CHAPTER SEVEN

Confessions Part II

Alex was doubled over with laughter. Olivia was laughing so hard tears were streaming down her face.

"Are you fucking kidding me!" Alex gasped.

"NO! He actually thought he could convert me to LDS! And I'm lying there naked thinking, this is SO wrong on SO many levels!" Olivia squealed.

The two were camped out on Alex's couch, cartons of ice cream, beer bottles and Chinese food cartons scattered every which way. For the past two hours the women had been swapping dating horror stories and love successes.

"That is just awful," Alex whined, her face flushed. "Do you want another beer?"

Olivia slapped her forehead. "Thank God I'm taking the subway home, I can't remember the last time I was this drunk."
"Oh screw it Olivia," Alex said waving her hand. "You're staying here tonight."

"That's sweet of you Alex, but I don't want to put you out," Olivia protested.

"Whatever. I have a spare bedroom and some extra clothes. You're staying," she commanded.

Olivia smirked. "Yeah, right. Like I could really fit into your clothes. What are they, a size two? I think I wore a size two when I six years old."

Alex shook her head, chucking a throw pillow at Olivia's head. She unsuccessfully tried to dodge it. "Please. Olivia you have the hottest body of any woman I know."

"Then you don't know very many women," Olivia replied laughing, touched by the compliment.

Alex smiled mysteriously. The love life chatter had been fun, and Alex had easily substituted men into all of her stories. But she couldn't help wishing Olivia knew her secret. And if she did, then what? Alex had it bad and she knew it. She could not keep her eyes off the vibrant woman.

"Alex?"

Alex snapped back. "Yes my dear?"

Olivia giggled nervously. "You were staring."

Alex blushed. "So…uh…you never told me. Why were you so upset at the hospital tonight?"

Olivia's smile faded. She decided that what happened between Elliot and her, no matter how painful, had to stay between them. "I was just having a stress breakdown…sometimes working a case just gets to be too much you know? Sometimes we take so much in, but we don't know how to let it all out in a productive manner."

Alex nodded. "I definitely know what that's like," she said softly.

"So…what's your most naughtiest sexual experience?" Olivia asked suddenly. Leave it to her to be thinking about sex. It was a topic she was more comfortable discussing.

Alex laughed. "Oh, I'm not sure, what I think is naughty others may see as tame," she explained evasively.

Olivia crossed her feet Indian style and faced Alex. "Okay then, have you ever had a threesome?"

Alex's mouth dropped open. "NO! Have you?"

Olivia smiled wickedly. "Once…when I was in high school."

Alex shoved Olivia's shoulder. "Get out!"

Olivia nodded her head. "I know, I know…I was somewhat of a loner back then, didn't really run with girls, but I had a few guy friends. One night I got really drunk with two of them…"

"Were you…violated?"

Olivia shook her head violently. "No," she said matter of fact. "I wanted to do it." Olivia had never told anyone that, not ever. But she knew that Alex would not judge her for past indiscretions. And hopefully not for future ones.

Time for a question of her own. "Okay," Alex said, "have you ever kissed a girl?" Damn. She blamed it on the alcohol. It had to be the alcohol. Alex felt panicked as soon as the last word left her mouth.

Olivia cocked her head thoughtfully. "Well…no," she said. "I have never kissed a girl before…I don't think I ever even thought about it." It was true. While Olivia was a very sexual woman, she had never given much thought to being in a same sex pairing. "How about you?"

"…Yes," Alex said, looking into Olivia's eyes. It was the first truth Alex had admitted to in a long time.

"Wow," she said laughing. "Was it good?"

Alex smiled. "It was great."

Olivia's interest was piqued. "Do women kiss better than men? What do you think?"

Dangerous territory, but Alex didn't care. "Of course. Men aren't capable of the same things that women are."

Olivia stared at Alex. Wait a minute. "How many women have you kissed," she asked nonchalantly.

Alex bit her lip. Enough was enough. "A few," she said. "Just in fun," she added quickly.

Olivia looked away, smiling. I'll be damned. "I think I'm ready to hit the sack, as my mom would say," she said lightly.

"Okay, let me get you some stuff."

Alex rummaged through her belongings and brought Olivia clothes to sleep in. Walking her to the spare bedroom, Olivia turned to Alex.

"Thanks Alex," Olivia said softly. "I really needed this. Good night."

Alex didn't move. She thought of Pam's words. Take a risk. "Do you want to kiss a girl Olivia?"

Olivia froze. "I …I don't know," she replied honestly. "Are you offering?"

Alex smiled sadly. "I just want to have the honor of the only woman who has done so."

Olivia smiled. Slowly she leaned into Alex and met her lips. They stood like that, awkward, until Alex placed her hands on both sides of Olivia's face and guided Olivia along the way. Olivia felt a shiver as Alex gave her very all, kissing her the way she deserved to be kissed.

Parting slowly, Alex stared into Olivia's eyes. "I want to be the only one who can do that."

"Only you Alex, only you. Good night."