HE'S MY HEART'S DESIRE
Chapter 7
"So desirable…"
The next day while Candy and her friends were playing dodge ball, she saw Terry coming from a far and she decide to get herself eliminated to go sit with him. She went to sit near the water next to Terry.
- How are you Romeo?
- Fine Juliet, and you?
- A little tired for running. I'm having a break.
- You won't get into trouble?
- Because I'm having a break?
- You know what I mean; Scotland might not be big enough…
- Well it will have to be, big enough…
Annie was looking at Candy and she smiled inside. She knew Candy couldn't stay away from Terry for long. Anthony, Stear and Archie saw them, but they didn't say anything. They were on vacation and they didn't want to get punished because of another fight. Eliza had a triumphant smile.
- Anthony, where's Candy? Oh…she's with Terrence. She doesn't even hide! They look fine together. They must've had fun when we weren't here…
- Eliza… said Anthony
- What? Our arrival must've ruined their vacations
- Eliza, enough! Cried Anthony
- Ok, but it's not my words that are making you angry, it's to see them together… alright, I'll stop she said seeing Anthony's angry face
Anthony was looking at the girl he loved talking to another guy and he had a bad feeling. You could see the chemistry they had together. When the dodge ball game was over, they wanted to play prisoner dodge ball. Archie decided to go get Candy who was still with Terry.
- Candy, you're coming? We are starting a game of prisoner dodge ball said Archie ignoring totally Terry
- No, I'm resting. I'll come for the next game
- But Anthony wants you in his team
- He'll have me for the next game
- Candy… he started but he stopped
To be blown off in front of Terrence Grandchester was not a party of pleasure. He cursed the young Englishman inside.
- Ok, See you later?
- See you later said Candy
He went back to the others running.
- So? Asked Anthony
- She'll come to the next game…
- She'd rather stay with him?
- No, she's tired, that's all
- Hum hum said a sceptical Anthony
Anthony wanted to go get Candy but he didn't want to lose it in front of Terry.
Meanwhile, Candy continued talking to Terry
- Was that the cousin of the boyfriend? Asked Terry
- Why are you asking that? You know it's the cousin
- According to his attitude and the look he gave me, I would have thought he was the boyfriend
- What do you mean?
- That the dandy is in love with you…
- That ridiculous! He's in love with Annie
- Really? Freckles, you never asked yourself why, the day of the fight they helped their cousin instead of calming him?
- Yes, but…
Candy started thinking. Terry was right and he's very shrewd
- Can we talk about something else; this subject is making me uncomfortable…
Terry started laughing. Candy had blushed and didn't know what to say. He thought she was so beautiful.
Anthony was watching him laugh from afar and felt like strangling him. Eliza was very very happy, and her brother was jealous but couldn't say anything.
Candy continued helping Terry learning the role of Romeo. After reading so much with him, she started to know the role of Juliet by heart.
- Candy, it's diner time said Patty who had just arrived
- Ok, Patty. I'm right behind you. Terry, I very happy you came… bye
- Bye Freckles
Annie was waiting for her a little ahead.
- Candy, do you realise the tension you're creating by being with Terry in front of Anthony?
- Annie, you talk like I'm doing something wrong. I wanted to talk to Terry, it had been so long…
- So long? It had been two days! Listen there's no bigger fan of your "friendship" than me…. But be careful, that's all. All this tension could end up exploding.
- Hi Candy, said Neil giving her a bouquet of wild flowers, this is for you
Candy and Annie were so surprised that they didn't say a word. Candy took the bouquet.
- Euh… thanks Neil, that's nice of you
- You're very welcome
And he disappeared as fast as he appeared.
- What was that? Asked Candy, first he invites me to dance and now…
- Oh Candy, you have another one under your charm…
- No… That's not possible! Not him! Not Neil Reagan! I'm the orphan, the stable girl…
- And a very beautiful young girl with green eyes…
- I don't want to think about what he's going to do to get me. Oh Annie…
- Don't worry. He's too coward to do anything
- But if he's in love with me, like you said…
- Let's go eat; we'll worry about him later…
The rest of the vacation happened with no big incident. The tension was there, the two parties concerned were avoiding themselves like they had rabies. It was like they were competing for Candy unconsciously; they all tried to show themselves on a good day.
Eliza got tired of pining over Anthony who didn't even look at her, and started to hang out with other boys. She was often with Marshall Harris. She hoped Anthony would be jealous, but on the contrary, he was happy to have her off his back!
Candy went to the Grandchester villa on afternoon, to go see Terry. She met him at the gate.
- Freckles, to what do I owe the honour of your visit?
- Hi. I didn't see you today
- So you came to look for me he said with a mocking smile
- I wanted to see that you were all right, you could've been sick…
- As you can see, I'm fine. Thanks. I'm going to the stables to ride, you want to come?
- I can come and see the horses. You have a lot of them?
- You like horses?
- I was a stable girl…
- That's not just Eliza being mean?
- No. I was hired at the orphanage to be her lady companion. But since her likeable attitude and mine clashed so well, she said ironically, her mother had rather put me in the stable so I can take care of the horses. I even slept there…
- Oh my God! That Eliza is becoming more delicious by the minute… I'm sorry.
- Thanks, that's nice.
Candy smiled; Terry was compassionate when he wanted. They went to the stables, which were very big. There were a lot of horses. Terry walked to a nice black horse.
- This one is my favourite he said, he's name is Napoleon
- Napoleon? He's got a Josephine?
- Yes, he said smiling, she's over there, you know how to ride?
- I'm an ex-stable girl…
- Ok, you take Josephine and I'll take Napoleon. I'm going to prepare them
- Let me help you…
- You know… oh yeah, you're an ex-stable girl!
They got the horses ready. Candy realised that she forgot her handkerchief inside. She heard a weird noise and she walked towards the noise. Terry saw her and she followed her quietly.
- Where are you going? He asked whispering
- I heard a noise she answered whispering, it came from over there
They walked to where the noise was coming from, very quietly. They finally arrived at the place where the noise was coming from and they couldn't believe their eyes! Lying on the hay making love, was Eliza and Marshall! They were so caught up in their action, that they didn't even realised that they had an audience! We could see Marshall's naked body going through Eliza's naked body, she had her eyes closed and was moaning of pleasure. Candy was so stunned, that she couldn't move. Terry took her and walked her outside.
- Candy, are you ok?
She didn't answer, still stunned by what she just saw.
- Let's go for our ride she said still shocked
- Ok, but you don't want to put it off for another day?
- No, let's go
They rode for half an hour. Candy couldn't take the image off her mind, Eliza and Marshall in their sexual embrace. The image had shocked her more than she wanted to admit. Not because of Eliza, but to see her making…. Had exited her! And the ride on the horse just made it worse. The movement of the galloping horse… when they stopped at a cave, Candy got off the stretch her legs. Terry also got off and tied the horses to a tree.
- Look Terry, there's a cave here
- We can go see what's inside…
They entered the cave that had a big opening to let the sun come in. There was nothing special in the cave beside a big rock. There was hay on a corner
- It looks like a secret lover's nest…
- Maybe we should show this to Eliza and Marshall said Candy
- Here we go! Are you ok with what you've seen?
Candy didn't know how to answer. How can she tell him that what she saw excited her?
- I'm a little shocked…
- Shocked? But Eliza hates you and Marshall, you barely know him…
- Well it's the first time I see the act of…
- Making love? I don't doubt it
- It's weird, it was…
- Exciting? He said whispering in her ear standing behind her
- Yes, she said whispering and closing her eyes
- It got me excited too; if you don't count the fact that they turned my stables into their personnel bed… That's why I wanted to postpone the ride. The galloping of the horse didn't soften the matter, I bet.
- Not at all…
- I can take you back now…
- Or you can stay here until I calm down…
- Candy, you're going to drive me crazy! He said getting away from her suddenly
She looked at him surprised, they were so close a second ago. He looked angry with her.
- Terry? But, what's wrong?
- You can't continue to do this to me!
- Do what? You don't like to be with me?
- Candy…. Yes and no
- I don't understand…
- Of course you don't understand! He said getting out of the cave and walking toward the horses.
Candy stayed in the cave, confused. Seeing Eliza fornicating, the effect it had on her, and now Terry's reaction. She sat on a big flat rock and tried to calm herself but the image kept coming back into her head.
Terry was near the horses. He had to stay away from her; otherwise he would've done the unforgivable. To see that stupid Eliza doing what he always dreamed of doing with Candy… he had to calm down, she had a boyfriend; but they always seemed to find themselves together in the weird circumstances, sometimes. The role of the in the play, the fall in the lake, the hiding place in the box room and now…another voice told him he was crazy to let a chance like that slip away… He had the girl of his dreams, excited, why not take advantage? But Candy will never forgive him and that he couldn't stand.
Candy stayed in the cave and didn't dare to go next to Terry; afraid she was going to do something she'd regret. Of course, the universe had decided differently. The wind started to blow outside and the sky became suddenly dark and the thunder was heard loud, the rain started to fall very hard. The lightings and the thunder tear up the sky. Terry untied the horses and took them inside the cave. Candy came out to help him. She took Josephine and took her to the cave and Terry took Napoleon. The rain was so strong that after only a few seconds she spent outside, she was totally soaked. She was shivering. She was cold and Terry too.
- You're cold? I unfortunately don't have any blanket to give you
- I'll be fine, thanks, Terry.
But they continued shivering from the cold.
- There's a way to be warm, but I don't know if you'll agree
- Which one?
- Well, two living bodies rubbed together make heat…
- I see, I'll rub on Josephine and you on Napoleon she said smiling
- You have the sense of humour when you want to, he smiled. No, I was talking about you and me, unless you really prefer the horses and their nice odour to my cologne…
Candy sneezed, a sign that she was cold. After all, Terry's body heat was better than shivering with cold.
- Freckles, can I hold you in my arms? So we can get each other warm?
She looked at him surprised.
- You said that all I had to do to get you in my arms was to ask… I'm just following your words…
Candy smiled and walked to him. He opened his arms to greet her. They stayed like that holding each other for a while. The rain had made them cold, but now their almost forced proximity they were sharing enflamed the fire that the rain had turned off. They sat on the hay that looked like a little bed. Their mutual body heat was keeping them warm already…
- I can't believe it, said Candy
- What?
- Annie was right, she doesn't need to help us, we always seem to find ourselves alone and together
- I tried to avoid you today…he said
- But I came to see you, and we saw Eliza making…
- I tried to cancel the ride…
- And I insisted to do it…
- I went outside to get away from you…
- And Mother Nature had decided differently…
- I think Annie was right, I was thinking the same thing when I was outside, said Terry
- So, you think we should avoid each other? That's the solution?
- The solution would be that you dump your boyfriend and be with me…
- That's not funny!
- Who said I want to be funny?
- That's not an option, I'm sorry, said Candy
- Why are you sorry? He said suddenly letting go of her, you've made your choice!
Candy was cold suddenly without Terry's body heat.
- The rain had stop, we can go back she said taking Josephine outside.
He didn't answer and took Napoleon and took him outside. They didn't say a word during the all way back. When they arrived at the stables, she took Josephine inside. After arranging her, she was getting ready to leave.
- Bye Terry, and thanks for everything.
He was still silent. She wanted to stay with him, and kiss him but, she didn't want to give him false hope. Annie was telling her not to resist, but…she resisted until now, the excitement provoked by Eliza, the proximity in the cave… She had to avoid Terry in the future. It was a goodbye.
- It's for good, isn't it? He asked
- We can't continue like this. I think it's better if we don't see each other anymore… I don't want to hurt you…
- It's already done…
- I'm sorry… that wasn't my intention she said running out of there
When she arrived at the dorm, she found Patty alone, Annie was in the bathroom. Candy took her clothes off and put on the robe Terry's mother had give to her. Annie came out of the bathroom.
- Oh Candy, you're there. What's wrong? She Asked seeing Candy's funereal expression
- I decided not to see Terry anymore… she said with tears in her voice
- Oh, Candy! Said Annie taking her in her arms, come here, sweetie, it's going to be all right. What happened?
- You have to promise not to tell the boys…
- Candy, come on. You know us better than that said Annie
- No, not about Terry, but about Eliza…
- Eliza? Repeated Annie and Patty at the same time
- Yes
- Ok, we promise, cross my heart hope to die…said Annie
Candy told them what had happened and discovering Eliza and Marshall doing the deed. Annie and Patty couldn't believe their ears.
- She did it with Marshall? Asked Patty
- Oh, my God said Annie, and all that love for Anthony?
- Eliza and love in the same phrase? You kidding right? Said Candy
- She probably got tired of Anthony's indifference… said Patty
- And how did that provoke the break up between you and Terry? Asked Annie
Candy told them what had happened with Terry.
- I understood I couldn't continued like that, so I decided I was not going to see him anymore
- And how do you feel? Asked Patty
- Like I've lost a part of myself. I miss him so much already!
- Candy are you sure of what you're doing? You love Terry and you're giving him up for Anthony? Asked Annie
- I love Anthony!
- I don't disagree with you, but you also love Terry… it's not fair for you and your heart…said Annie
- But I don't want to be disloyal to Anthony
- But Candy, you are without wanting it by being in love with Terry… said Annie
- Maybe, but my decision is made. I don't want to risk doing like Eliza…
- You could've, you and Terry, but you restrained yourselves…
- Exactly, the next time who know if we could resist…
- The vacations are almost over, anyway. There's only the fair before back to school and then, it's back to St. Paul, said Patty
- In three days said Annie and we are back to St. Paul!
Candy spent the majority of the night crying over Terry. She didn't understand why she didn't want to tell him she loved him and she wanted to be with him. She didn't want to hurt Anthony, but was that worth the pain and suffering she had in her heart? Her heart was bleeding; it was bleeding because of Terry.