DISCLAIMER: Basic outline is C.S. Lewis'. Names and events are mine.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is basically my demon writing about me. It is not for your enjoyment, though you might enjoy it. How should I know? It's just so I can see myself more clearly so I can improve myself. Oh, and I might sound a little too...sure of myself here and there, but I'm not. Trust me. I'm not sure how often I'll be posting entries, just so you know.
FEEDBACK: Love it! Even flames if they're not anonymous so that I can track you down and ask you why you flamed me.
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Oct. 13, 2003
Due to recent difficulties concerning the conversion of my newest patient, I have decided to start a journal so that I may possibly be able to examine my efforts more thoroughly.
I will begin with a brief history of my efforts with my patient. In her early years, she found her individuality. However, certain circumstances caused her to become introverted, shy and awkward, making it very easy when she was of age for me to lead her into conformity. After she recovered from a deep depression caused by her brother-in-law, a patient of Abertsnit, I took the opportunity to expose her to witchcraft. My patient had been obsessed with dark creatures and pretend magic when she was younger, and I expected to make good use of a renewed obsession. To my great dismay, my plan backfired. True, she became obsessed with authentic witchcraft, but she pitied those who used it instead of using it herself. I am afraid that the closest I was ever able to get her to practicing witchcraft was mocking the cleansing of her sister's bedroom with water, which she later regretted, mostly because she was afraid she had disappointed the Enemy, but partially because her sister retired to her room earlier than expected, before the water had the chance to dry.
I am very pleased to report that I have had some accomplishments in changing my patient's pleasant attitude. She suffers from depression, though has been fighting it rather well. She refuses to take prescription medication for fear of the side effects of the mind-altering drugs. But her fight with depression has caused her to be self-absorbed. Granted, she is much less self-absorbed than the average human, but the fact that she knows full well about her self-absorption and does almost nothing to deter it is a step towards complete indifference, which is a monumental step towards becoming a child of Our Father Below.
I am attempting to stir up in my patient a lack of concern for her shyness. It hinders her when she tries to win over other humans to the Enemy, which would be wonderful in itself if she did not care as much as she does. She is trying to become more outgoing so that she may be able to speak more freely. She has also found other ways to be a messenger of the Enemy until the time comes when she can be so more actively (if ever such a time comes). She is determined to change the stereotype placed on Christians that labels them as judgmental hypocrites. She is, in fact, the least judgmental Christian patient to which I have ever been assigned. She is also the least hypocritical, and is known for this amongst her closest friends. Although these seem to be terrible aspects for a patient to possess, I believe that I may be able to use her great lack of judgment and turn it into cold-heartedness and unconcern for others' sins against the Enemy.
This patient has proved to be a great challenge. But with effort, I believe that I will be able to win her over to Our Father Below.
Signed, Lenchweed
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is basically my demon writing about me. It is not for your enjoyment, though you might enjoy it. How should I know? It's just so I can see myself more clearly so I can improve myself. Oh, and I might sound a little too...sure of myself here and there, but I'm not. Trust me. I'm not sure how often I'll be posting entries, just so you know.
FEEDBACK: Love it! Even flames if they're not anonymous so that I can track you down and ask you why you flamed me.
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Oct. 13, 2003
Due to recent difficulties concerning the conversion of my newest patient, I have decided to start a journal so that I may possibly be able to examine my efforts more thoroughly.
I will begin with a brief history of my efforts with my patient. In her early years, she found her individuality. However, certain circumstances caused her to become introverted, shy and awkward, making it very easy when she was of age for me to lead her into conformity. After she recovered from a deep depression caused by her brother-in-law, a patient of Abertsnit, I took the opportunity to expose her to witchcraft. My patient had been obsessed with dark creatures and pretend magic when she was younger, and I expected to make good use of a renewed obsession. To my great dismay, my plan backfired. True, she became obsessed with authentic witchcraft, but she pitied those who used it instead of using it herself. I am afraid that the closest I was ever able to get her to practicing witchcraft was mocking the cleansing of her sister's bedroom with water, which she later regretted, mostly because she was afraid she had disappointed the Enemy, but partially because her sister retired to her room earlier than expected, before the water had the chance to dry.
I am very pleased to report that I have had some accomplishments in changing my patient's pleasant attitude. She suffers from depression, though has been fighting it rather well. She refuses to take prescription medication for fear of the side effects of the mind-altering drugs. But her fight with depression has caused her to be self-absorbed. Granted, she is much less self-absorbed than the average human, but the fact that she knows full well about her self-absorption and does almost nothing to deter it is a step towards complete indifference, which is a monumental step towards becoming a child of Our Father Below.
I am attempting to stir up in my patient a lack of concern for her shyness. It hinders her when she tries to win over other humans to the Enemy, which would be wonderful in itself if she did not care as much as she does. She is trying to become more outgoing so that she may be able to speak more freely. She has also found other ways to be a messenger of the Enemy until the time comes when she can be so more actively (if ever such a time comes). She is determined to change the stereotype placed on Christians that labels them as judgmental hypocrites. She is, in fact, the least judgmental Christian patient to which I have ever been assigned. She is also the least hypocritical, and is known for this amongst her closest friends. Although these seem to be terrible aspects for a patient to possess, I believe that I may be able to use her great lack of judgment and turn it into cold-heartedness and unconcern for others' sins against the Enemy.
This patient has proved to be a great challenge. But with effort, I believe that I will be able to win her over to Our Father Below.
Signed, Lenchweed