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-------------Why did i fall for your charms?---------------

Well I suppose you're wondering what I'm going on about 'Sandy's secret man' but I'm talking about last year. Sandy had a boyfriend, or at least she was seeing someone even if nothing was official. We girls had tried to follow her once, we hid behind a corner, and we were real close to seeing whoever he was, but of course Daisy had to go and sneeze causing us all to fall over into a heap on the floor, totally blowing our cover. Sandy wasn't angry as such but there was something in her voice that made her seem all a bit…scared. Like she wasn't allowed to be speaking to us. This had bugged me for weeks after but when Sandy had finally stopped seeing this guy she seemed so…heart broken that I didn't question her ways.

Things soon got back to normal and she was as feisty as ever, as creative as ever and as witty as ever. And that was it; we didn't query her relationship with this guy anymore.

Until now.

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After lessons that day we were both sitting in our dormitory, on our beds, flicking through the pages of Witch weekly.

"So Sandy, just out of interest, what exactly do you have against Black?" I asked casually, glancing up at her before looking back to the magazine. I could feel her eyes penetrating into my skull. She was looking at me with a look of horror, I could sense it.

"Well there's his existence for a start" She laughed, her voice shaking.

"Oh" I said simply, trying to keep myself from sounding all too obvious.

"Why do you ask?" She said, sounding like she really did not want to know the answer.

"Not sure really" I said wrinkling my nose. "I was just wondering something"

"Oh"

"Yeah" I looked at her and she sighed.

"Ok, Lily what were you wondering?" She asked wincing.

"Why you didn't tell me Sirius Black was your secret man?" She shuddered and lay back on her bed.

"How do you know?" She asked in a whisper barely audible above her racing heart beat.

"I kind of…pieced it together" I said looking at her with sympathy in my eyes.

"So…I guess you don't even want to be my friend now" She grumbled, rolling over onto her side.

"What? Of course I want to be your friend! I can't disown you for having bad taste in men" I laughed, but she looked just as solemn as before. "So why didn't you tell me then?"

"Because…because he was just using me anyway" She mumbled. Purposely not looking at me.

"Using you? What do you mean using you?"

"For sex, he was using me…for sex" She said, her voice filled with an emotion that I couldn't quite decipher at that moment. My eyes widened and I looked at her properly, hoping, praying for any signs of amusement sketched on her face, wanting her to suddenly burst out laughing and say 'God Lily it was just a joke, you're so gullible' but there was nothing there. In fact she was on the verge of tears.

"Oh…Sandy I – I mean…I just…don't know what to say"

"I didn't think you would" She said blankly, a single tear rolling down her cheek and onto the pages of Witch weekly, lying neglected on the edge of her bed. "Thing is, if I had have told you, all I would have got is sympathy bloody sympathy, I'm not a charity case, I wasn't sexually assaulted, or raped or – or anything, I was only 15, I didn't know any better"

"Oh Sandy you're still 15, you should have told him exactly were to go, you could have done so much better"

"Listen to yourself Lily; have you seen Sirius Black lately?"

"Yes but-"

"Then you'll have noticed exactly how popular and how gorgeous he is" She said sitting up now and raising her voice.

"That doesn't give him the right to treat you like that!" I said looking at her as if she was crazy "You could do so much better, he thinks he's so bloody brilliant but he's not!" I shouted at her.

"Lily you don't even know him!" She yelled at me going red in the face, tears spurting from her eyes like a fountain.

"Look Sandy don't you dare try to defend him!" I shouted pointing my finger at her.

"I loved him Lily, he didn't love me, in fact I don't think he even liked me! Maybe my body yeah, but me? NO, no way, never!" She was screaming, the tears still flowing fast and heavily. She had picked up the magazine, tottering dangerously on the side of her bed, and had now flung it at me. One of its pages caught me in the eye and I screamed in pain as I felt a sharp stinging sensation fill my head.

"Sandy you're being too violent will you just sit down!" I screamed grabbing at her and throwing her forcefully onto the bed. Something in her eyes made her looked completely manic at that moment, that moment I had thrown her down on the bed. Realisation suddenly hit me like a speeding train and I apologised profusely.

"That's exactly what he did, he ordered me around, forced me into things" She said, her eyes glazing over as though she was remembering back to it.

"Don't Sandy; don't even think about him, he's not worth it, not anymore!" I said shouting at her and shaking her shoulders. Like it was some sort of therapy, I was the psychiatrist person and she was the little girl, trying to get over a nightmare.

"How can I Lily? I just thought he was so…perfect"

"Obviously not" I scoffed. I looked at her, her eyes were red and puffy and her hair was tangled and messy. But somehow she managed to stay looking as pretty as ever.

"But Lily, the thing that really bugs me is that…I let him, I let him do all that to me but as soon as it was over I felt dirty, really I promise I did, but then he just kept coming back and I just couldn't refuse…It wasn't meant to end like this" She said barely able to keep her voice steady.

"I know it wasn't" I said cradling her in my arms. "So how did you mean it to end?" She looked up at me and rose and eyebrow, she wiped a tear from her cheek with the back of her hand.

"I just wanted him to love me" She whimpered, letting her head fall back onto my shoulder.

"So he dumped you then?" I asked as calmly as I could.

"No, I dumped him" I looked at her with a look of confusion on my face.

"I told him I wasn't a toy, that I didn't want to be used anymore, that's exactly why I blew a fuse when he said that thing about 'After I've screwed youI'm gonna want a replacement aren't I?' thing"

"And he said?"

"Goodbye" She burst into another flood of tears and she stuck to me like a leech, clinging on for dear life, as though I was her lifeline.

"Hey, hey calm down. It's over now, it was over long ago, and I'm just regretting mentioning it"

"No" She said "I'm glad you did, it was good to be able to tell someone, but you have to promise to keep it to yourself, Ok?"

"Sure" I smiled, though inside I was dying with pity for my friend.

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We didn't talk about it anymore. Instead I took her outside to get some fresh air. She didn't seem too reluctant to be dragged along by the sleeve and when she was outside she inhaled the fresh September air like it was her oxygen…Oh wait, it was!

We walked to the lake were we sat down and pulled our shoes and socks off. The water was cool and refreshing, as I dipped my foot into its glistening surface I felt a shiver run up my spine. It created ripples on the surface and with the slightest touch the ripples would morph into more ripples, and them into more ripples. It was so…beautiful. I stopped watching the ripples to look at Sandy. She was paddling her feet with a look of content ness on her face. For the moment she was fine.

In the next moment everything changed.

"Evans, fancy seeing you here"

"But James you followed her" Peter said looking at him curiously. James looked at him with a stormy face and glared a little.

"And Rogers too, what a pleasant surprise" Sirius said smirking. Anger boiled up inside of me. I jumped up and in the process sprayed everyone with water.

"You piece of- ARGH!" I screamed making a move at him. Terror flickered in his eyes for a small moment, but only a small moment.

"Come on Evans, I'm still getting over the scar Rogers gave me" Sirius laughed nervously, but I was in such a terrible mood I didn't even think, just did.

I slapped him so hard he toppled backwards.

"You think you're so brilliant, so holy, you Sirius Black are a man whore, and a dirty, filthy, pervert!" I screamed taking another threatening step towards him. He shuffled back on the grass whilst his 'friends' just stood round watching.

I turned my back on him to walk away but I heard a cry from behind.

"No don't!" The voice shouted. Don't what? I thought, but it was too late, the spell had struck me and I went zooming into the air and was hanging upside down before I knew exactly what spell had hit me. Knowing Black I had instantly assumed the spell would be harmful. 'Stupefy maybe', I wouldn't have even put 'Crucio' past that boy, but there must have been some reason to perform a levitating curse, 'Levicorpus' lifted a person of their feet and dangled them in the air. Just like what had happened to me.

The blood came rushing to my head and I started screaming at him to put me down at the top of my lungs. Sandy just stood there…dumb struck as to what to do next. I suddenly became conscious to my skirt now billowing over my head and thanked God silently for letting me have shorts on. Well…girl boxers.

"Oh darn it, I was looking forward to a nice view of Evan's knickers there" Sirius laughed, shaking his wand a little so I bopped up and down in the thin air.

"Just put her down mate" James said quietly, sticking up for ME!

"Sorry Prongs but I can't go all soft just because she's your bitch"

"I am NOT his bitch!" I roared at him, trying to make my skirt cover my knees but failing miserably.

"Not yet" James mumbled down on the ground.

"What was that potter!" I yelled shaking with fury.

"Gotta see the vet" He said feebly.

"No Potter I don't think you do, but I'm sure as hell that, that mangy flea bag hound dog does!" I screamed clenching my fists. Sandy looked at me with a face full of curiosity.

"Oh of course Sandy, you didn't know that you actually slept with a dog!" I shouted, then clamped a hand to my mouth in shock of what I had just said exactly. I heard a few gasps from the ground and looked to see Sandy's eyes filled with tears and her face a flush of bright red. She looked around hopelessly then up at me, hurt in her eyes. She ran fast, all the way back to the castle, not stopping even when I called to her at the top of my voice.

"Aww Evans, look what you did now" Sirius laughed, like it was all some big joke.

"How DARE you!" I screamed in fury kicking my legs about in the air.

"She looks like a piñata" Peter guffawed. I glared at him and he stopped his laughter.

"Has someone been telling fibs then Evans?" Sirius asked a smile still on his lips.

"No Black, because I believe every word she told me, about how you literally forced her to have sex with you when she was only 15!" I spat at him, venom searing through the corners of my mouth.

"Oh don't give me all that Evans" He laughed with a nasty glare on his face, "She was all up for it, in fact I could barely keep her off me"

"Oh of course Black because you are such a babe magnet!" I rolled my eyes and folded my arms which was quite hard because I was starting to loose feeling in my left arm.

"Thanks Evans, even from you that's a compliment" He smirked.

"Look Black can we please continue this on the ground? Because I think the blood rushing to my head is really not good for my whole bodying functions and stuff"

"Of course my lady" He said bowing, slowly bringing his wand down and muttering something under his breath. I dropped to the floor in a heap. I got up quickly and stormed over to him. "Look Evans you can't touch me" He said eyes wide.

"Because if you do James will kiss you" He smirked, pulling James in front of him like a shield.

"Like I'm scared" I said rolling my eyes.

"No, in fact I think you wanthim to" Sirius said, reading the expression on my face.

"Padfoot mate just drop it" Potter said nervously running a hand through his hair.

"Yeah Padfoot, DROP IT!" I said pulling out my wand from my robe pocket and casting a simple spell at him. His trousers unbuckled and fell to round his feet. He stood there in his boxers, which consequently were embroidered with little ducks.

I laughed out loud along with Remus and a small snigger from Peter. Potter just looked shell shocked, then he looked almost in…awe.

"Ha ha Evans, very funny" Sirius laughed nervously. He stooped to pick up his trousers but I wasn't finished with him yet, not nearly.

"Incendio!" I shouted, pointing my wand at his hair. He stopped buckling up his trousers to look around, curious to why everyone was sniggering. His nose flared as he inhaled the smoke and coughed. "Oh sorry Sirius, did I get you all hot now? Well will just have to cool you down then won't we?" I said all patronising.

"No, Evans, NO!" He yelled, he was running round, with his pants round his ankles, making a desperate attempt to put out his hair.

"Impervious!" I laughed when I sent water rushing out of my wand and all over his now sopping wet hair.

"Oh Lily you're cruel" Remus said shocked at me, but there was still a twitch in the corners of his mouth.

"Sirius mate you ok?" James asked trying to calm a now wet, half naked, and ashy Sirius down.

"Her, she…she's…she's bloody brilliant!" Sirius said laughing. I gasped.

"Look Black I did not just use my best hexes on you so you'll bloody like me! I used them on you so you'll stop being such a bloody pervert!" I screamed looking shell shocked myself.

"Well I don't think it's helped" Remus chuckled, watching Sirius use his best 'how you doing' face on me.

"No Black, you are just a horrible scummy girl user, after what you did to Sandy I'm surprised you didn't go gay!"

"Why should I Evans, after all she did dump me!"

"Only cause you used her for sex! Did you ever take her anywhere? Buy her anything? Act like a gentleman around her? No didn't think so!" I shouted at him.

"How do you know? I actually liked her, ever thought that, ever even bothered to stop ganging up on me for a long as 2 seconds to realise it wasn't actually the sex that mattered? It was good yeah, but I liked her too. And we talked!" He was shouting at me now and our voices were growing in volume.

"Oh you talked! Well LA DE FUCKIN DA!" I screamed, sorry for that awful word I uttered but I did try my best to avoid it...somehow i just couldn't though.

"Oh Evans, not using naughty words now are we?" Sirius laughed half heartedly trying again to make it some big joke.

"Oh don't you patronise me you disgusting, foul mouthed fool!"

"I'm foul mouthed? Didn't you just hear yourself Lily dearest?"

"I had a good reason to use a filthy word like that…I was using it on a filthy BOY!"

"Come on Evans do we have to fight like this?"

"Wait Black let me think for a minute, oh yeah got the answer…It's a YES!" We continued bickering and quarrelling like there was no tomorrow, unaware of the 3 other teenage boys standing round us.

"Look guys, hate to break you up but I'm really getting tired now" James sighed tapping his foot impatiently on the ground.

"Yeah me to" I yelled glaring at Sirius; I began to walk away when he called back to me.

"Don't go on my account Evans" He shouted at me. I looked back and began racing towards him like a charging bull. His eyes widened and he ran so fast it looked as though he was flying.

"And good riddance!" I screamed at him but he was only a tiny spot in the horizon now.

I walked, no make that stormed, back to the castle, hoping to find Sandy and apologize, but instead I found Daisy, backed up against the wall. A tall and handsome looking boy from Slytherin, I didn't really know, over shadowing her.

"Come on Sawyer, I've always known you had a crazy streak in you, I know you want me Sawyer, I mean…how could you resist me?" This boy reminded me too much of Potter. Whether or not Daisy wanted me to interrupt at that moment I do not know, but I did anyway.

"Daisy there you are, it's time for dinner come on" I grabbed her arm and sped down the corridor, not looking back at the Slytherin I didn't really know.

"What did you do that for Lily?" She asked finally, pulling away from my grip.

"I thought you needed some help" I said weakly.

"Well Lily next time don't think" She shouted at me and began to walk off.

"What did I do?" I yelled after her.

"I could have dealt with it myself Lily, I don't need you or anyone else ok, next time just leave me alone!" She yelled and stormed of.

"Fine then!" I screamed up the hall. "I don't need you either, I don't need anyone…or do I" I looked down, everyone was getting mad at me today, what had I done? It was unfair…everything was just so…UNFAIR!

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