Chapter 15

"We actually had a real conversation. I never would have seen it coming." Buffy said as she sat on Spike's bed.

"Does this mean I have to start liking her now?" He wondered as he sat down next to her.

"I'm not even sure if I really like her yet, but things are getting better. She actually took out the trash yesterday, which is a big breakthrough for Harmony." Spike nodded as he put his arm around Buffy.

"She does know to leave me alone now, right?" He asked and Buffy smiled at him.

"I don't think she'll be a problem anymore. She apologized for trying to come between us. I guess she's always used to getting the guy that it was hard to deal with the fact that one could actually reject her. Not to mention choosing to be with the sister that she never thought could get a boyfriend. I guess I showed her." She finished and Spike placed a kiss on her cheek.

"That you did, love. I'll always be yours." Buffy felt touched at his words and really believed that he would always be there. She kissed him this time and it lasted for a few seconds. She pulled away and looked into his eyes, finally being able to tell him what she wanted.

"Spike, I think I'm ready." His eyes grew big at what she was implying.

"Are you sure, Buffy? I don't want you to think that you have to. There's no hurry." He told her and Buffy caressed his cheek.

"I want to, Spike. I want my first time to be with you. I know you would make it special." Spike pressed his forehead to hers and couldn't remember ever feeling so much love for someone. This girl has implanted herself into his heart in such a short time, but he couldn't imagine being with anyone else. He kissed her, with all the love and passion that he felt for her. He then started to remove his clothes. Buffy followed his lead and then grew shy when he started to stare at her. She grabbed the blanket to cover herself and he stopped her.

"Don't hide yourself from me, Buffy. You're absolutely breathtaking." He whispered and Buffy felt her cheeks get red. She then lay down on the bed and Spike got on top of her. He gave her a soft kiss on the lips and trailed his lips down her neck, sucking and licking at her flesh. Buffy moaned and ran her fingers through his hair. He then pulled away to open the drawer next to his bed. Spike pulled out a condom and put it on. He looked into her eyes as he moved back on top of her. "It's going to hurt a little at first, but I promise it will get better." He explained and Buffy nodded as he positioned himself at her entrance. Buffy took a deep breath as he slowly slid into her. She shut her eyes when she felt the pain it caused. She never knew it would hurt so much. Spike kissed her closed eyelids and she opened them back up to look at the concerned expression on his face. The pain started to fade as he moved within her and she was caught in his gaze. "Does it feel better?" He asked in a low voice.

"It doesn't hurt anymore. Don't stop." She told him and that was the last thing he wanted to do. He buried his face in her neck as he started to move faster inside of her. She was so incredibly tight and felt amazing. He never wanted it to end, but he could feel that she was close. They were both soon brought to release as Spike remained on top of her, both breathing heavily. He pulled out of her after a few seconds and lay down next to her, so she wouldn't be crushed. He threw the condom away when he got his breathing under control and looked at the vision next to him. He placed a kiss on her shoulder and she turned to look at him.

"You are amazing, you know that?" He said and she blushed at his words. She would never get used to it.

"You make me feel amazing." She replied and he then gave her a kiss on her nose.

"I'll spend the rest of my life making you feel that way." He whispered and Buffy couldn't help the tears that seemed to form in her eyes at his statement.

"I love you." She responded and Spike had a soft smile on his face now. He never expected her to be the first one to say that.

"I love you, too. More than anything." He told her and Buffy smiled in return as she rested her head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around her and kissed the top of her head. They were both soon fast asleep.

Buffy walked into her house early the next morning. She didn't mean to fall asleep at Spike's and just hoped that no one knew she was out all night. She was about to walk quietly up to her room, when she heard a voice behind her. "Where have you been?" She turned around to see her mother standing there and she didn't look happy.

"I was at Spike's. We must have lost track of time." She said and hoped that her mother would leave it at that, but there was no such luck.

"What exactly were you doing with Spike all this time?" Buffy took a breath as she thought about what to say.

"We were just talking and then fell asleep. I didn't realize how late it was." Joyce let out the breath she was holding and clearly didn't believe that was the whole story.

"We need to talk, Buffy." She said as she grabbed her daughter's hand and pulled her into the living room. They both sat down on the couch and Buffy waited for her mother to speak first. "I know you're not a child anymore and that you have an older boyfriend now, but I am still your mother. I want you to know that you can always talk to me." Buffy nodded and waited for her to continue. "I just want you to tell me the truth. Have you two been sleeping together?" Joyce asked and anxiously awaited Buffy's answer. Buffy figured that there was no way to get out of it now. She just nodded after a few seconds.

"It only happened once. It was my idea, not his. He wanted to wait, but I felt that I was ready." Buffy explained and Joyce let out a sigh. She already had to deal with Harmony being sexually active at a young age. She never figured that she would have to deal with the same thing from Buffy. Dawn was another story though, but Joyce couldn't even think about that at the moment. She just had to keep believing that her youngest was still a virgin.

"Were you careful?" She asked and Buffy nodded.

"Yes, Spike used protection." Joyce sighed in relief and gave Buffy's hand a squeeze.

"I just want you to be safe, honey. I know I haven't been the best mother to you, but I don't want you to get hurt." She explained and Buffy shook her head.

"Spike would never hurt me, mom. We love each other. I know you probably think I'm too young to understand, but I really do love him." Joyce gave Buffy a small smile. She couldn't believe how grown up her daughter was now. They all seemed to grow up too fast.

"I know you do. I think William is a good man. I know he'll take good care of you." Joyce said as she started to run her fingers through Buffy's hair. She hasn't done that since she was little. Buffy then gave her mother a hug and Joyce was surprised as she hugged her in return.

"I love you, mommy." She said as she felt tears in her eyes and Joyce held her tighter.

"I love you, too. Nothing will ever change that." Mother and daughter just continued to sit there in silence as they held each other. Happy with the fact that they both finally reached an understanding.