I pounded violently on the door, "Soda! Lemme in!"
Soda came to the door rubbing his eyes.
"Kimi?" he said sleepily, "What are you doing here?"
"Lacy threw me out" I said shakily, "Can I come in?"
"Yeah, of course,"
"Do you think Darry will mind?"
"I'll reason with him"
I tried to smile, "Thanks Sodapop," I said as I threw my arms around him.
I flopped down on the familiar sofa, and stretched out. Ponyboy strolled in.
"Kim!" he yelled. He ran over and jumped on my stomach. I winced.
"Oh," he said tenderly, "Sorry"
I grinned. "It's okay," and I attacked him into a hug.
Darry walked in with Jess attached to his arm.
"Hey Jess" I beamed,
"Hi Kimi," she said a bit puzzled.
"Hey Dar," I mumbled.
"Kimberly," he said sternly.
I stood up and cleared my throat. "Darry, I just wanted to say that, I'm really, really sorry" I took a deep breath, " and I didn't mean to disappoint you like I did"
His expression stayed cold for a few seconds, but he broke down and pulled me into a giant bear hug. "I'm sorry Kimi" he said lovingly, "I really am."
I didn't think he would give in this easily.
"Does this mean I can come back?" I asked hopefully while still being squeezed to death.
He finally let go of me and gave me a look of approval, "Yeah, you can come back"
"So Jess," I started, "Now we have something in common."
And surprisingly she actually knew what I was talking about.
"Yeah, I guess we do,"
"How far along are you?" I asked.
"Well, I went in to the doctor's for a check-up, and they said I've been pregnant for almost two months now."
"Wow, that's great Jess" I said sincerely. She looked up at Darry and grinned broadly.
Seeing Jess and Darry so happy together was actually kinda' depressing, knowing that I'll probably never have something like they do. I was thinking about how much I wanted to be so in love like they were. I'm most likely gonna be the last one in my family to fall in love or get married, even after Pony.
Why do relationships never work out for me? It crossed my mind that it had something to do with that whole "Karma" thing, but what have I ever done wrong? ...Don't answer that.
When I finally snapped back into reality and stopped drooling all over myself, Darry and Jess had disappeared. They just can't get enough of each other.
"Soda, what's it like to be in love" Ponyboy asked Sodapop.
"Shoot kid, how many times have you asked me that?" he said.
"Well, I dunno, I just, you always seem so happy when your around Lissa, and well, I'm trying to decide whether or not I-" he stopped suddenly.
"You what?" I asked eagerly.
"I wanna figure out if I'm in love with Kit."
Soda burst out laughing.
"What!" Ponyboy cried, "I'm serious"
"Ponyboy," Soda rested his arm on Pony's shoulder, "You cant decide whether or not you're in love. It just, happens."
"Oh," He said cluelessly.
I love how adorably naïve he is.
"You'll know when you're in love Ponyboy, you just gotta let it come to you."
Soda is really smart. At first glance you'd think that he's just a fun-loving teenager who ogles cars, I mean, he is, but he's really been around and he knows what he's talking about.
No wonder I always come to him for help to my problems.
I tried to go to sleep shortly after Soda took off too Melissa's house, but I kept thinking about random things. These weird images just kept popping into my head and they made no sense at all...
Me walking in the middle of the road kicking a rock and stumbling every time I missed it...My old cat, pickles, chasing his mouse around the room. Where are these coming from? I must've lied in bed for hours just staring at the ceiling.
Around 2:30 in the morning I got up and walked into the kitchen to stare at the refrigerator for a few minutes before I remembered that there was a bottle of sleeping pills in the bathroom. I figured it wouldn't hurt to take just one. So I popped the pill and slipped back into bed. It was only a matter of minutes before the capsule worked it's magic and I was fast asleep.
"Kim!" Darry shook my vigorously, "wake up!"
"What?" I grunted.
"Are you okay?" he asked concerned.
"What? Why wouldn't I be?" I yawned.
"You've been passed out for the last two days, Kim."
"What?" I said alarmed. I sat up quickly and looked around. Why don't I have any idea what happened? My head throbbed painfully and I squeezed my eyes shut.
"Do you know what's going on?" I asked him through clenched teeth.
"Well, the bottle of sleeping pills is halfway empty"
"Huh?" I said, "I only took one"
"That's not what the doctor said" He pointed to a medical report on the beside table.
"Doctor?" I said confusedly.
"Yeah, we called after the first day that you wouldn't wake up and he said it was an overdose that knocked you out"
"Overdose?" I said helplessly.
"Yeah, Kim," he said angrily, "An overdose"
I looked down shamefully, "Are you going to throw me out again?"
He looked at me thoughtfully. "No Kim, I'm not going to throw you out." he said reassuringly, "but I do want you to try harder to stay out of trouble. I can't keep fixin' things you mess up."
"Yeah, I know." I said, "It just seems almost impossible"
"Kim, I don't care what it seems like," he said, "All you gotta do is kick back and don't do anything you shouldn't, alright little buddy?"
"I guess," I said unsure, "Thanks Dar"
Okay, so he last two chapters haven't been so good. I'm having writers block. But I swear it will get better. Really…