Disclaimer:I own nothing but the plot.However, I'd like to own Ricky Ullman, but you know how that goes...

I KISSED PHIL! I KISSED HIM!

My mind is spinning out of control. I can't believe I was ballsy enough to do that. Oh my God! Why DID I do that? Do I like him? Well, of course I like him but do I LIKE HIM like him? I sank into my pillows and sighed. Should I call him? Explain that it was just a "friendly kiss"? Was it a "friendly kiss"? What about jock boy? Oh, screw jock boy. I am lusting over my best friend from the future with the lips of a god and I don't feel any remorse whatsoever.

As I do in any stressful situation, I grabbed my trusty guitar. My mother bought it for me when I was 10. That guitar was about as big as I was. I carried it around like a child carries their favorite stuffed animal. It always seems to sooth my frayed nerves. My old speckled composition book sat on my nightstand. I quickly thumbed through the pages until I found what I was looking for. I always jotted down lyrics to songs that reminded me of certain people, places, times, events…life really. Quietly, so as not to alert my mother to my general feelings of malaise, I began to finger the song.

Oh, you creep up like the clouds.
And you set my soul to ease.
Then you let your love abound.
And you bring me to my knees.

Oh, it's evil,babe, the way you let your grace enrapture me.
When, well, you know, I'd be insane -
To ever let that dirty game recapture me.

You made me a shadowboxer, baby.
I wanna be ready for what you do.
I been swinging all around me.
'cause I don't know when you're gonna make your move.

Oh, your gaze is dangerous.
And you fill your space so sweet.
If I let you get too close,
You'll set your spell on me.

So, darlin', I just wanna say.
Just in case I don't come through.
I was on to every play.
I just wanted you.

As the song died, it was time for me to call him. I had to let him know what was going on in my head. My stomach churned as my hands clasped my cell phone. My pulse quickened as I dialed his number. It rang. It rang for what felt like an eternity. I wanted to throw up, to hang up, to give up. Just as I was ready to throw in the proverbial towel, his voice broke through the maddening silence.

"Hey, this is Phil. You know what to do. So, yeah. Bye."

Then, there was a beep. My mouth got dry. Say something, damnit! Anything!

"Umm, Hey I guess. It's me. I assume you're just as confused as I am right now. We need to talk. Meet me at our place at 7. Seriously, Phil. Please just be there."

I hung up. Tears filled my eyes and my face got really hot. Why am I crying? I did this to myself. It was a split second decision. Things will be normal after we talk. Phil is your best friend. It's going to be Ok. I got off of my bed and wiped my eyes. It was time to get ready for the big night ahead.

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I reached my voicemail inbox. I pressed in the access code and waited. My breathing was a bit labored and my palms got sweaty. God, you're lame. It's just a voicemail. Jesus. Finally, I heard her voice.

"Umm, Hey I guess. It's me. I assume you're just as confused as I am right now. We need to talk. Meet me at our place at 7. Seriously, Phil. Please just be there."

My heart raced. She sounded so nervous. Totally out of character for her. She wants me too? Or she just wants to let me down easy? I will never understand women. I dialed her number back. Hopefully, she wouldn't pick up. I was afraid that my true feelings would come pouring out like word-vomit if I heard her voice. After a number of rings, the answering machine picked up.

"Hey! I'm not here, so leave a message after the beep. Thanks! Have a great day!"

BEEP!

"Yeah, I'll be there at 7. Later."

I ran my hands through my hair and fell back on my bed. I hate this.

And so ends Chapter 2. Sorry it's so short. I've gotta get packed up to go back to school in the next few days. Thanks for the reviews. I can't believe that I'm already on someone's alerts and someone's favorite stories page. WOW! It means more than you know.

oh, and the song in this chapteris "Shadowboxer" by Fiona Apple.