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October 25th: Sending a last letter

It was early morning when I awoke. Groggy, I pulled myself from the couch. I opened my eyes to let them adjust. My hair was a mess, I could feel that as I ran my hand through it. Sweat laced my body, I looked down to see my blanket and a few of the couch cushions on the floor.

"Nightmare..."

The words fell from my mouth sadly as I stood and began to pick up my mess. Once done I stretched and let out a tired yawn. Since I had been married to Laureen, I've been having the worst nightmares. I can't sleep with her. I felt a cold sadness fill me as I went to the kitchen where Laureen had made breakfast.

"Hey love, how are you?" The nickname stung my tongue as I spoke.

"I'm okay.." She replied, laid my plate down and left. I sighed. I know I haven't been the best husband... I don't think I ever will be. I began to eat as I dazed out into my own world. My body felt limp to me. I began to see images of him, my love, my life. The ranch we should have started together. The happy life we should have, as lovers, but you turned me away... Was I just your toy? How long has it been since I had seen you last? I believe it was 3 months ago... Every 4 months... It's not enough for me Ennis! I shook my head as I snapped from my daze. I had finished off my food and placed the plate and silverware gently in the sink. I turned to the calendar.

"October 25th... I should find out what day he wants me to show up." I said with a slight sigh. "I know I have a postcard 'round her' somewhere dammit..." I began digging through mounds of papers and what seemed like endless amounts of drawers. "Ah, her' it is..." I picked it up and smiled at the beautiful picture on the postcard. Brokeback Mountain, where destiny had put us together... I sighed again and grabbed a pen, sat down quickly and began to write.

Ennis, How ya been cowboy? I hear the fish out in our secret place have grown... November's a good month for fishin'. What day's good for you? Hurry and git back to me... Jack Twist

As I finished up the card I couldn't help but let a few tears fall, I loved him so much, every moment with him was heaven. Heck jus' seein' him was like lookin' at an angel. I sealed the card with a gentle kiss. "Le's git'ya mailed out..." I said standing and grabbing my coat and hat. "A'ight, le's go..." I said, knowing I was speaking to myself but hey... At least it was something. Quickly I ran out the door. The post office wasn't far from the house and it was a nice day so I decided to walk. With the postcard held tightly in my hand, I sped towards the post office. Laureen's father tried to stop me, I raised my fist to him angerly. "Git outta my way ya fat bastard or I'll knock yo ass to China!" With that I shoved past him and continued my way to the post office. I noted my son had begun to follow me and I turned to him with a smile. "Hey boy, git back home. Your papa's jus' goin' to mail a letter."

He replied "Papa di'n't say g'bye." I picked him up and kissed the top of his head.

"I'm sorry boy, now git. I'll see ya in a bit." I put him down and ruffled his hair. "Good boy..." I said as I watched him run off, then continued my way to the post office. Finally, I reached the office and went in. I gave it to the worker with a smile, paid him the sending fee and spoke. "Git this sent in a hurry, it's urgent."

The man smiled. "No prob cowboy." I nodded and left the post office, still smiling.

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