(Usagi POV)
The next day, as before, I walked into the arcade. Non of my friends were going to be there
today. Ami had cram school, Rei had to run errands for her grandpa, Lita was taking karate class
to refresh her moves. Mina was staying after school to try out for the track team. I was all alone
with nothing to do. Motoki must've saw me first, because I heard him call out my name. I
snapped out of my thoughts and cheerfully waved at him. I turned my head and saw Chiba
Mamoru staring back at me. He was huddled over a cup of coffee. I told myself to stop my heart
from beating so fast when I saw him. Rei and him were together and I wasn't going to do
anything to get between them. They were happy. Those reminders still didn't help, as I wanted
them too.
The old wound left on me began to ache. I hid my trembling heart again... And pretended to
smile. Even now, I'm the same as before. As timid as before. I only learn how to pretend to be
strong. Though my heart is filled with feelings to convey I can't change them into words well.
If I had not met you I wouldn't even have such an embarrassing pain. How can you do this to me,
Mamo-chan?
Heat rushed to my cheeks at the nickname that I had given the baka a month back. I took in a
silent breath and walked over to the counter. I sat down with a seat in between us. From the
corner of my eye, I saw that he kept staring at me until Motoki cleared his throat. That was when
Mamoru shook his head and sipped at his hot coffee. He looks so good right now.
I sighed. I should have more important things on my mind. Like Beryl and the Negaverse. They
are more important than Mamoru-baka.
Little by little, I've come to realize that my past never heals. ..And that it's no use. Fearing the
future I can't refuse. Fighting Beryl's minions and saving the world, as Sailor Moon. How much
more courage do I need?
To say with my head held high, "This is the only important thing to me", would just be another
one of my lies. How can I say this when you are always on my mind? Though I have firm
feelings. I can't change them into words as usual. Everyone is living this way. With feelings they
can't express...
Mamoru, can you hear my words?
...I love you...
(Mamoru POV)
My eyes met yours again, we talked a little. My heart throbbed and I hid my feelings behind a
simple frown. I was afraid I might not be able to go back to the times when I had not known you.
It was late and we both couldn't believe that we had talked until closing time. I offered to walk
Usagi home and she agreed after a moments hesitation. I understood that it was a bit of a shock
that I was being so nice to her. We hadn't argued all day. It was nice to talk to her like this.
The wind has already gotten cold. Laughing voices fill the air with white breath. It may be
because of the winter that I feel like crying for nothing. We walked down the sidewalk of various
streets. I didn't know where we were going so I allowed her to lead. At some points she got
distracted and led us down the wrong street. After spending so much time with her, I began to see
a change. A different Usagi than I had thought I knew.
I remember that day when we first met even now...
When Usagi went outside, she crumpled up her test and threw it away. Then a voice behind her said, "That hurts, odango atama." Usagi's test had hit someone's head. The guy looked at the test score and told Usagi that she should study more. Usagi got mad, took the test back, and started walking home. When Usagi passed by the game center, she noticed that the Sailor V game had come out.
We have come to know each other little by little...But suddenly I find I knew nothing at all about
her.
Please tell me what you feel.
My love grew when we couldn't meet. My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you. I found
I couldn't go back to the times when I had not known you. We talked about everything. From
what we had done that day to our entire lives. I found that it was easy to tell Usagi about my past.
She didn't pity me, instead she stood by my side and comforted me. It felt good. Then the subject
had changed to Rei somehow. I saw another change in her. Something dark and hidden behind
those blue eyes of hers.
Please don't smile with such sorrowful eyes. As if you were about to be broken and disappear.
What can I do, my Usako?
Why can't I tell you how I honestly feel?
Why can't I be tender?
Why do we hurt each other?
Why does my heart aches so much?
Why does my heart always goes out to you?
Why can't I think of anyone but you?
...Usagi, I'm in love with you...
AN: I decided to just on instead of a one-shot. I am way too bored and need something to write till an idea come to mind. Please tell me what you think.