Disclaimer: no….I STILL don't own Instant Star and yes……I STILL wish that I owned Tim Rozon. Lol and I also don't own the song "Walk Away" by Kelly Clarkson.
A/N: Sorry it took 6 days to write this instead of 2, but my relatives came in from Georgia for like 2 days and Halloween got in my way. lol It was awesome. I dressed as a hippie and I carried my acoustic guitar around on my back. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but walking around for 3 hours changed my mind rather quickly. lol Some people made me sing them a song or else I couldn't get candy. It was pretty cool. I got ALOT of candy. heh heh: ) Well, anyways….This chapter is named after the song "Walk Away" by Kelly Clarkson. It's a great song, if you haven't listened to it, please do so if you can. lol Well here's the next chapter for your enjoyment…ENJOY: )
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Title: Conflicted
Rating: T
Chapter 2: Walk Away
Jude sat backstage in her dressing room, her previous nervousness dissipated from her being. Speed encouraged her and believed in her to kick ass at her show. She was wired. She could rock ALL night. This was her hometown. This would be her best show of the tour, despite her conflicting feelings for Jamie, Speed, and Tommy. She wouldn't let that get in the way.
"Oh man, what about Tommy AND Sadie? I dunno if I can keep it together if I see them kiss or something." Jude stressed to herself. "I'll just have to ignore them, I can do that right? Yea, I can do this." She stared at her reflection in the mirror. Her hair was down and perfectly straight, as usual, except she had it slightly crimped, giving it a slight wavy look. She was dressed in her usual favorite attire of ripped jeans, converse and a white tank over top of a black tank, Joe Strummer's guitar pick that Jamie bought for her encircling her neck. She gripped the pick in her hand twirling it between her fingers.
"Jamie, I can't wait to see you tonight." Jude said aloud to herself, her eyes shown with happiness in her reflection. She smiled, thinking about seeing him. There was a light tap on the door.
"Ms. Harrison, your on in 5." A stage worker called to her from beyond her dressing room door.
"Alright. Thanks." She called back. She looked at her reflection again. Of course she could do this, Tommy was out of her reach now, she just needed to let him go. Just keep their relationship strictly professional.
Jude sighed. "That's going to be really hard." But she was determined to try. Jamie didn't deserve her if all she could do was think about Tommy while she was with him. She would use EVERY ounce of self control and pride left in her to keep her thoughts away from Tommy in a romantic way and to not fall for him again, and she'd be damned if he tried to make a move on her or kiss her again. She would give him hell then, maybe break his heart like he broke hers….after it had ALREADY been broken by Shay. Plus, as evil as her sister could be sometimes, she loved her sister and Sadie loved her. She wouldn't hurt her like that. She knew that Sadie liked Tommy, and she wouldn't let Tommy's idiotness get in the way of their sisterly relationship more than he already had.
"Damn Quincy, It's amazing to me how much you can mess up my head and my heart, and you don't even realize that you do. All you care about is yourself and how you feel. This time, I'm NOT gunna be the one to get shattered." Jude vowed out loud to herself, looking at her reflection once again. She turned around and grabbed her awesome Gibson guitar that was red and faded into orange in the center, that she received on her "Sweet" 16.
"Ha yea….as sweet as salt." Jude thought sarcastically as she walked to the door, head held high, and confidence and determination in her stride. Nope, NO ONE was going to ruin her return home….not Tommy, not her confused feelings, and not seeing Sadie and Tommy together.
Jude walked out onto the stage, a loud, booming sound of cheers and applause erupted from the huge crowd. She surveyed the wave of fans in front of her, guessing there was about 1,000 maybe 2,000 people there.
"HELLO TORONTO!" She yelled into the microphone when she reached it. The crowd boomed even louder, if it was possible. She laughed at their enthusiasm, excited that she ACUALLY had fans, thinking that less than a year ago, she was just a music geek with a dorky best friend and a really hot sister, always second best.
Her eyes glanced around and she suddenly realized who was standing in the VERY front of the crowd, right in front of where she stood…….. Tommy and Sadie.
"Oh god!" Jude froze on stage. Speed noticed her sudden halt in motion and looked at her curiously, following her gaze with his and saw what was bothering her…..her sister and …..her producer?
"What, why is she freaking out over them?" Speed then recalled the talk they had on the tour bus earlier that day..…
"Well who would it be then……not that I'm trying to be nosey, I mean, if you don't wanna tell me, it's fine," he looked her in the eyes curiously, his sandy blonde hair still a mess, but it looked surprisingly good to be bed hair. Jude looked away again, his stare becoming too much for her.
"No it's fine, your not being nosey. Heck, I'd ask the same thing. But I can't say who. It's just a guy."
"She couldn't tell me who because it's her producer. It's Tommy! He's too old for her. Man, she must be really crushing on him." Speed watched her stare at Tommy with Sadie as Tommy waved at Jude only to have Sadie grab his face and pull him in for a very fiery kiss. Tommy looked a little annoyed, but he seemed to kiss her back just as passionately. Speed looked at Jude again, she looked distant.
"Come on Harrison, get it together. No biggie. You CAN and WILL handle this. Don't let Tommy break you again." She watched Tommy wrap his arms around Sadie and Sadie just looked like she was in heaven. Jude's breath hitched as she stared at her "ex" crush and her sister.
"Jude!" Speed poked her on the arm. "Snap out of it! You have to announce the song! Don't worry about them." Speed said, glancing at the couple. His words pulled her out of the ravine she was lost in inside her head. "If the dude don't wanna be with you, then you don't need him. Trust me, you deserve better anyways. Someone that will never make you cry." He looked at her softly, she got lost in his eyes until her thoughts snapped her back to reality.
"What! How did he know about Tommy? Does he really understand me that much?" Jude nodded and he gave her a knowing look.
"Thanks Speed," She smiled brightly at him, all doubt faded from her eyes and heart.
"No problem Red." He returned the smile, just as bright with a gleam in his eyes. He stepped forward in front of Jude to the mic. Jude looked at him confused. He only winked at her, grabbing the mic.
"Aww come on this is JUDE HARRISON for Christ's sake. I KNOW you guys can do better than that!" The crowd erupted into cheers 10 times louder than before. It was amazing. Jude smiled at Speed as he turned to the mic again.
"Now that's better!" he gave a sly grin to Jude and allowed her to step up to the mic and he returned to his spot on the stage to Jude's right.
"Ok, you heard the fans, let's get this rockin guys, " she said to the band, but she said it into the mic, getting louder cheers. "This song is called 'Me Out of Me'." She was ready to KICK ASS! She looked at Tommy and Sadie again, they were holding each other in their arms, Sadie's head leaning into Tommy's chest , Jude felt a slight pang of sadness wash over her, but it was gone as soon as it had come when she looked at Speed playing the beginning chords to the song. He smiled at her, she smiled back.
A/N: Songs she sang in order: 'Me Out of Me', 'Temporary Insanity', 'Let Me Fall', 'Your Eyes', 'Time to Be Your 21', 'Skin', 'That Girl', and 'Could Be Me'. Encore: '24 Hours'
The concert went AWESOMELY! Jude had never had a better show than the one she had tonight. Her songs and her voice held more passion in them than she had ever sang in them before. The rush she felt while she finished the last song of the night…. (which was '24 Hours', thanks to screams of "ENCORE, ENCORE" and since '24 Hours' was Jude's favorite song, she sang it")…it was just utterly amazing. She knew at that moment that she truly was meant to do this. To be a famous rock star and to write songs that will change the world, her dream since she had ever picked up her first guitar. It felt amazing.
She sat in front of the same mirror, in the same dressing room, looking the same, only a little sweatier. Singing 9 songs in a row under bright, hot, spotlights while rockin out on your guitar sure wears you down. Especially when your biggest crush that you plan to "get over" is standing right below you with your sister, kissing every once in a awhile. It didn't bother her that much after what Speed told her.
There was a knock on the door. " Hey Jude….can I come in?" Speed's voice asked from behind the door.
Jude went to the door and opened it, looking slightly annoyed at the way he had asked.
" 'Hey Jude'…. I started to hate that song after kids teased me enough about it" Speed saw the look on her face.
"Oh sorry…. Hey Red. There, that better?" he said, smiling cockily, but in a joking way.
Jude smiled, "Defiantly. How is it that you know what I'm thinking all the time? How did you know I hate it when people say 'Hey Jude'?" She looked at him curiously.
Speed shrugged, " I dunno, I'm just that good I guess" he grinned. Jude laughed, lightly pushing him.
"Aw man, her laugh. It's so amazing. I don't think I could go a day without hearing it." Speed looked into her eyes, looking into her soul. He sensed that she was probably waiting for Jamie to get there.
"Hey uh….I think that Jamie is getting ready to come in here, I saw him on my way here" Speed still looked into her eyes, seeing the emotions flash through them and across her face.
Jude smiled, " Is he? This is awesome! I've been waiting to see him all day." Speed looked away from her, finding interest in staring at his shoes, which were black and white Vans. He looked ashamed again, like he did on the bus earlier that day.
"What has him so worked up? Apparently it has something to do with Jamie." Jude looked at him as he raised his head to look at her again. They stared into each others eyes, getting lost in them.
"Speed, what did Jamie tell you. It's bothering you so much. I wanna help you. And if it involves Jamie I have a right to know, I mean, he is my boyfriend after all.." Jude pleaded with her eyes.
"Jude it's just…I can't really tell you. I want to, but then again I don't want to." He looked so confused. Jude wanted to help him.
"I know that you like me Speed. Did Jamie find out? Did you two have a fight?" Jude's curious expression soon turned in to a worried one.
"Ah ..no nothing like that." Speed looked into her eyes in that way that makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
"She looks so beautiful…" Speed gazed into her soul, seeing things that she kept hidden from other people.
" Jude, I…oh God, why not.." He pulled her into a searing kiss. Jude almost lost her balance from her knees becoming so weak. She kissed him back, oblivious to the fact that her door was wide open.
"Ahem" The cough snapped them out of their little world and they broke apart. Jude stood, horrified at what she saw. There was Jamie, standing there looking pissed.
"No, don't stop. It looked like it was getting good." Jamie stood with his arms crossed, glaring at Jude. Jude looked devastated.
"Oh God! What did I just do?"Jude looked from Speed to Jamie, ashamed of herself, knowing that Jamie treated her so right and she went and did that, even if it was only one kiss. She glanced at Speed, giving him a look that clearly screamed, "Help me!".
" Jamie man listen, this had nothing to do with Jude. I kissed her. She did nothing wrong. It was all me dude." Speed stood tall, taking all the blame, even though it was clear that Jude had kissed him back, just as equally.
"Yea, that's why Jude looked like she was enjoying it a little more than you were. " Jamie continued to glare at Jude. "Mind explaining?"
"Uh…I'll just get out of here…let you two talk.." Speed made his way out the door, only to be stopped by Jamie grabbing his arm and pulling him close and whispering so quietly that only he could hear.
"Hey, you didn't tell Jude about me and Kat did you?" Jamie looked at him, unsure if he should be mad at Speed or not.
"No man, I didn't tell her about how your backstabbing her, cheating on her just like you got so mad at Shay for doing to her. You are a total idiot dude." Speed looked angry. Jamie looked hurt, but soon regained his composure. Speed continued on out the door, glancing back at Jude, giving her a look that said he was sorry., and he walked on.
"So….?" Jamie said when Speed was gone. Jude looked at him, shame written all over her face.
"Jamie, I'm so sorry, it just….it just happened. I never meant to hurt you. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness. I don't blame you if you wanna break up." Jude was near tears, her voice cracking with every word. "I guess we were just friends for a reason" Jude looked at Jamie, her eyes reflecting the shame she felt.
Jamie just laughed. Jude looked at him like he was crazy, tears falling now, " Ha ha, friends? Yea right Jude. After what you did, I doubt I'll ever even look at you again. I can't believe you. You get all drama queen over Shay and how he "broke your heart", but you don't give a damn when YOUR doing the breaking." Jude looked devastated, feeling like she was the most horrible person on earth, no, in the universe.
"He's right. I'm such a hypocrite. I'm horrible" Jude's tears were flowing, her face was soaked.
"Jamie, I said I'm sorry and I TRULY do meant it. I really like you Jamie, it was just a spur of the moment thing. What more can I do?" Jude pleaded, staring Jamie in the eyes.
" What else can you do? How about going to hell Harrison? We're through." and with that, he was gone, out the door and out of Jude's life. Jude was crying hysterically now. She could barely breath it just hurt so much. She sat on the couch that was in the dressing room, putting her head in her hands and cried until she felt a soft tap on her shoulder. She looked up to see Tommy standing there.
"Tommy….." she breathed, putting her head back in her hands, elbows resting on her knees while she stared at the floor. " What are you doing here?" her voice was still cracking, even though she tried to hide the pain in her voice, she was failing miserably.
"Jude" he looked at her sympathetically. "What happened?" he sat beside her, stroking her hair to comfort her. Jude looked at him, face tear-stained and the tears still falling.
"Jamie…he…he saw Speed ….kiss me…and he…….he broke up with me." Jude looked miserable, clearly devastated.
"What? You and Jamie were dating?" Tommy said, sounding slightly jealous, giving her a quizzical look. Jude's mood suddenly turned from guiltily depressed to steamingly angry.
"Yes Tommy, and if you'd keep your tongue out of Sadie's mouth for 5 seconds you'd know things like that." she snapped. Tommy looked shocked and his face fell into a depressed look as he looked at the floor. Then his head bolted up, angry.
"What's your problem?" he said equally as angry.
Jude looked into his eyes, seeing the anger at first, but also seeing guilt hidden behind the madness. She sighed, looking apologetic.
"I'm sorry Tommy. I'm just upset." she looked at the floor. "I didn't mean to take it out on you" she looked him in the eyes and Tommy knew she was being truthful. He nodded in understanding wrapping his arms around her in a hug. Jude leaned into his chest.
"It's ok Jude. I should be concerned with helping you instead of getting riled up about the jerk you are dating." he hugged her tighter, Jude broke away from his hold and looked at him sadly.
" WAS dating you mean, not ARE dating." she felt the tears coming on again, and Tommy watched a tear slide down her cheek as she lowered her head again.
"Jude, don't worry about Jamie. If he can't forgive you for one stupid kiss then you don't deserve him. You deserve better. Look, Jamie made you cry, that's more than enough reason to forget about him." Tommy looked at her, feeling his blood run cold at the site of her crying over a guy. He couldn't stand it when she cried. This was Jude, she should ALWAYS be smiling. "Please don't cry Jude, he isn't worth your tears, no guy is."
Jude snapped her head up. " Ha yea, that's rich, coming from you. What a hypocrite you are!" Jude was staring him in the face, glaring.
"What's that suppose to mean?" Tommy looked skeptical.
"Tommy," her voice was cracking again, lined with hurt and buried pain, "you make me cry more than any guy. You always break my heart, and hear you are telling me that no guy is worth my tears. What a load of crap." Jude was fully crying again, reliving the moment when had Tommy broke her heart. She stood up and walked to the door. She punched it as hard as she could, crying more from the pain….physical and emotional. Tommy looked at her guilty.
"Jude, I didn't know I hurt you that much. I'm such an ass." he looked at her, standing there, crying, facing the door and leaning against it, fist curled up into a ball above her head as her knuckles were bleeding. "And me dating her sister isn't helping her. I basically rejected her. I chose Sadie over her, and now Jamie is giving her hell. I wish I could take away all your pain Jude, but I can't do that when I'm the one causing it all." Tommy suddenly regretted ever dating Sadie. He looked at Jude as she opened the door and turned around. She looked so broken.
"Leave" Jude stood, stone still, looking Tommy in the eyes.
"What?" Tommy breathed. Jude walked up to him, staring him in the eyes, showing him all of her emotions.
"Leave, Get out. I told myself that I wouldn't let you hurt me again. Just leave Tommy." Fresh tears started to fall.
"But Jude……"
"TOMMY GET THE HELL OUT!" She pushed him towards the door. He turned to look at her but her head was looking down, tears falling still.
"I'm sorry Jude I really am." She looked up into his eyes. She saw that he was being honest, but it didn't matter. What was stopping him from hurting her again?
"I know this is the worst possible time to tell you this but…..you have to have a new song by tomorrow or else the label could drop you" Jude looked horrified, then angry.
"Oh just great, a "perfect" end to a "perfect" day." her words dripping with sarcasm. Tommy looked at her apologetically. "I can uh…help you, if you want." he looked hopeful.
"No, the last thing you do is help me. I'll write it myself. This night's been a "great" inspiration." she walked over to the couch again and started packing her things up to head home. Tommy felt 1 inch tall and a giants foot was getting ready to pound him into the ground, and that giant was Jude.
"I hurt her so much." Tommy felt his eyes get teary.
Jude turned around to see Tommy still standing there. "Aren't you gunna leave Tommy? I'm sure "Princess Sadie" is waiting for you." Jude was still crying as she packed up the last of her things. She got a better look at Tommy and saw that he was crying as well.
"Tommy….why are you crying?" she looked worried suddenly, forgetting about her pain for the moment, even though her hand was killing her.
"It's just…knowing that I hurt you this much…is tearing me apart." his voice cracked. Jude's pain came rushing back to her, but she still worried for Tommy. Seeing him cry made her just cry harder.
"Well, maybe you should try thinking about someone other than yourself, then maybe you wouldn't hurt others so much." she said softly, voice cracking. Tommy walked up to Jude and hugged her, sobbing into her shoulder. Jude was stunned. He broke away from her and walked to the door. He turned to face her, getting one last look at her sobbing figure before he turned and left. The next image he saw surprised him. There was Jamie and …Kat…kissing!
"Didn't he just break up with Jude? Isn't he suppose to be grieving or something?"
Jude nursed her throbbing hand. "God, I'm so stupid. WHY did I punch the door like a damn idiot?" She looked up from her hand and looked at the doorway and saw Tommy staring at something.
"What is he looking at?" Jude walked over to the door.
"Tommy, why are you just stan………" Jude paused her words as she saw the reason for his frozen position. Jamie and Kat broke apart so fast that if you had blinked, you would've missed it.
"uh….Jude, hey…uh…" Jamie stuttered, trying to find words to say but kept drawing up a blank.
"Jamie, I thought……I thought ….I.." Jude was crying again, lost for words. All of a sudden she felt arms wrap around her from behind, holding her protectively. She turned around to come face to face with Speed. He had tears in his eyes.
"Oh my God Speed, what's wrong?" Jude was frantic and confused.
"Jude I should have told you….I'm so sorry.." Speed looked her in the eyes. Jude looked confused.
"Speed, what are you talking about?" Jude held his face in her hands wiping away his tears. Speed did the same for her, his hands lingering on her cheeks.
"Jude, Jamie has been…"
"Speed man, what are you doing? Are you gunna betray me? You gave me your word that you wouldn't tell her!" Jamie looked frantic and angry.
Speed's eyes blazed with a fire that Jude knew was extreme hatred. "Fuck you man! How could you do that to Jude! She's the nicest person you've ever met and you go and do her like that! I should kick your fuckin ass to hell and back!" Speed was breathing heavily from anger. Jude was finally putting the pieces together.
"Speed….do you mean…..that he…" Jude's voice trailed off. She walked strait up to Jamie looking him in the eyes, getting as close to his face as she could without touching him. "You were cheating on me…with Kat?" her voice cracked as tears again washed down her face. Jamie remained silent. Jude knew it was true.
"How could you Jamie? I trusted you! I really liked you! I even made a vow to get over Tommy so I could be good enough for you and treat you right without thinking about Tommy all the time!" Jude forgot that Tommy was standing right there as she continued. "And you bitched at me for one kiss, ONE, while you were making out with Kat behind my back!" The tears stung her eyes and she looked away from him.
He was silent, no emotion showing on his face.
"Get away from me. Leave….now.." Jude was angry as she ordered him to leave. He silently obeyed, pulling Kat away with him but Kat stopped in her tracks causing Jamie to stop too.
"Jude, I'm sorry. He told me that you two had already broken up and that he was over you. I thought you two were done. I didn't know he was cheating on you….really, or else I wouldn't have got with him, you know that." Kat was sincere. Jude knew it was true. She focused her attention back onto Jamie. She glared daggers through him. If looks could kill, Jamie would be dead 10 times over. Jamie turned his head away and looked at the ground.
"I think I told you to leave." Jude's voice dripped with venom. Jamie gave an apologetic look and turned and left, Kat trailing behind also giving an apologetic look.
Jude turned to look at Speed. She stood silent composing herself, she was really angry and needed to calm down.
"Is this what you wanted to tell me?" Jude looked at Speed questioningly. Speed said nothing, but he nodded.
"Well, why didn't you? Didn't you think that maybe I needed to know if my boyfriend is screwing around behind my back?" Jude looked hurt and angry.
"Why didn't he just tell me?" Jude looked at him, waiting for an answer.
"Because Jude, I didn't wanna hurt you. I knew how much you liked Jamie and I knew that if I told you that he was cheating on you, then I would be causing you pain. I NEVER wanna do that." Speed walked up to Jude and places his hands on her sides and looked into her eyes. "Plus you might have screwed up on stage if you were heart broken or had too much on your mind about it. I just didn't wanna wreck your return home." he continued to gaze into her eyes.
Jude stared deep into his eyes back. Understanding his reasoning for what he did, she calmed down and pulled him into a hug.
"Thank you Speed, for looking out for me, but I really don't need looking after. I mean look, I got hurt anyways, and it hurt more to find out this way than it would have if you had just told me in the first place." Jude broke away from the hug. Speed held onto her arms.
"I know Jude, I should have told you. I wanted to, but I just couldn't stand to see you cry, but I guess all I did was make it worse huh?" he looked away from her in shame.
Jude watched him look away with guilt. "Don't worry about it Speed. Just remember that I'm a big girl, I can handle it all, ok? It might hurt like hell, but I'll get over it…eventually." Speed looked into her eyes and saw all the hidden pain she held within herself at that moment. All the pain that she kept hidden behind the many walls she had built around her feelings to keep herself strong. He wanted to break down all the walls and know everything her mind had to tell and all the emotions she felt.
"All I wanna do right now is take away every ounce of pain in her eyes." Speed gave her a look that held so much love in them that she wanted to look away before she blushed too much, but she couldn't take her eyes off of him.
"Speed, why are ……..?" but her words were cut off by his lips on hers. The kiss held so much emotion in it as Jude kissed him back. Tommy stood there watching with slight feelings of envy, seeing the obvious sparks between them. Jude wrapped her arms around his neck and deepened the kiss while his hands snaked around her waist. The kiss wasn't lustful, but it was loving and very deep. They broke apart. Jude looked into his eyes and saw the same emotion that he had put into that kiss. Jude's heart beat was irregular, beating faster and stopping, faster and then halting again. It was a good feeling. Speed brought Jude to his chest and she leaned into him.
"Jude, I wanna be with you. If you'll have me, and I promise that I'll never make you cry. I'd rather die than ever hurt you." Speed said pleadingly. Jude looked in to his eyes one more time.
"I like you too Speed, but there's some things that I need to think about right now." She glanced side ways at Tommy and then she gave Speed a sympathetic look. Speed looked at Tommy as well and then back at Jude. He understood and knew that she needed to think about everything.
"Alright Jude I understand. You've had a rough night. If you need to talk about anything you know that I'm just a phone call away, even though I wouldn't mind just walking to your house. It's only, what, about 5 blocks?" Speed gave her a slight grin. Jude smiled, knowing he was trying to break the tension that had enclosed the space around them.
"I know, and that's alright. I need to think things through by myself. Plus I HAVE to write a new song tonight or else I'm canned." she glanced at Tommy, he was frowning, but not at Jude, it was directed at Speed. She looked at Tommy curiously until he noticed she was staring at him. He immediately stopped looking at Speed with dislike and stared at the ground.
"Ugh..nice cover up Quincy. What is his problem? I thought he was all into Sadie, but he's acting all jealous towards Speed over me. I wish he'd make up his damn mind already" Jude gave Tommy a look that said 'What the fuck is wrong with you?'
"Jude I'll see you tomorrow at the studio around 10am?" He looked at her with caring and a little annoyance.
"I wish she'd stop hanging all over him." He gave a glance at Speed, seeing that Jude was still hugging him. She then broke away from Speeds embrace, giving Tommy a hurt look.
"Sure. See ya tomorrow Tommy." she said, sadness under toning her words. Tommy heard the sadness and gave her a guilty look. He waved slightly.
"Goodnight Jude" Tommy said as he walked out the exit.
Jude stared at the exit door for a moment. She then turned to Speed.
"I really need to get home," she glanced at her wrist watch. "It's 10:47, and I still have to work on that song." she looked stressed out, blowing air upwards to ruffle her bangs in frustration. She ran her fingers through her hair. He look at her with sympathy.
"Alright Jude, I guess I'll catch ya later." Jude nodded. He gave her one last hug before he walked out the exit.
Jude walked back to her dressing room to get her forgotten bag. She picked it up and suddenly dropped it, hissing with pain and grabbing her hand.
"Ah I forgot that I screwed my hand up" Jude held her hand, inspecting it. The bleeding had stopped, and bruises were forming.
"That is gunna hurt like hell in the morning." She said to herself aloud. She again grabbed her bag, with the opposite hand and put her guitar on her back and walked out the door. She walked out the exit to the rental car that was scheduled to take her home. She got in and made herself comfortable.
"Hello Ms. Harrison." the driver had a British accent. "I saw your show and it rocked if I do say so myself." he smiled at her. "Thanks, I try." she smiled tiredly. She was exhausted, but she still had to write that song when she got home. She sighed., leaning her head against the car door.
The drive wasn't that far. Only about 20 minutes long, but Jude had fallen asleep against the door. She awoke to the driver tapping her lightly on the knee.
"Ms. Harrison, we're here." Jude looked at him sleepily for a few moments not totally comprehending what he said. "You can get out now" he chuckled noticing that she was half aleep.
"Oh….right…" Jude said realizing her goof "sorry.." She yawned, stretched, and opened the car door, dragging her bag behind her and her guitar on her back. She closed the door and watched as the car drove off.
She then walked in to her home. She expected to be welcomed by her mother with many kisses and hugs that kinda hurt your ribs a little bit, but the sight she seen, wasn't so welcoming. There was Tommy and Sadie, sitting together on the couch watching a movie. Sadie was sitting in his lap and he had his arms around her. Sadie took one look at Jude and then gave Tommy a scorching kiss. Tommy broke away and saw Sadie looking at Jude with a smirk. Jude's face fell. She rolled her eyes. "Figures that the torture wasn't over" she said to herself loud enough for Tommy and Sadie to hear. She continued on up the stairs. Tommy gave her a heartbreaking look.
"Hey kiddo, where ya goin? Aren't you gunna say hey?" Sadie said. Jude stopped walking and turned towards them. The fact that Sadie had called her kiddo was bad enough but Jude knew that Sadie was just trying to annoy her. So she replied simply.
"Hey" she said in a mono tone voice and she continued her path up the stairs.
"How was your tour?" Sadie said from her seat on Tommy's lap. Tommy was looking at Jude, he felt his heart ache to just go and hug her and comfort her until all her pain went away.
"Like you even care Sadie" Jude said with out stopping her trudge up the stairs. Sadie laughed.
"Well aren't you even going to ask how my trip went?" Sadie looked so smug. Jude stopped walking again and turned to her sister once again, becoming really annoyed.
"No. But I'm sure your going to tell me anyways" Jude's face reflected the annoyance she felt. She did have a song to write after all and it was nearing 11:30pm. She didn't have time for Sadie's games.
"Jude! Honey your home!" Victoria, Jude's mom, came jogging into the room, excited to see her youngest daughter. Jude went back down the stairs and over to her mother " Hey mom" Victoria gave her a rib cracking hug. " I missed you so much! I haven't seen you in almost 2 months!" she exclaimed as she released her daughter from her grip of love.
"I missed you too mom" Jude said while rubbing her side. Her mom's hugs hurt, but she knew that she just showing how much she cared. Then her mother noticed her injured hand.
"Oh Jude honey, what happened to your hand ?" her mother said worriedly, grabbing her hand and looking at it as if she were a doctor.
"Ah…it's nothing mom, just got kinda upset, punched a wall." she said, glancing at Tommy as Tommy glanced at her. Her mother looked at it all worried.
"Again Jude." her mother looked disappointed. "I thought I told you to contain yourself after you punched a hole in your sister's wall last year ."
"Yea Jude, your such a freak show." Sadie said from her same position. "Maybe you need therapy." Sadie laughed . Tommy gave Sadie a disgusted look, but she didn't see it.
"Naw that's ok, seeing as it hasn't worked for you. Besides, that only happened because Sadie scratched up my Yellowcard CD and it pissed me off." Jude snapped, glaring at her sister. Sadie opened her mouth to protest but her mother interrupted.
"Jude….language and that's enough girls. Sadie leave your sister alone….."
"Yea Sadie, stop acting so immature." Jude scoffed holding her injured hand.
"….and Jude…leave Sadie alone." Sadie gave a triumphant 'hmph' noise and snuggled into Tommy, watching the movie once again. Jude watched as her mom left and went into the kitchen and brought back a wet cloth and a bag of ice. Jude hissed in pain as her mother washed her hand of the dried blood.
"There ya go honey." Victoria looked pleased. She handed Jude the bag of ice.
"Keep that on it so it won't swell up. It's gunna hurt in the morning though." Jude sighed . " I know mom."
Jude turned around to walk back up the stairs.
"Your not going to bed right now are you honey? You just got back?" her mother looked confused.
"As much as I wish I could sleep for like 2 days straight, I have a song to work on or else I'm screwed," Tommy looked up at her, sadness behind his eyes.
"She looks so exhausted, and she has to write a whole song by tomorrow." Tommy wished he could take Jude's pain and put it on his own shoulders to carry as his burden. Jude looked at him tiredly and then back to her mother.
" I probably won't be back down again tonight so goodnight mom, love ya."
"Alright honey, love you too." Jude went on up the stairs and into her room, closing the door. She changed into her pajamas and put the things in her bag away.
She walked over to her bed and sat down on it, getting her guitar out and strumming on the chords, trying to create a melody. She soon had lyrics for the chorus running though her head as the melody played on the guitar….
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Chapter 2 is complete. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! lol If you haven't noticed, I write LOOOOOOONG chapters, so It might take a between 3 and 6 days to get my chapters up. I think it's worth it though. This chapter here took 11 Microsoft word pages in size 10 font. Un frikkin believable! lol That's a lot o' story. lol So I'll defiantly have the next chapter up within a week. PLEASE REVIEW! Or else I might be forced to take TWO weeks to get the chapter up. evil grin MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! lol REVIEW!