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Chapter 6

It was bliss to feel the cold water run over Squid's exhausted and sore body. He ran a hand through his sopping mop of wavy brown hair, letting it fall into his brown eyes.

His head was pounding from the stress of everything that had been happening to him recently. He pressed his hands to his eyes to brush away the droplets of water which had stuck onto the ends of his eyelashes. He pressed hard until all he could see was blinking white lights.

He sighed when the water shut off, he could of done with a couple more minutes so he could use some soap but he lost some of his shower tokens due to gambling.

He stood in the shower stall for a second longer. Sparkling droplets of water ran down his chest and dripped off his damp hair.

He shook his head, as if to shake away all these troubled thoughts, before grabbing a towel and leaving the shower stall.

He walked into the tent, drying his hair with a towel. He looked over at Caveman and Zero. They were the only ones in the tent.
They were sitting on Caveman's cot with some paper, pens and pencils.

They didn't seem to notice Squid had just walked in.

He looked at them for a moment or two. He felt a twang of jealousy of their friendship, he wished he had friends that close.

"Can I borrow some paper?" he asked.

Caveman looked up, slightly startled, his green eyes wide.

"Um… yeah sure," he said, clumsily pulling out a sheet of paper from the pile in front of him and causing the rest to tumble to the floor of the tent. Caveman passed Squid the sheet with a sheepish look on his face.

"Thanks," Squid mumbled, watching Caveman and Zero picking up the sheets of paper off the floor, "Can I borrow a pen,"

"Yeah, here you go," Caveman passed him a biro.

Squid took it off him and gave him a curt nod before flopping down on his cot.

He rolled over onto his stomach and placed the sheet of paper in front of him. He had decided to write a letter.

To Yasmin & Alex,

I'm sorry I haven't wrote back to you in ages it's just I ran out of paper and couldn't get hold of any. I managed to get some off this new guy in our tent, he's called Stanley a.k.a Caveman, he has loads of paper because he writes letters to his mum and dad.

Even though I haven't wrote to you doesn't mean I have stopped thinking about you two. It seems that I think about you all the time. 24/7. I miss you so, so, so, so, so, so much.

I hope you are doing alright. I am counting the days until I'm out of here so I can be with you. I feel so guilty… I am such a terrible person to be in here. I left you, all because I was stupid and foolish. I should never have stole that stuff…. We still could of got by without it. I don't deserve you, you'd be better off without me anyway.

I am missing you so bad!

Love you lots and lots and lots.

Alan Xxx

Squid sighed in deeply as he finished his letter. He wanted to tell Yasmin a load of things but it just didn't feel right putting them down in a letter. He longed to tell her, face to face.

He folded the letter up just as the rest of D tent came rowdily into the tent. Squid quickly shoved the letter under his pillow. He didn't want the other guys to see. He glanced over at Caveman and Zero. They had packed all the writing stuff away and were now just sitting on Caveman's cot, watching the other guys.

Zero noticed Squid looking and stared straight back. Squid broke away from the little staring contest, slightly unnerved, thinking, That's one weird little kid.

"Hey Squid!" X ray said, standing next to Squid's cot, "How come you weren't at dinner?"

"Didn't feel hungry," Squid mumbled, lying back on his cot, his head pressed into his pillow.

X ray gave Squid a worried glance but then proceeded to his own cot.

Squid closed his eyes firmly shut, so it would give the impression that he was sleeping. He didn't feel like talking much.

The rest of D tent chatted and joked like they normally did. After a while, Squid slowly opened his eyes. He could see Zigzag from his cot. Zigzag was not participating in the discussion the rest of D tent were having. He was looking at Squid very intently with a worried, sympathetic look on his face.

Squid went to quickly close his eyes again, hoping Zigzag hadn't realised that Squid had noticed him staring.

But he was too late, Zigzag began to walk over to Squid's cot. None of the other guys noticed, they just carried on their noisy discussion.

Squid felt Zigzag sit down beside him. He opened his eyes and looked up.

"I know what it's like," Zigzag said quietly.

Squid leaned up a little and gave Zigzag a confused look.

"At least I think I do," Zigzag continued, looking at Squid sideways.

"What are you on about, Zig?" Squid asked, shaking his head slightly.

Zigzag gave Squid a wide eyed look, "I used to have a girlfriend. Her name was Paris, and I thought she was the love of my life, the one and only," Zigzag's face softened at this, he stared into space, a blissful look emerging on his face.

Squid waited for him to carry on.

"She was the only girl in my old school who took a particular liking to me. I guess I didn't have much friends, spent most of my time by myself until she came along. She was so beautiful as well, I can't believe she liked me," Zigzag sighed in deeply as he ran a hand through his wild hair, "I think… we were in love. Although we were only young, we felt ready and we… well you know,"
Squid nodded, he understood, it didn't need to be spelled out for him.

Zigzag's gaze was fixed onto the tent floor by now, he didn't seem to want to look Squid in the eye, "It was our first time, and I guess we just didn't think about precautions… we were sure it wouldn't lead to what it did…I got her pregnant," He finally broke his stare with the tent floor and looked up at Squid. His pale blue eyes looked so worn and sad as the bored into Squid's eyes.

"I was scared… really scared. I had no idea how to cope with that sort of situation. I was willing to help Paris though, to support her with the baby… but she chose abortion," Zigzag's shoulders drooped, his round eyes began to water slightly.

"I didn't really want her to, I was always against abortion. It just isn't right killing a possibility of little life. Especially a little life I had given her. But there was no way I could talk her out of it, it was like she had changed. She wasn't the same anymore. She got the abortion anyway. She didn't want my baby… she didn't want me either," A single tear rolled down Zigzag's pale cheek.

Squid looked at Zigzag sympathetically, he wanted to comfort Zigzag but he wasn't sure what to say or do.

"She really had changed, and she began going with other guys and not returning my calls, and ignoring me whenever she saw me. We just grew apart," Zigzag blinked back tears, he didn't want to cry in front of Squid, Squid always seemed to be so brave.
Squid bit his lip anxiously, he really felt like he should do something to comfort Zigzag but he didn't know what, so he just stayed quiet.

"So… Squid. I know it isn't exactly the same, but I do understand what it's like. So if you need to talk about it… you know you can always talk to me," Zigzag gave Squid a small smile before getting up and walking back to his cot.

Squid smiled to himself, he didn't often see Zigzag smile.

I would just like to say that I like your idea Ausha Black, of the other boys having secrets too. I have wrote in this chapter about Zigzag and a little secret he's been keeping too, but I am having complete writers block and can't think of any other secret's the other guys could have. Could any one give me any ideas? Please!