Ok this is the first time I have ever done a first person story so I might muck it up a bit. I own nothing. And this is set just after Cedric dies it is partly Harry's thoughts and partly Harry's last goodbye to him. Please R/R.

He was my friend. My lover. My life. I don't know how I am going to live with out him. I don't even know if I can live with out him. I watched him die. I can't live after that.

"Harry are you ok mate?" Asked Ron coming up behind him and patting him on the back in what he must have thought was a comforting way.

"Yer I'm fine. I just watched the person I love die I'm doing just great" I replied bitterly. I knew Ron would be hurt but I had no time for stupid questions.

"Sorry mate I truly am but Mr and Mrs Diggory asked me to ask you if you wanted to help arrange Cedric's funeral" Ron told me quickly before walking out the room. My mind reeled they wanted me to help with the funeral I couldn't it would kill me. I love him too much to arrange his final goodbye. Oh god now I'm crying again. I just wish he were here to hold me in his arms like the first time we kissed.
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"Harry I never told you this but I love you. I have for years" Cedric told a slightly shocked Harry.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have told you I just need to say it to you" Cedric told him before being pulled into a large hug.

"I love you to Cedric I always have. And I always will" Harry whispered to him. For a long moment they just looked at each other then slowly they kissed.
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I remember it so well. I can still feel his lips on mine. I still remember the way he held me for hours that night and the way he said he would never let me go. He always loved me just like I always loved him even when we had our first fight.
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"Why did you tell her that? What was the point? Are you scared of everyone knowing about us?" Harry shouted at the boy he loved.

"What was I meant to say? 'No sorry Cho I am going with my boyfriend'? You always asked me to keep it a secret for you" Cedric shouted back.

"Yer but you didn't have to agree to go to the Yule ball with that bitch. And I so wanted to go with you" Harry yelled tears starting to form in the bottom of his eyes. When Cedric saw the tears there he went over and wrapped his arms round Harry letting him cry into his chest for as long as it took.
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I remember that he couldn't bare to see me cry ever. It would kill him to see me like this. Ha kill him it's too late for that. God I miss him so much. How can I live with out him in my life? Not even my best friends understand. They don't get what he meant to me. God if I could have one more day with him even an hour just to tell him the things I never did. I couldn't help with the funeral. I could barely even think about it. I can't I give up. I'll leave a note for Ron and Hermione they'll got over it in time.

Dearest Ron and Hermione,

I'm sorry I'm too weak to live with out Cedric in my life. Tell everyone that I will miss them and that I really am sorry. Know that I love you two and I always will. I will be with Cedric from now on and we will watch over you from up there.

Goodbye,

Harry

I read it through then went into the bathroom I pinned the note to the door and went in. There was a razor on the side. I picked it up and pulled out the blade. I hesitated for a moment before running it across my neck. It felt very odd but very quickly everything turned black.

"Harry! What are you doing here?" I turned at the voice I knew so well. It was my baby. My Cedric.

"I came here. To be with you forever" I told him before we shared a kiss that I had so longed for in the last weeks.

The end