Walk away and I stumble

Chapter six

Silence.

Deadly silence.

Everyone's eyes were upon Harry, shock and disbelief shown on each and every single person's face; they looked now to Severus who was passed out on the floor where he had fallen from his chair.

"Tell him … I don't know, think of something cool, tell him I said it." Harry said meaning Severus, he hadn't expect the older wizard to jump for joy at the news but pass out, that was a little extreme.

No one tried to stop him as Harry fled the great hall, a plan already forming in his mind, he was going to get a place of his own, even if Severus did except him and his child he didn't want to be completely dependant on the older man, he wasn't showing yet so therefore no questions were going to be raised.

His first stop was too the dungeons to pick up a few of his belongings, which he shoved hastily into a bag before pulling on a light but warm jacket and heading once more into the great hall where Minerva was aiding Dumbledore as he struggled up the stairs.

The news of Harry being pregnant had been too much for his already frail and elderly heart, Severus was being levitated up the steps by Professor Flitwick, everyone else was either still remaining in the great hall or had moved to the entrance hall so that they could watch these two be taken to the infirmary.

It was Tonks that suddenly came to her senses and grabbed Harry's arm, preventing him from leaving, Harry didn't pull out his wand although he was tempted instead he just gave her a sad stare that told her all she needed to know.

"I have to do this Tonks, please understand, Severus only wanted me not this." Harry said placing a hand upon his stomach, however she didn't loosen her grip upon his arm and he was beginning to get irritated.

"I can't let you go, there is a spy among us and they may leak your condition to he-who-must-not-be-named, we cannot risk it, if you leave you would be committing suicide, I know Severus wouldn't want that and neither would Remus, you can't leave the castle."

"I can and I'm going to, I'm going back into hiding, no one will ever find me unless I want to be found by them, you know that as much as anyone, especially seeing as you were the one in charge of finding me and returning me here safely."

"You knew about that and didn't think to make my life that little bit easier and less stressful?" She asked with a little bit of shock present in her voice.

Harry gave her a faint smile, "Your loyalty is to Dumbledore, it was my wish to stay hidden, you would not have kept my secret, Severus on the other hand didn't care either way and now it is once again my wish to be hidden, please respect that and let go of me."

"I can't do that Harry, your too important to this war, to our future, you will stay and fight, baby or not."

Enough was enough in Harry's mind, she had stepped over the line with that remark and now he was just pissed off with her. He withdrew his wand and pointed it at her heart, startled she released him.

"I will not put Voldemort before my child Tonks, I have my priorities, I'm sick of being your damn weapon, your saviour, I am a person who wants a life away from all this."

Astounded and appalled by Harry's behaviour she backed away, not wishing to anger him further, Harry spotted Ron and Hermione, who had also been present at the Order meeting standing well back and looking at him as if he were a stranger rather than a best friend.

Never before had Harry felt so alone, not even those long, hot summers where he had had nothing to look forward too, only going back to school was nothing compared to this, so much for them being Godparents/

However a horrid thought struck his mind, he didn't need them, he didn't need anything to live his life, he was after all perfectly capable of looking after himself, screw them he thought. Harry didn't bother correcting his thoughts as he knew they were based in truth.

Without further ado Harry spun around and tried to walk out of the entrance hall however he was struck by a terrible spell of dizziness and had to grab hold of the door frame to keep from falling over. However after a few moments that alone was not enough and the pregnant young wizard fainted.

Poppy upon seeing Dumbledore and Severus enter the infirmary knew at once what had happened, however when Tonks came in carrying an unconscious Harry she became worried. Abandoning her other patients she rushed to his side and at once did a load of spells to see what was wrong with him and whether the baby was okay.

However once she had done this she was at a loss of what to do, she couldn't give him any of the potions that she normally would have given him as they could potentially harm the baby.

Deciding that the best course of action would be to make him as comfortable as possible as there seemed to be nothing physically wrong with him. She handed Dumbledore a potion which he drank before lying him down. Then she moved onto Severus and cast an awakening charm.

Harry on the other side of the room also stirred as the spell was cast, it was then that the medi-witch realised something, something that almost made her laugh out loud. However she doubted that the two wizards were ready to hear this fantabulous news just yet, not after Severus had just found out about the baby.

"Where am I, what happened?" The potions professor asked as he sat up, he saw Dumbledore lying in the bed opposite his and the memories came rushing back to him. "Where is Harry?"

"He tried to leave" Tonks said before Poppy could respond.

"But he fainted, he's here."

"Tell me Poppy, is it true what he said?"

"Yes, I am his care giver over the course of the pregnancy, I did of course advise him to tell you sooner however he seemed adamant that he have his long named sexual conquests."

"So your telling me that he didn't say anything about him being pregnant purely because he wanted to have sex?"

"Pretty much, he knew that you would either wish to stop while the pregnancy ran its course, which is completely unnecessary until he is in his third trimester or that you would leave him." Silence, Poppy looked at Severus concerned, "Your not going to leave him are you?"

"I don't want children, never have and I never will."

"Severus!" Poppy said outraged, never before had a father to be spoken that way to her about children.

Severus didn't respond, not really wanting to hang around for this Dumbledore got up to leave taking everyone else with him as he thought that it was for the best that Harry and Severus sorted this one out on their own, with Poppy as a mediator of course.

Severus glanced over to the bed where Harry lay, neither knew that he was faking sleep although Poppy suspected that he was, instead he listened intently to their conversation, waiting anxiously for Severus' reply.

"Well, you need to decide now Severus, you cannot lead him in a fool's paradise, you need to figure out whether you love him, whether you love the child that he carries."

"And if I do not?"

"Then I suggest that you leave before he wakes up, if what Tonks says is true he was all prepared to leave anyway, scared of your reaction no doubt."

Severus was then left by the medi-witch to dwell on his thoughts, his eyes once again landed upon Harry, he missed the tears flowing from closed eyes, too blind to see them and the pain that he was causing the younger wizard.

Snape's mind flashed back to his own childhood, did he really want to put a child through the same upbringing that he had suffered, no, because no one deserved that.

Severus sat up and swung his legs over the side of the bed. He was taking Poppy's advice and leaving, too much of a coward to stay and face the problem he now encountered. On no account had Severus ever considered himself cowardly and never would he run away from his deatheater/spy duties but this was different.

From this he would run.

So without looking back Severus walked out of the infirmary, closing the door behind him with a click. The sound brought Poppy back out of her office where she found a distort Harry sobbing noisily and an empty bed where Severus had been only moments ago.

"I had a feeling that you were indeed awake, I assume you heard all of that." Harry managed a nod as tear after tear continued to fall. "Poor child, unfortunately Severus has always been that way, what do you plan on doing?"

"Leaving, it's as simple as that, I will give you the floo address, Severus' decision won't make me neglect my baby."

"Too right, I will need to keep a constant eye on you, since circumstances do not allow you to come to me I will of course go to you."

"Thank you, but I do have one question." Poppy nodded, "Was Severus married or was he in a serious relationship before me?" Harry asked and at once the medi-witch looked a little apprehensive about answering.

"No, I don't think that he was in a serious relationship however he had something that I suppose you would call a summer fling a few years ago, though it ended very abruptly." Poppy's tone however suggested that there was a little more than she was letting on.

"You're not telling me everything, what is it?"

"I believe that the man in question, I truly do not know his name but I believe that he too was pregnant."

"So this is normal for him, he gets me pregnant and then its over?"

"I doubt that it is anything personal, just him, I think that he may be scared, that wouldn't surprise me in the slightest."

"It wouldn't surprise me either but if that is the case then its up to him to sort it out and come to his sense, I won't spend my entire fortune on therapy and I don't want my baby to be raised by someone with as many issues as Severus."

"Do you love Severus, Harry?"

"Yes but I won't be ruled by that, I love him but my child comes first, I want to be able to supply a nice, safe, secure environment for it to be brought up in."

"And I strongly agree with you Harry, but maybe two parents would benefit the child just as much."

"That isn't up to me Poppy; he's already left one child fatherless why should mine be any different? Just because I'm Harry Potter doesn't make my life perfect, far from it but I determined that my baby will play no part in this damn war."

Poppy paused, "Very well Harry, just make sure you send me an owl so that we can arrange your check ups. Feel free to leave when ever you are ready, I can do nothing more for you than I have done already."

"Thank you Poppy and one last thing, if Severus wants to se me or send me a letter, anything, allow him to, don't withhold it but only if he asks and Dumbledore is not know under any circumstances."

"I will do, it is good that you have not given up on him."

"Of one gives up on love then what else do they have?"

An hour later and Harry was all walking out the great oak doors that had represented such hope and happiness when he was a young boy. He had seen no sign of Severus, he had a feeling that the older wizard was avoiding him.

He was tempted to use the Marauders Map but he wasn't sure that he actually wanted to know where Severus was, so instead he just left.

Dumbledore watched from his office as the young wizard crossed the grounds on foot and stuck out his wand hand, Severus watched from the owlery window, part of the potions master was glad that Harry was gone however another part of him was screaming to get him back before it was too late however it was already too late.

Right before Severus' eyes Harry boarded the violently purple, triple decker Knight bus and vanished. He could have cried but he was Severus Snape and Severus didn't shed tears over lost lovers.

Somewhere deep inside him though there was something nagging at him, telling him that Harry was more than that; he was a boyfriend, a worthy companion. He had certainly not felt this way about Ian and the brat that he had foolishly conceived.

Why did they have to ruin perfect sex filled relationships by being stupid enough to become pregnant. Idiots! Severus thought angrily, cursing young hormonal men. However now Harry was out of his life forever, just like Ian and whatever his son was called.

Harry was currently disembarking the Knight Bus in the village of Godric Hollow, in front of him was his house, or rather the house his parents had owned before their murder.

The garden was over grown and the thatched roof of the cottage needed to be redone as soon as possible. Despite that the little one storey cottage was perfect, one averagely sized reception room, a moderately sized kitchen/dinning room a small but comfortably so bathroom with all the fixtures and fittings not to mention two nicely sized bedrooms.

He started to make up a to-do list of what he had to do, smiling as he wandered around his new home, the house where his baby was going to be born however the smile faded when Harry realised that Severus wouldn't be there to see that miracle.

Hope you liked this chapter, no slash but I hope there will be some soon, I hope so anyway, I don't really have a plan, I just write what I feel sometimes I evenwrite in my classes lol. PLEASE REVIEW!