"Too good to be true," James murmured, lying in his bed remembering her soft features. He took another swig of mean and stared at the darkness of his room. He was alone, not literally, he had Marie next to him sleeping soundly, and he was in fact, alone, in his heart. In his mind, he had no one but himself. His endless battle to fight.

"James, what are you mumbling about?" Marie murmured into his chest, feeling her hot sticky breath against him. She opened her eyes and smiled at him. "I'm glad to see that you're awake and muttering…" She stopped talking and stared at his cup. "Isn't it a bit too early for brandy?"

"I think I found her Marie…" He said to her in a voice so soft it was a whisper. He felt her body stiffen under his arm. "I think I saw her…"

"James, babe, don't confuse yourself with fantasy and reality. You probably saw what you wanted to see, not what was really there. Don't confuse yourself. Let's not start this again."

He took another gulp, a long gulp. He stared down at her. She looked so deep in thought, probably plotting something. "You're probably right…I shouldn't keep putting myself through this. You're right, like always." He planted a small kiss on her forehead.

She gave him a satisfied smile and cooed, "It must be so hard to lose someone you love. Well, you won't ever have to lose me, don't worry about a thing."

Remus sat in the waiting area, waiting for what seemed like hours to him, endless hours with endless torturing. He felt a tug at his heart, telling him to leave, telling him to make the right choice but standing up and just leaving.

A woman edged near him, his heart sank, she was wearing a long white dress, "You can go see her now."

He found himself taking small baby steps to go near the door. He felt every single emotion all at once tugging at his insides, chewing on his skin like a poisonous disease, ripping him to shreds.

He opened the door and walked in, feeling a cool air in front of him. A relaxing wave of non-stop nirvana.

And then he saw her.

Come up to meet you,

Tell you I'm sorry,

You don't know how lovely you are.

She stared at him, her face flushed, every feature as soft as ever. He stared at her in awe, she was beautiful. Her curls hung loose by her chest. Her eyes were clear and amazing. They both did nothing but stare, he felt a longing to do nothing but what he was doing.

He edged towards her. Taking each step a slow as he could, he heard his heart beat against his chest. Her eyes were full of tears by then. He took her hand and held it, not knowing if she was real or a figment of his imagination.

I had to find you,

Tell you I need you,

Tell you I set you apart.

He felt his eyes tear up, he placed her hand over his heart like he used to do whenever he was nervous with her and she gave him the same smile she always did except this time it meant so much more to him.

Tears came out and all the words he could muster up were, "I love you. I'm sorry."

She let out tears and pulled him closer, felt the ticking ruffle of his hair under her chin. She felt his tears on her chest. She closed her eyes and kissed his forehead.

Tell me your secrets,

And ask me your questions,

Oh, let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,

Comin' up tails,

Its only science apart.

"Remus, I've waited for you, every day." She said her voice feeble and soft. "They think I'm crazy."

"I think you're beautiful." He said, still crying. She laughed softly, tears coming out. "I'm sorry I made you wait. I should have been here with you every single day, like I told you I would when we were together. I've let you down, I'm sorry babe, so sorry."

She held him closer, he felt his heart leap, and he felt all these emotions that he used to feel.

"I love you."

He smiled at her and gave her a kiss, their first kiss in over four years. Her lips were soft and enchanting; he held her face close to his. Their tears clashed together and made one. He recited her 'I love you' over and over in his mind.

"Remus," She pulled away and stared into his eyes as if she was searching for something and then smiled softly when she found it, "I'm dying."

Nobody said it was easy,

It's such a shame for us to part.

Nobody said it was easy,

No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh, take me back to the start.

"You can't—I just found you—I just came back to you, don't leave me." He said tears rushing out uncontrollably, he held on to her hand like she was going to fly away. "Don't leave Annabelle." He put his hand up and she put her hand against it like they used to do, his hand was always longer then hers. He wiped her tears away and kissed her again, more softly then before.

"I'm not leaving you right now; they say that I don't have much time left, probably a few more months in me and they say a year if I'm lucky."

"Please be lucky." He said softly against her chest. She placed her hand against his face.

"Don't let this get in the way of your happiness Remus; you have so much in you. You have so much to achieve. You are still young, I see so much in the future for you. So many obstacles to overcome and so much life to live. You'll find love and when you do hold on to it."

"I am holding on to it, I found you." He said crying into her hand.

"Soon, you'll have to let go of me."

I was just guessing,

At numbers and figures,

Pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,

Science and progress,

Do not speak as loud as my heart.

"Annabelle, I want to take you to places. I want to show you things, I want to hold you and show you off to the world like I used to." He said sheepishly.

She smiled at him, "Shh, come here."

He rested on her bed and found a place for his head under her chin. "Tell me you love me."

"I love you, with all my heart." She shed her tears all over him.

"Marry me?"

Tell me you love me,

Come back and haunt me,

Oh, when I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,

Chasin' tails,

Comin' back as we are.

"Help me?" Flower spoke softly to him. Sirius held his hands in his pocket. "How can you help me?"

He wouldn't meet her eyes, "I know you. I know the girl you used to be. I know the green eyed, red haired girl that lives deep in you. You're not Flower Potter. You're not the brown eyed brunette you portray yourself to be."

Flower stared at him, he knew everything--- how did he know? "What are you talking about?"

"You're Lily Evan's."

Flower felt her head ache.

'James! I can't...don't let go, please...'

'Jump Lily!'

She felt her head, the back of her head had a scar and she traced a long the lines of it. Her face flushed and she stared at him in disbelief.

'Lily, let's go! It's getting too risky!'

'My music box James, it's under the bed...just let me get it and we'll go.'

She reached for her necklace, "Where is it?"

"You lost this." Sirius handed her the necklace. He met her eyes and he recognized her for the first time. He saw the old flame in her eyes that had been dimmed for so long.

She stared at it and grabbed it, her hands were shaking.

'You better take this serious Potter, or I'm not going to waste another second with your sorry arse.'

'Good evening to you too Miss Evans.'

"James, where's James?" She looked around the place like she knew where she was for the first time.

Sirius jumped up and stared at her, "Are you…are you…?" He stared at her. "What's your sister's name?"

"Petunia."

He reached for her arm and pulled her into an embrace, "Lily! Oh my! Lily, Remus reckoned it was you and I didn't believe it, I'm such a tosser, I'm sorry. He knew it was you. Knew it."

Lily reached for a strand of her hair and stared at the brown, her body shook with little control. She remembered everything, almost everything. She remembered little details like her family, her eyes teared up when she remembered her parents died and her sister hated her, she remembered James as her best friend and didn't remember what had happened. She remembered the music box and remembered the locket.

"Lily, what's wrong?"

"Don't call me Lily, I'm not Lily." She edged away from him. "I'm Flower. I'm Flower."

"Lily stay with me. Don't leave. You're Lily Evans. Lily Evans."

She stared at him, she felt her head battling, and who was she? Who was she? She was Flower…but why does she feel like Lily?

"I'm Lily…" she said slowly back. She shook her head, she felt it harden. She felt her eyesight get fuzzy. "Sirius, get James. I need him to help me."

"Listen Lily, your memory—it's coming back, slowly but surely. Stay with me long enough to get James. Please. Let me apparate…"

"I'll go with you, we don't have much time, my head's caving in." Lily stumbled over and held on to his shoulder. "Take me to London."

She felt an unbearable amount of pain, she felt all her body get sucked into her navel, her breath shorten and her heart pounded. She felt like someone was trying to squeeze her skull together.

And with a 'pop' it was over. She opened her eyes and the sun was shining on her face, birds were chirping and she saw the Eiffel Tower right in front of her. Her eyes widened and she stared in awe.

"Oh my…" She felt her face flush and looked up at Sirius. "It's beautiful."

"Mhm, remember. James was going to take you. Remember." He pointed to her necklace. "I knew you'd like it here. James only lives a few blocks down, we can apparate or we can walk."

"I don't think I can take another apparition…" She smiled weakly. Her head still pounded from everything that was rushing back. "Let's walk, the sights are beautiful."

She couldn't help feel like a lost dog, everything seemed to make her go in awe. The flowers had the most vibrant colors. She stared at the colorful benches. Everything looked better in France.

"Here we are." Sirius said wrapping an arm around her waist. She stared at the cozy flat, it was near a pretty park and she felt butterflies overtake her stomach.

"He won't recognize me; he'll think I'm crazy. I think I might be crazy, what if I just found this necklace before I lost my memory and I'm just a fake."

"But you remember who you are Lily, you remember. How else did you remember your sister's name? I didn't even know it, but you answered so quickly, how could you be lying? Hey, I might be wrong, you never know. But James here will know for sure. Trust me."

She sighed nervously, "Go with me?"

He knocked at the door and let himself in, "James, are you here?"

A brunette popped her head out of no where, she stared at Sirius like he was a piece of worthless vermin and then stared at Lily hard like she was searching for a reason to give her the same look as well.

"Where's James?" Sirius asked her with a voice that not even Lily/Flower recognized.

"Out, buying me a pack of fags. Why? What do you want? What's your damage?" the girl spat. "What in bloody hell do you possibly want? Do you want James to end up being locked in a room like his fool of a mother?"

"Shut the bloody hell up. You have no business in knowing what I want my best mate for. No business. So keep your fake nose out of it." He muttered a few words, which sounded very rude. "If you refer to Holly like that one more time I don't give a bloody damn if this makes me a wanker or a tosser, I'll hit your face with so many hexes you won't be able to say a word for the rest of your sorry life."

"I hate you." She said coldly. "Get out."

"Marie, grow up." Sirius said bluntly. "I have no business in leaving yet. I'll wait for James to come back. I have rather important news to give him."

"Oh yah? What?" Marie said to him, curiosity overtaking her.

"Well—if you must know—I found Lily." He stared at Lily proudly, like she was gold while Marie stared at her in a whole different way.

"How much did you pay this one?" Marie spat. "Who in bloody hell do you think you are you worthless slag? Anyone can just come off the streets and say 'I'm Lily' these days and you'll just jump up and believe it. Won't you Sirius? You make me sick."

Sirius narrowed his eyes and said nothing.

"Look I'm sorry, I've been through a lot and I just want some answers. I think…"

"And you think James will be able to answer them for you?" Marie said laughing. "Please. You're only here cause Sirius hired you. I can see through this little charade. Sirius just wants to separate me and James. You don't think he's actually trying to help you, now do you? He just wants to help himself."

"That's enough Marie." Said a voice from the door, a moment later, an unruly jet-black haired too-tall skinny man walked in.

"James, your back." Her voice was calm but tense. Her eyes were hard on him like she was trying to tell him something with them.

James kept his eyes focused on Lily, looking her up and down. Lily felt her heart leap and her knees give in. She fainted.

She woke up on his couch, it was night and James and Sirius were in the other side of the room whispering softly. She stood up and walked into the room. James looked at her, his eyes were soft.

No one spoke.

He walked up to her, softly, taking each step with caution. Memories flew in her head.

'James, when someone dies what happens?'

'Well…sometimes they get a funeral…other times…um I don't know.'

'Shut up. I mean, do we go to heaven or hell?'

'Hmm I don't believe in heaven or hell. I believe that when you die you go with the person you loved the most in the world and live in a nirvana all on your own.'

She suddenly became aware of the heat coming from her body and his body. She felt the tension in the room and she saw the smirk on Sirius' face. She stared at James face and found his features much different, she found him much more mature like he had gone through a lot.

'Lily, tell me something.'

'What?'

'Is it weird that I feel like I could tell you anything?'

'You tell me. I don't think so. I think it's quite sweet. Attractive almost. Almost.'

'You like me huh Lily? You like me a lot. I could tell.'

'Ha. I like you like a tutor likes their student. That's all.'

'Nah, we're way past that Lils'. We're like secret friends, best friends almost. I mean what kind of tutor and student sit on the frozen lake together talking about heaven and hell?'

'Authentic ones.'

'I s'pose. One question, do you trust me?'

'What kind of question is that?'

'A good one. Now answer it.'

'I s'pose I trust you, I'm a very trusting person.'

'Then my suspicions are correct then. We're way past friends. I think we're in a relationship.'

'Gasp, we have a relationship? Don't be so dumb James.'

'I'm serious Lily.'

'Hahaha, well then we have a great relationship.'

'Indeed Miss Evans.'

He pulled her close to him and held her face; Lily stared up at him searching for an answer in his hazel eyes. "Do you trust me?" He said in a soft seductive voice. Her eyes widened and everything came back to her. Everything, her love, her memories, her hopes and wishes. Everything seemed to be like it was yesterday, a step away. Tears rushed out of her face down her cheek. "Do you trust me?"

She grabbed his neck and pulled him close and gave him a passionate longing kiss across his lips. She held him close. Sirius had already left. James picked her up and led her to his bed. She felt so many renewed feelings as they continued to kiss. She felt his hands explore her body, like in a searching for way and she felt his strong hands on her small waist. She gasped for breath as he continued to kiss around her neck.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this." He said rubbing her stomach. "And this." He bit her lip. He pulled her close to him.

She held on to him and felt the most pleasing feeling in the world. The feeling of love.

PS. I know I took too long. You still have a couple more chapters left in this story and I promisex59869 that I won't take too long. I feel like this chapter is too cheesy please tell me if you think otherwise. No flaming, constructive criticism. I owe this chappy to Ash. Without her I would have never finished it. More on Remus and Annabelle in the next chappy. Ava comes back. Love springs for Sirius. More on Peter and Severus. Much love.

Drew.