Chapter one

How Long Must I suffer?

Tomoyo's POV

"My name is Tomoyo Daidouji, I am 17, live in an apartment and I go to Tomoeda High. My best friend, Sakura Kinomoto is also 17, she lives in the apartment next door to me, with her boyfriend, Syaoran Li. They both go to Tomoeda High with me and our friend Eriol…who I love, but no one knows it, he never seems to notice me, am I not good enough?" I wrote in my journal, it was new, and needed an introduction. I only wished Eriol would love me back, but he only knows me as his friend. "How long will I have to on like this?" I muttered to myself and eventually cried myself to sleep, at my desk…

The next morning I awoke to my alarm going off, it said 7:30! I was late, I had to hurry or I'd be late getting Sakura and Syaoran up from their 'beauty sleep'. I quickly got up out of the chair, went in my closet and grabbed my school uniform. I went into my private bathroom, got the quickest shower, got dressed, pulled my hair into a big pony tail and went out the door next door.

Knock-Knock

"Wake up lovers, we're going to be late for school!" I called and opened the door, not surprised that it wasn't locked and walked in.

"Wake up hunnie, time for school." Syaoran whispered into Sakura's ear.

"Ahh, it's morning already?" Sakura mumbled.

As soon as they were ready, we left, on our way to school, we met up with Eriol, who, not surprisingly, was with another girl, her name was Naoki. I looked away from the couple trying my best not to cry, he was my love, he didn't know it, but I loved him and I couldn't have him, I met him two years ago when he arrived from England and became friends with Syaoran. I know, I know, it sounds crazy, to love someone so long without telling them or just giving up, but I couldn't give up…I loved him too much.

Every time Eriol came around me with a new girlfriend, it would break my heart even more, and just to see him without one, gave me a little bit of hope, but still broke my heart, knowing I couldn't tell him.

When we arrived at school, Eriol said goodbye to Naoki and we all headed off to first class, chemistry. We all had the same schedules. Me and Eriol were about the most smartest people in the classes though, Eriol sat near the back on the right side of the room beside Syaoran and me and Sakura sat at the front in the middle row. Sakura didn't like sitting there, but she wanted to sit by me and I wanted to sit at the front, for some strange reason, this was before Sakura and Syaoran were dating and before I realized that the teacher was a total jerk! Class went on as usual, Syaoran blew something up, Sakura made it worse, and me and Eriol had to put it out.

After school, Eriol invited all of us to go to his mansion for supper. Naoki was going to be there, so I didn't really want to go, but Sakura made me. After supper, we sat down to watch a movie and Eriol must have done something wrong, then or before but Naoki just stood up and screamed her little blonde head off. "ERIOL, THAT''S IT, I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE, WE'RE DONE, IM LEAVING!" she stomped out the door and Eriol had the saddest look on his face.

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Nothing, I was just trying to watch the movie and she kept poking me, it was getting kinda annoying so I nudged her and…Wow she has an attitude problem!" Eriol explained. "Oh well, who needs her anyways." He finished, and smiled. He turned the movie back on and got up to make pop corn.

When the movie was over, Eriol drove us all back to the apartment and we went in. As soon as I got upstairs, I got out my journal and started writing again.

"Another heart break for Eriol, he started dating this girl named Naoki this morning and after school, we all went to his mansion, as in me, Sakura, Syao, and Naoki, had supper there, it was great, and watched a movie. Half way through the movie, Naoki stood up, stopped the movie and told Eriol it was over, supposedly she was poking him so he nudged her back and that was it. I believe him."

After writing that, I got my pyjamas on and went straight to bed. I woke up, went to school, and Eriol asked me out, finally my love had chosen me! But once I saw him kissing another girl at lunch, it broke my heart, I ran as fast as I could, I jut ran, he was a cheater! "Tomoyo-chan!" I ignored it. "Tomoyo-chan!" that wasn't Eriol's voice, it was Syaoran's.

"TOMOYO-CHAN, Wake up or we'll be late for school, it's 7:46!" Syaoran finished. I opened my eyes, it was all a dream, I wasn't Eriol's girlfriend, he wasn't a cheater. I got up, went in the bathroom, got my uniform on and left with Sakura and Syaoran.