Chapter Eight

Buffy stood frozen to the spot. She didn't know what to say to her mother and was too afraid to move. She hadn't seen her mother since she had suggested that Buffy should abort her baby, just because Angel was the father. She remembered it like it was yesterday. Anger circulated through her like it had the day she ran away. It was feeling she had never felt before and had always wished she'd never feel again.

"It's so good to see you honey," Joyce told her daughter.

"Don't you dare honey me," snapped Buffy.

Joyce looked like she had been slapped in the face. Xander looked extremely shocked. He never expected Buffy to become that mean. But then again he didn't know the real reason Buffy had left. Only Spike did, when she accidentally told him the other night. Buffy ran from the room with such speed only a slayer had. She fell to her knees under a tree. Tears leaked from her eyes and slid down her cheeks.

"You alright slayer?" Spike asked Buffy.

"It's Buffy and yes. I mean no. I don't know anymore."

Buffy sighed resting her head against the tree. Spike took a seat next to Buffy under the tree.

"Wanna talk about it?"

"Why would I wanna talk to you about it?" snapped Buffy.

Buffy mentally cursed herself. She shouldn't have been that mean to Spike. He wasn't her problem. Her problem was her mother. Spike never told her to abort her baby. She didn't know how he would have reacted. But he didn't deserve to be snapped at he was just trying to help. Buffy let out a sigh.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you," Buffy apologized, "It's just seeing her opened up old wounds that I guess I haven't dealt with yet."

"Don't worry about it love," Spike told her, "We all get like that."

"Will I ever forgive her for what she did?" Buffy asked suddenly, "Cause I don't know if I can take this pain anymore."

Spike pulled her into his arms for a hug. Buffy rested her head on his chest and let the tears come again.

"Look pet, I know we haven't really been friends, enemies yes, but if you need anything just come find me and I'll help you."

Buffy lifted her head to look up at Spike. She looked into his blue eyes and knew he was being sincere.

"That means a lot to me," Buffy told him, "Do you think you could get Alex. I don't think I can go in there."

Spike grinned.

"I'd be happy too."

Spike got up and headed over to the house.

"Oh and Spike don't tell the others what my mother did," Buffy called after him.

Spike turned around and nodded, understanding why.

"I won't tell a soul," Spike promised.

Buffy went over to the car. She opened the car door to find that Sophia was on the phone. She had a worried expression on her face when she hung up.

"What's the matter?" Buffy asked.

"That was the hospital in L.A. Chad was in an accident."

Buffy closed the door.

"Then go to him," Buffy urged.

Sophia looked over at Buffy.

"But what…"

Buffy waved off what Sophia was saying.

"Don't worry about me. I'll be fine."

"If you say so."

Sophia drove off just as Spike came out with Alex. Alex ran over to hug Buffy. He held a clay statue of a dinosaur in one hand.

"Do you like it mommy?" Alex asked.

"Of course I do. Are you hungry sweetie?" Buffy asked.

Alex nodded his head rapidly.

"Can we get pizza?" Alex asked.

Buffy smiled.

"Of course."

Then Alex asked something that shocked both Buffy and Spike.

"Can Spike come?" Alex asked.

Buffy looked over at Spike. He nodded his head that he would if she wanted him too.

"Sure honey," Buffy said smiling at her son.

"Then let's go."

Alex walked ahead of them. Spike and Buffy fell behind so they could talk, but Buffy was watching Alex like a hawk. Since it was night she had to worry.

"Where's Sophia?" Spike asked.

"I sent her back to L.A. Her husband was in an accident."

Spike nodded. Silence spread over them once more. Buffy began to fidget with her pocket. She was starting to feel something for Spike. Something she had never felt how. Not even with Angel. She just didn't know what it was. A few minutes later they were sitting at the table eating pizza.

"Mommy?" Alex asked.

"Yes sweetie?"

"Can Spike be my new Daddy?"

A/N: What do ya think? Is that a cliffhanger or what? You all probably are like grr, why would she end on that. I'm evil I know. If ya want to know what happens please review. The person who gets what's going to be next will win a chance to decide on something that happens further on in the story. Thanks for reading.