Disclaimer: I own nothing
Warnings: Maybe slight OCC-ness and pairing hints
A/N: Those in quotation and italics are the lyrics to Cyndi Thomson's "What I really meant to say" One of my all-time favourite song.
Again, this might be confusing for some...muahahaha.Can't focus on the Golden Pair all the time right? Since this is about Fuji and Eiji and has/had some influence over the GP story, I put this piece together with "I can't make you love me"..Those in italics are either thoughts or words that are emphasized.

"It took my by surprise
When I saw you standing there
Close enough to touch
Breathing the same air"

I chose a spot under the trees, a distance away from your tree, and eyed my bento. All my appetite for it was gone when I caught a glimpse of you sharing your lunch with your partner.

It has been days since our last sleepover. You have been so distant with me… it makes me wonder… have I made the wrong decision? That I have given my blessings to the two of you? That I have advised Oishi on what to do when you were down? That I have just smiled and listened to you talking about Oishi when my heart is breaking inside?

Eiji… can't you tell how I feel about you? Is our friendship all you feel?

"You asked me how I'd been
I guess that's when I smiled
And said, "just fine."
Oh but baby I was lying"

'Poke'

"Fuuuji! Are you listening to me at all? Mou, you are being so dazed these days nyah! Maybe I should ask Inui to brew Aozu for you…and we will force it down your throat. Keke!"

Eiji hugged himself in glee as he pictured his friend fainting again. It was not because Eiji was a mean selfish brat, he just needed his best friend's attention, and he was definitely in his own world, leaving Eiji to talk to the air!

Eiji glanced at Fuji with concern; it was not like Fuji to be so silent after such a declaration. His smile seemed a little worn and there was a slight blackish tinge below his closed eyes, Fuji seemed even paler than usual.

Alarmed, Eiji thought Fuji was ill and keeping it a secret from them. He placed an arm around his best friend and peered closer at Fuji.

"Ne Fuji… are you well?"

"What I really meant to say
Is I'm dying here inside
And I miss you more each day"

He isdefinitely ill, his breathing has gotten harsher and faster, a feverish red tinge is blossoming all over his face nyah…

Fuji… I'm sorry I have been neglecting you recently, but I thought you could take care of yourself. I wished you wouldn't keep your illness to yourself. Let's go to the doctor ne?

Fuji's mind was hazy, he could not think straight. He thought he had heard Eiji talking to him but Eiji was just looking at him with those alluring eyes. He frowned slightly, a little uncomfortable under Eiji's closeness and his intense gaze. He knew Eiji would be able to see through his mask and oceans of lies should he be allowed to observe longer.

Fuji heaved a sigh, not quite willing to step away from Eiji's warm one-armed embrace.

"There's not a night I haven't cried
And baby here's the truth
I'm still in love with you
That's what I really meant to say"

"I'm all right…" Even though I'm hurting inside.

"There's no need to rush to the doctor…" It's an illness that no doctor could heal.

"I just need some more sleep…" Even if I have to cry myself to sleep and when I have finally closed my eyes, images of you still flashed by.

"Maybe we could stop by the department store today…I need to buy a better pillow…" Because all the pillows are wet from my tears.

I know you are scrutinizing me, trying to determine whether I'm lying. I know you are still concerned about me, and I'm glad I still have a place in your heart – even though it's a smaller portion, but still…I'm glad.

"Maa…maa, stop worrying like Oishi, will you? We could stop by at the ice cream stall after we purchase my pillow."

I watched your smile widen and somehow, my heart lightened and did not seem to hurt as much. Maybe I did make the right decision after all.