him sound so... dead before

"Harry mate, what is it? Are you feeling ok?" James asked concerned

"I-I don't know" Harry said sighing and for the first time glad that he was in a wheelchair.

"Harry" Ron said sounding horrified," You guys are not meaning that what happened so we had to go early last year is happening again"

"If you are talking about what happened also in the history exam then no that is not happening now. I don't think that he can have those when he is so far away," Mione said thinking,

"Hang on... are you talking about what happened to dad is here?" Ginny said in realization

"Yeah" Mione said as she watched Ron's confuse look turn into a horrified look

"Emm, excuse us, but would you care stop talking like that and tell those of us that don't get what you are saying, what is happening? James asked annoyed

Ron, Ginny and Mione all shared a look

"Look, James we can't talk about it. It could have extremely bad consciences if we do. Something that none of us are ready to deal with right now. Can we just talk about it later? Mione said hopefully

"No, we can't" James said sternly shocking everyone

"Look James we ca...

"No you look Mione. We have had to but up with you lying to us for a month now and I have had it. I want to know what it is that you are all hiding. I want to know what Harry did last Christmas and in the History test, I want to know what happened to Ron's dad and what that has to do with everything, I want to know where you go every night, I want... Harry interrupted James

"What part of, we-can-not-tell-you don't you get? It is not our chose. Even if we wanted to tell you we couldn't and besides believe me when I say that you do not want to know our secret."

"What is the harm in telling me what happened in your test or what happened to their dad? James yelled. Almost everyone were now watching the teens fight so no one noticed the snake when he slithered towards the two.

"Maybe that isn't so harmful, but what then? Then you will always demand to know more and more and more and more. And we just can't tell you."

"And why not? I thought we were friends. But I guess not"

"We are friends d-James" Harry said quietly with hurt in his voice

"Then why don't you just tell us? And don't give any of that bloody I can't shit Harry. If we were your true friends then you could tell us even if it was against some rule. Besides there must be something you can tell us. I mean we don't know anything about you. You never talk about the past; you never talk about your family you never talk about your village or your friends and family that supposedly died that night. You never talk about how you got here or how you know all the stuff you know. I mean you guys aren't even sad that your friends and family are all dead. Harry was the only one that was depressed and he and Mione are the only ones that actually have family? Why don't you ever talk about them? Do they even exist? Because frankly I don't believe that they do! It just doesn't add up. None of the crap you say does. How did you get in a wheelchair Harry? You said that you weren't in one when you were kidnapped and how did you get it anyway? I doubt the one that did kidnap you gave it to you? Hell I even doubt that Jameson is your real name. Why are you even here? Not to study anyway, I haven't seen you open a book since you came. Maybe you are here to spy? Huhh? Or you are here too... o hell I don't know but tell me Harry if that is even your bloody name, why are you here? James yelled

Harry looked at his father hurt. No he was beyond hurt. How could his father be so cruel? A small part of Harry understood but he still didn't have to yell at him in front of the headmaster, a famous auror, the healer and half the school and accuse him to be a death eater.

"James, we didn't mean to hurt you I had no idea that you felt like this. I mean I knew that you knew that something wasn't right but I didn't know it was so serious. Look, I'm really sorry for hiding these things from you but I can't answer any of your questions. It isn't my in my power. I'm sorry James and I hope that you'll understand that there is nothing my friends or I can do. Can we perhaps just talk about it later?" Harry said looking dispread, hoping that his father would believe him more than anything else in the world.

James looked at Harry and his eyes softened a bit but he still didn't look sure. When he was finally about to answer he didn't get the chance because the snake had made his way to the two boys, who were standing in a circle formed by curios students and professors.

Some of the girls screamed when they saw the huge ugly snake. Harry cursed himself in silence for forgetting about Nagini and quickly looked at the headmaster and he saw right away by the look on the man that he knew who the snake was and who it belonged to. Before anyone could do anything the snake started hissing at Harry. But to Harry it was speaking.

So we have a young speaker in Hogwarts. Why is it that I have not heard of you young one?

Harry didn't answer. He couldn't answer; the whole school would think that he was a death eater.

Why don't you speak? Are you afraid that they will all find out that you have the gift to speak to snakes? I know you are a light wizard, which is weird. You must be the first light wizard ever to have the gift. The snake hissed, but seeing the confused look on Harry he added

You must be wondering how I know that you are a speaker?

Unconsciously Harry nodded lightly and thank god no one noticed. Well no one expect Dumbeldore and Remus.

"So you don't know parselmouth magic and you can not control your gift. This is interesting. But I will cool your curiosity for know. We snakes can read wizards aura, that is how I know that you are light but your aura doesn't say if you are a speaker or not. That I can feel, because I am the queen of the snakes. My master should be pleased to know that I have found a good asset to his forces. You are only a child, you should not be too hard to convince young one." The snake hissed to himself

Harry who was now shaking with rage couldn't help it and spoke,

Fat chance Nagini. I will never join that snake face ass. I hate him and I will do anything to bring his downfall

If snakes could smile then Nagini would be smiling. Harry relishing what he had done was looking horrified. No one said anything, everyone were looking at Harry. Then the snake begun to talk again.

You young ones. It is so ease to provoke you. Now it will only a madder of time until you will come crawling to us.

Harry who had already blown it decided that it couldn't hurt to finish what he had started said,

And just what do you think will make me do that?

Soon your friends will all turn against you, they will blame anything that goes wrong on you, they will think you are evil and you will have no one. Soon the loneliness will kick in and then you will remember us. And that we don't care that you can speak. We like it even, so as a last resort you will come begging

That is a nice theory but you see that most of my friends already know of it and they don't care and frankly I don't care what the others think. So you can just go back to your master and tell him all you want but make sure that you will also tell him that no madder what he will do, I WILL NEVER JOIN HIM. If he try's anything it will only make me want to kill him more Harry hissed dangerously

You are an interesting speaker and my master will look into you. I will leave now but I will see you soon speaker Nagini hissed and then she slowly slithered away.

Finally everyone seemed to get over their shocks and Harry was hurt and angry by the amount of hate, disappointment and anger in James eyes

"HOW COULD YOU JAMESON? WE TRUSTED YOU" He yelled

"So now I am Jameson?" Harry asked softly but everyone heard him

"No you are not even that. You are a waist of space Harry Jameson, you are nothing but a disgusting death eater or maybe even worse, and I regret the day I let my eyes on you. I hate you and I hope with all my hart that you will either die a very painful death or worse. You are not worthy of my words Jameson" James spat out hatefully

Harry wanted nothing more than to be left alone so he could cry. He was hurt by his father words. He knew that if James knew the truth he wouldn't say something like that but he was still hurt and angry. Very angry indeed

"Don't you talk like that to me James Potter! You haven't gotten a clue what you are on about! You want to know what happened in that test huhh? or what happened to Ron and Ginny's dad? Well I'll tell you what bloody happened. I had a freaking vision James; I had a vision of Ron's dad! I also had a vision in my history OWL's test of my bloody godfather! You happy know James huhh? Or do you want to know more! Ohh yes you wanted to know where I go every night. Well you see that the rezone you don't see me study is that I go every night in a secret room and BLOODY STUDY!!!!!!! And you know what, you are right. Our families didn't die. Nor did they have any kind of accident, but then why are we here since there was no attack? BECAUSE WE WERE BLOODY KIDNAPPED. And don't you ever dare to say anything else. You wanted to know this and now you do. And don't you EVER dare to accuse me of being THAT again just because I am a bloody parselmouth. I didn't like just wake up one night deciding that I wanted to speak to snakes. I have tried my hardest to live a normal live but you people are making it SOOOOOOOOO hard that even begin to wonder if it is even worth it." Harry yelled back furious

"Yeah? Well you wanna know something Jameson? I think that everything you just said is a loud of crap. I think that your muggle family did something to make you angry. I don't know maybe they made you help around the house. No on the other hand they probably didn't. You probably had a great life. Didn't you? Family that looked out for you, got everything you wanted, had bunch of friends. I think that is probably it. Your life must have been something. But why did ya turn tu...

"James Harold Potter, don't you dare to finish that sentence you will be so extremely sorry that you will never dare stand a food in the hospital wing again!" Poppy yelled at James startling everyone.

"Yes I think that Poppy has a point," Dumbeldore said finally stepping in" I think that you, Mr. Jameson and your friends and I should continue this in my office. The rest of you may go to bed and I hope that you will all come next week"

And so Dumbeldore, Poppy, Harry, Mione, Ron, Ginny and Draco all headed for the headmaster office with, James, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Lily and Alice following.

When they were finally in the office and all seated, Dumbeldore spoke up,

"So Mr. Jameson, what have you to say for your self?" He said sternly his eyes lacking the usual twinkle they always held.

"What? You-you think that I am nothing but a low common death eater" Harry asked incuriously

"If you were dark Harry, you would be with out a doubt more then a low common death eater. Now what do you have to say for your self?" He said in the same tone.

Harry just looked at his mentor in disbelief. He had always thought that he could count on him. He knew that they couldn't be as close as they used to be in the future but he had always believed that Dumbeldore would be fair. Why were everyone turning against him now?

"I have nothing to say to myself sir, because I have done nothing wrong." Harry said in forced calmed voice

Ron said something under his breath but Harry didn't understand

"I see. Let me remind you Mr. Jameson that this is your last chance. Do you remember what I said when I allowed you to enter this school?"

"Yeah you said that if you saw something you didn't like about us or something like that you would kick us out. But we have not done anything to deserve that Professor" Harry said angry

"You don't think that I should kick you out, as you say it? You must understand that if you do not explain your self this will have much worse consciences than kicking you out of school. I will have to report to you to the ministry for Dark activity. Do you not wish to say something?"

Harry didn't say anything so finally after a minute of silence the professor said,

"Show me your arm Mr. Jameson"

"WHAT?" Harry yelled. That was the worst question he could ever hear. It was a disgrace, "I will to no such thing," Harry yelled at the headmaster.

"If you do not show me your arm I will have no choice but to contact the ministry"

"And say what Albus? You have no proof for anything dark" Poppy spoke up.

"Are you telling me that you knew about his... ability and you didn't tell me?" Dumbeldore said sounding angry

"I didn't exactly know about his ability to speak to snakes and even if I did I couldn't tell you. You know the laws Albus. A healer cannot discuss about his patient under no circumstances. And besides, I have no believe that Harry is Dark beside everything."

"So you do know his secret?" the headmaster asked hopeful

"Yes I do, and no I am not going to tell you. If I did I would loose my license or be sent to Askaban" The witch said

"Yes, yes I know" Albus said disappointed" Mr. Jameson show me your arm now" He then said forcefully

"No I won't and you have no right to ask me to do that, specially In front of the half school" Harry yelled

"Oh for crying out loud Harry, just show him your arm so we can leave." Ron finally said

"What? You the pureblood wizard should of all know what an insult it is to be asked something like that" Harry said mad

"Yes I know, but face it Harry, it is your own fault. You blew it when you started speaking to that bloody snake in front of everyone and beside if you show them your will prove them wrong and we can just forget about this" Ron said

"I won't do it Ron, I didn't do anything wrong and frankly I am surprised in you headmaster. Just because I can speak to snakes it doesn't make me automatically evil. I can't control it. I didn't choose to be like this. To be cursed like this. I would have thought that you of all people would have understood. But obviously I was wrong. If you are not pleased with my stay here because you have a problem with my ability I will leave. But there is no rezone my friends shouldn't be allowed to stay"

"I am afraid that I can't do that Mr. Jameson. You can not leave until we are sure that you are not a threat," Dumbeldore said gravely

"You can't keep me here against my will. You are not the minister professor and it is not in your power to contemn me." Harry said

Dumbeldore didn't say anything. He stood up and walked towards Harry and kneeled in front of him.

"Give me your hand Harry"

"No"

"Harry, it is for your own good"

"No"

"Fine if you don't want to then I have no choice but to do this." The headmaster said and then he gripped Harry's hand

"Let go of me you old man," Harry said trying to take his hand back, but Dumbeldore was way stronger than he looked like and after a few minutes of struggling he finally manage to lift Harry's sweater. And to everyone's, expect Harry's friends surprise there was no dark mark. There were only old scars covering the skin

"I told you that I wasn't a death eater old man" Harry spat and then he forcefully took his hand back and was about to leave when Dumbeldore spoke up.

"We are still not done here Harry"

"Yes we are"

"No, you may not bare the dark mark but there are still a few matters that need to be sorted"

"Like?" Harry spat

"I know that you have been lying. I need to know the truth about you and if I believe that you are not a threat then you can stay." The old man said

"My secrets are my secrets, and they do not concern you in any way so I will not be informing you of them. And I have no desire to stay here any longer, so you don't need to worry about that sir" Harry said, and before anyone could say anything Harry left the room.

"Oh shit" Ron finally said

"We have to find him," Mione said

"Relax, he isn't going anywhere. He has nowhere to go to," Ginny said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"That may be the case but Harry isn't thinking straight right now and he will most likely do anything to find away out of here. We need to search the school and we need help to find him before he does something beyond repair. Professor you need to send someone to look for him and you also need to alert the professors. Me, Ron and Ginny can take the dungeons" Mione said worried and hoping that the headmaster would see some sense.

"Miss Granger, I do not have the time or the people to go looking for some child with teenage problems," the headmaster said

Before Mione could yell at her headmaster Poppy interfered

"Hermione, I think that you should tell the headmaster the truth. Not all of it but some of it so he will understand the importance of this and will stop acting like a brat"

"But Madam Pomfrey we don't have the time to go into that and besides we need to have Harry's ok" Ginny replied

"Look either way we don't have time so I'll make a deal with you headmaster. You help us and we will talk to Harry and make him answer some of your questions, so long as they do not involve accusing him of being Voldemorts son or something. Deal?" Mione said

Dumbeldore looked at Mione for a while and then opened his drawer and took out something and tossed it into the fireplace and yelled, "Minvera McGonagall" And the head of the professor appeared in the fireplace.

"What is it Albus? It's past midnight for crying out loud," She said not noticing the people in the office.

"I need you to contact Miss Burton, Mr. Davidson, Mr. Flitchwick, Miss Zellor and gather the ghost and make a full search in the school and the school grounds for Mr. Jameson" Dumbeldore said fast.

If this request sounded weird to the professor she didn't say anything, she just nodded and left the fireplace.

"You got your self a deal Miss Granger and I expect you to stand up to your end of the deal, with or with out anyone's consent" Dumbeldore said sternly.

Hermione gulped and said nervously "Yes I will do as I said, Me, Ron and Gin are going to search in the dungeons and in other places he might be in" Mione said

"I'll search the Astronomy tower and the area there around" Draco surprisingly offered

"And you are going straight to bed,"Dumbeldore said to James and his friends, "Now off you all go" He watched the students leave his office, when everyone had left except Draco and Poppy he spoke up, "I am going to come with you Mr. Milroy"

Draco looked rather surprised but nodded anyway and when they were about to leave Poppy ran up to them and said, "I'm coming too" And so the three of them all left together walking in silence.

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While this was all happening Harry was sitting in his wheelchair in the highest tower in Hogwarts looking at the night sky in front of him thinking about life.

He sighed and made up his mind. He couldn't take it anymore. All the hate, the hurt ness, the killing and the despair that he caused. It didn't matter if he ended it now. Voldemort would do it anyway later. It was better if he did it on his own. And with these thoughts Harry used all his strength to pull him on the edge of the tower and after some effort he was finally sitting on the edge with his legs hanging out of the tower.

But did he deserve to die such a good death, after all he had done? Harry thought to him self. No he deserved so much worse, he thought but in the end the result would be the same so it didn't madder that much. So instead of thinking about some more painful way of killing himself he took a knife out of his robes and then took his other hand and looked at his wrist. If he looked closely he could see some faint scars that run across his wrist. He remembered when he had gotten those. They were most likely the only scars he had besides his scar on his forehead that weren't after his uncle. They were after him. He had been about eight or so when he had started to gut him self, but he had stopped when he started to go to Hogwarts. But now it didn't madder. He took the cold knife and pushed it against his soft cold skin. And then he gut. The pain was bitter sweet and Harry watched as he let the blood run freely from his arm. He threw the knife somewhere away and continued to watch the sky. When he couldn't feel the pain anymore, he got looked down once and up once and then he prepared himself to jump, but as he was about to do it a voice interrupted him.

"Harry what are you doing, get down. Now!" the voice that Harry thought was familiar said. Then it yelled, "I found him" He could here footsteps and then there was a gasp. "Harry don't do it. Turn around slowly and we will help you down here and everything will be fine ok?"

Harry didn't say anything at first but then he said so softly that no one heard, "No"

"I'm sorry, what did you say, I didn't hear you?"

"I said no" Harry said louder and more forcefully

"No what? The voice said

"No, everything won't be fine." Harry said feeling a bit dizzy of the blood loss.

"Yes it will be, the headmaster is very sorry about what he said and he now knows that you aren't evil, no one thinks that anymore" the voice lied, but Harry didn't know that.

"No it won't. Don't you understand? It doesn't madder what Dumbeldore thinks of me. I can't even blame him about thinking that I am evil. I mean I should have known, they all did it in my second year too." Harry almost yelled

"But if you don't care than why don't you come down"

"I DO CARE" Harry yelled" That is why I need to do this! Don't you see? It doesn't madder if I care or not. They all get hurt anyway. I have hurt and killed enough persons in my life and its needs to stop, and there is only one way. Please tell Mione and the Weasley's that I love them and that I'm sorry and that it was for there own good and please say Draco and my f- I mean James, Sirius and Lily that I love them too and that I am not angry with none of them"

Harry didn't wait for a reply but instead he pushed himself of the edge.

Everything seemed to go still when the people watched Harry fall in slow motion down the school. It seemed to be forever but in reality it was only one second, when finally the one that had been speaking ran forward and threw him self off the edge and just barley able to grape Harry's ankle. But he kept slipping and was about to fall of himself and just manage to say in barley a whisper, help us god dammed"

This seemed to make the other people wake up and a voice said wingardium Leviosa. And the two boys flew back in side the castle.

When Harry didn't feel the cold air anymore and didn't feel any pain he opened his eyes and saw that lay on the floor inside the Astronomy tower and then he saw that the one that had been talking to him was Draco Malfoy and that he was holding him. Then he past out.

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Ron, Mione and Ginny had been searching for Harry for about an hour. He wasn't in the secret room and he wasn't anywhere to be found. They were walking right past the Slytherin common room entrance when they saw professor Mcgonagall running towards them.

"Professor, shouldn't you be looking for Harry?" Ron asked surprised at seeing her

"W-w-we have f-f-found h-him" Mcgonagall somehow manage to say between the gasps for air.

"Really? Where was he? Is he ok?" Mione asked when the professor had recovered

"He was found by, Mr. Milroy, Professor Dumbeldore and Madam Pomfrey in the Astronomy Tower and he is currently in the Hospital wing unconscious," The professor explained on the way.

"Why? What happened?" Mione asked

"I am not really sure, I just met up with them when they were on their way to the hospital wing and I was not given any more news. But I must say that you are the most mysterious students I have ever had. You Hermione are one of the smartest witch I have ever had the pleasure to meet but you are taking a big chance by associating with Mr. Jameson in god knows what"

"Excuse me?" Ginny said shocked

"You heard about the incident in the dueling club?" Mione asked

"Yes, I ran up with Potter and some other Gryffindors and they told me everything. He didn't seem so sure if you were so deep in the mess as he is though"

"What? What are you talking about ma'am? Aren't you talking about Harry being a parselmouth?" Ron asked confused

"Yes"

"What on earth did James tell you?" Ginny asked

"He told me that Harry had ordered a snake to attack a student and that the headmaster was about to expel him for being a death eater"

"That is not true. That son of a bitch. He is so dead when I find him" Ron said when they entered the hospital wing, so the professor didn't have time to say anything, because as soon as the teens saw Harry they ran up to him.

Hermione and Ginny gasped. He was looking so pale. There were no injures on him noticeable but he was so pale that it looked like he was dead.

"What happened?" Ginny asked Draco

"He tried to jump of the Astronomy tower," He answered softly

"HE WHAT???" Ron yelled

"I am afraid that this is not exactly true," Dumbeldore said coming up to them," he didn't try to jump, he actually did jump. And he would have died if Mr. Milroy here hadn't jumped after him. He also asked us to do something," The old professor said

"And what was that? "A paled Ron asked

"He asked us to tell James, Sirius and Lily that he loved them and that he wasn't angry and he asked us to tell You Miss Granger and the Weasley's that he also loved you and that he was sorry but that this was for your own good. Now how does he know the Weasley's? They are well known light pureblood wizardry family that live not so far away last time I checked"

"And? So Harry can't know them then? You still think that Harry is dark?" Ron asked mad

"I am not as sure as I was before but you have to understand that my thoughts are not enough to ensure the students safety. I am not even sure if he is good or evil. There are so many things that point him out to be on the Dark side but then there is the sincerity in his eyes that makes me doubt about my actions. But at the moment I will have to ignore my instincts and follow the most likely path. I don't understand why you are defending him so well. You don't seem to be so evil. You are doing no one a favor by helping him. He will only get what he deserves for his actions" Dumbeldore said kindly

"You don't know anything about his actions. What is madder with you? Why are you so sure that his secrets are dark? Has it never accrued to you that maybe he is keeping these secrets to help you? That what he is doing is actually a good thing? Because I can tell you right now that what Harry is so very much involved in we are too. But that doesn't mean that it is bad. Now if you will leave us alone so we can watch our friend" Mione said shaking with fury at the old mans words. She was really starting to dislike him.

"I am the headmaster here and you can't tell me to leave Miss Granger"

"Fine then stay, just leave us alone" Ron spat and then he closed the curtains around Harry's bed so only he, Ginny, Mione and Draco were there. He also but up some silencing charms and then they all got comfortable.

"Why is he unconscious?" Mione finally broke the silence, "He doesn't look hurt"

"He didn't hurt him self physically, he just lost a lot of blood, but Poppy fixed that up so he should wake in about an hour or so" Draco said softly

"Blood lost? How did that happen?" Ginny asked confused

"We think that he tried to gut him self first since he had a gut across his wrist" Draco said again softly

There was again silence. And the next time it was Ron that broke the silence

"I'm gonna take it. I know Harry doesn't want us to but Hell I'm gonna do it, and there is nothing anyone can do about it"

First the other looked confused, but they soon relished that he was talking about.

"Me too" Mione and Ginny said at the same time with determination in their voices

"What about you Draco?" Mione asked

Draco looked at them, not sure about what to say, but finally he relished that this wasn't the time to play stubborn and decided to tell the truth,

"Seriously I haven't got a clue. I don't support you-know-who, and I don't support my father," he spat hatefully, "but P-Harry and me don't exactly get long. I don't even know you guys"

"Then you get to know us. Stop avoiding us Draco. We have all grown and we won't judge you. But if you take advantage of us then you will be very much sorry"

Draco didn't get the chance to answer because Harry groaned. Ron quickly removed the silencing charms and opened the curtains to only revile a flushed healer, a rather angry looking headmaster and a surprised professor.

"He is waking up" Ron just said

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