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Chapter 7

"Squid, you wanna game of pool?" X ray asked, leaning on a pool stick and looking at Squid sideways.

"When have I ever turned a challenge down?" Squid said, a small smile playing on his lips as he heaved himself up off the worn sofa.

He had decided to try and go back to normal, he hated moping around feeling sorry for himself, he had pushed all his troubled thoughts to the back of his mind were a lot of other distressing memories were.

Squid beat X ray in pool, no change there, but he didn't feel like gloating as much. He still done his little victory dance, but he didn't go on about it as much as normal.

Instead, his brown eyes strayed across the room and came to rest on Zigzag who was sitting cross-legged on the floor, watching the broken Television with an engrossed expression on his face.

Squid gave his pool stick to Armpit who was going to have a game with X ray next and made his way across the room towards Zigzag.

Zigzag didn't seem to notice him, he was still very absorbed in watching the static TV.

Squid sat down on the chair that was near Zigzag and looked closely at the TV.

What the hell can Zigzag see?

Squid leaned a little closer to se if he could make out any movement behind all the fuzzy black and white dots. It was all a blur to him.

He moved a little closer towards the TV but found that his bottom slipped off the chair and he landed with a dull thunk on the floor.

"Oh!" Zigzag gasped, he was now looking at Squid with a wide-eyed, sort of paranoid look on his face, "You scared me then"

"Sorry," Squid mumbled, rubbing his bottom which was very sore from landing on the hard floor with such force.

Zigzag look at Squid and narrowed his eyes suspiciously, "How come your over here and not playing pool with the rest of D tent"

"Got bored of pool," Squid shrugged.

Zigzag still gave Squid a wary look, "But you never sit with me"

"Thought I would today," Squid said, bringing his knees up against his chest and wrapping his arms round them, "Coz I have been thinking a lot about what you told me the other day"

"Yeah, and what have you been thinking?" Zigzag asked, his gaze gradually returned to the TV as he said this but Squid somehow could tell that he was still listening.

"I have been thinking that I want to thank you for telling me that coz I know it's hard to tell people about that sort of stuff, and you kind of helped me in a way, coz now I know that somebody else is in the same situation, and now I have someone I can talk to who truly understands," Squid rested his chin on his knees as he spoke.

Zigzag looked back at Squid, his bright blue eyes looked sad and worn.

It was a couple of days later when Squid received a letter from Yasmin.

Mr Pendanski gave him a small white envelope when he was in the Rec room after a tiring day of digging.

Besides from the neat, curly handwriting on the front and the fact that Yasmin was the only person who wrote to Squid, Squid knew that it was from Yasmin straight away.

His heart began thudding in his ribcage and his palms felt rather sweaty as he fumbled clumsily to open the envelope.

He always felt like this whenever he got a letter from Yasmin, it was almost as if he was worried in case the letter said that she was fed up with him being at CGL and that she was breaking up with him and that he would never see her or Alex again.

It wasn't a very nice feeling.

Squid suddenly felt all eyes on him, the guys of D tent were watching him very closely. They were trying to make it unnoticeable that they were staring but not doing a very good job of it. He decided to find somewhere private where he can read the letter. He tucked it in his pocket and gave some of the guys a quick glance to see if they were still looking. They turned away as soon as he looked. He walked briskly out of the Rec room and made his way to the tent. Only Zero was in the tent and he was just lying on his cot, staring up at the blank tent canvas.

Squid didn't pay much attention to Zero, Zero was just Zero, he wouldn't interfere whilst Squid read his letter, would he?

Squid plonked himself down on his cot. The cot sagged slightly. This was from a game of, "Jump from cot to cot," that D tent had been playing recently which had caused one of the legs to loosen tremendously. Squid figured he may need a new cot. He pulled the sheet of lined paper out of the envelope and unfolded it.

He lay it out on his pillow and rolled over onto his stomach and began reading it;

Dear Alan.

I am so glad you wrote, I have been missing you with all my heart and just to hear from you has made me feel like there is hope that we will eventually be back together again. To be honest I had been getting more and more worried that perhaps you didn't want to be with me, I had began thinking that you had forgotten about me and Alex.

I think about you all the time as well, Alan. Our flat feels so empty without you, my heart feels so empty without you. I probably sound really soppy but I don't care because that is what I'm truly feeling. I love you so much Alan, I just want you to come home.

Me and Alex are missing you terribly but are fortunately coping. It is quite hard though, I tried borrowing some money off my parents but they want nothing to do with me… they hate me for "wasting my life so young," but I haven't wasted my life, I have you and Alex and you are both my past, present and future. You are the two people who mean the world to me, although it does hurt me really bad to know that my parents want nothing to do with their very own grandchild, Alex could do with a Granny and Granddad. But what I really want to get to is what you wrote at the end of your last letter…PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don't think all those horrible stuff about yourself. I won't be better of with someone else coz you're the only one for me.

I honestly love you, I have never felt this way about anyone, and I am going to carry on loving you even though you aren't with me right now… but you will be, eventually and I SO can't wait until then.

With all my love,

Yasmin

x

Squid felt hot tears welling up in his eyes as he read this, he felt somewhat happy but still tremendously sad at the same time.

Basically he was confused about his emotions, there was no change there then, Squid felt that he would spend his whole life confused.

He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and gulped slightly before tucking the letter back in it's envelope.

He sat up and saw Zero staring at him very intently. Squid gave him a quick look but Zero didn't say a word. Squid ran a hand through his hair and got out his little wooden box. He opened it and placed the letter neatly on top before snapping the lid shut. He didn't want Zero to see what was inside although Squid wasn't all too sure whether Zero had already seen what was in there. Squid got up off his cot, he felt suddenly extremely tired and drained and he knew it wasn't to do with the hole he dug today. Steadying himself, he began to walk out of the tent, as he passed Zero he heard a small, mousy voice, "Are you alright"

Squid looked down at Zero in surprise. He had never heard the small boy speak before, he hadn't even been sure whether Zero could talk. Zero looked back up at Squid, his brown eyes seemed to expand as though he was looking right through Squid.

"Yeah I'm fine, it's just…allergies," Squid sniffed, still a little bit shocked that Zero had actually spoken.

Zero didn't look at all convinced, he nodded at Squid and his mane of curly brown hair shook slightly, his eyes were still boring into Squid.

"Ok, I'm gonna go now," Squid felt a little uncomfortable.

He turned and put his hands in his pockets as he left the tent.

A/N: I think this Chapter is a little shorter than the rest but I got kinda bored writing it and just wanted to add a new chapter to my fanfic lol.

Ausha Black: Thanks for your review and I'm glad that someone else thinks that abortion is wrong coz I do too!