Angels don't Cry

Ok, I'm going to end this fanfic after this chapter, just not enough…ideas, you see? So no more after this 8 chapters! Hope you enjoyed my poems, I really enjoyed writing it. Please R&R and read my other stories too! XD R&R please!

Chapter 8: Falling Forever

Inside this lost, empty head,

Where all emotions lay cold and dead,

This is where I stay,

There is where I lay,

Forever shunned by all I know,

How they wish away I will go,

But taken into this world by they,

Any reason I still exist?

Other than to hunt my other self?

I see no point,

Why must I do so?

How would they feel to hunt themselves?

Yet now I simply comply,

Without a single what or why,

Indeed I am even enthusiastic,

Or that's what they think,

I believe my rights have gone,

Away, as my soul had done,

No more feelings I may express,

Not even may I feel a hint of love,

Nor permitted to show my own,

My master lets me not,

He shuts me out from his cold dead world,

Although a part of him is I,

Am I condemned to eternal hate?

He is my everything,

Yet he won't let me in,

We belong as one,

He won't let it be,

I am loathed but he is everything to me,

The one who may feel the way I do,

The one who is as icy as the sea is blue,

Who shuts out feelings,

And feels no love,

We are the same,

But oh so different,

He has a life,

I live off others,

Only when I am released may I be real,

Even then it is all so surreal,

I come via his emotions,

The reason why he locks it up,

But to me, it is like water to a thirsty man,

It leads me to freedom,

I long for it to come every time,

For his emotions fills me bright,

Gives me energy,

Makes me feel alive,

That's why it sets me free,

For I love it when he starts to feel,

No, not love,

I can never love,

Perhaps I can feel affection for,

But that is all,

When he feels I start to stir,

My alarm bells they do well to serve,

That is the key to my being,

That is why I love my everything.

Battle a bit,

Battle some more,

Wonder what,

We do that for?

Yes, it fills that hole,

But only as a substitute it acts,

What we really need is out of our reach,

We can wish, hope and dream,

But they are mere figments of our mind,

As longing as we are,

We may never gain what we truly want,

We may never gain true love and acceptance,

Is that what we are truly searching for?

Or is it a mere distraction in this world of lies and deceit?

Sometimes, I like to wish,

Wish for another thing,

Something other than true emotions,

Not as wish as could be called envy,

I envy the Niwa's.

While my summoners are a family of ice,

They lead happy, joyful lives,

Forever smiling, loved by all,

What is different about these two clans?

The lives of both are clouded with a curse,

Yet while the Hikari's shun themselves,

The Niwa's still have pleasure,

Why is that so?

Perhaps, we angels come in different ways,

I, through strong emotions,

He, through love for another,

And perhaps I have been too rough,

Too harsh on my Tamer's,

They have no right to be called so,

Do I look tamed to you at all?

But if they loathe me,

Why did they beckon to me?

Dark is welcomed warmly in his cursed clan,

Considered a kindly elder brother,

While I am just a nuisance,

Also a thing to fear,

Dark, he is lucky as who he is,

He can feel, smile, and love,

Most important of all,

He can really live,

What is so different about us two?

Sure, I'm an angel of ice,

Yet isn't he the angel of darkness?

Why did I have to be the one with such fate?

"We aren't so different, Krad.

You and I, we are still one,

No matter whom we are,

We are Light and Dark,

Yin and Yang,

There is nothing I have that you do not,

You can still love,

You can still feel,

You can still smile,

You can still live.

Yet you refuse to believe so,

You are still who you once were,

But you don't let it show,

You have been blinded by your dark feelings,

Let go now and you can be yourself once more."

I remember those words,

Words from long ago,

That night we came together,

He told me those words,

Before this foolishness began,

Before we became who we are now,

I didn't listen,

And this is who I am now,

Should I have listened,

I would not be trapped,

But the fool I was,

Refused to believe so,

Those words which made no sense then,

Became the source of a great regret,

If I had let go,

Did what he has done,

I wouldn't be like this now,

He knew what he had to do,

And did so,

If not, he would be same as me,

For as foolish and careless he may seem,

He is, deep down, wise and knows his way,

I got lost,

And I regret every step,

I am falling down an endless pit,

In this world, I will recover and fly away,

This world I have come to hate,

Yet I am never truly free,

Dark will fly and will still live,

While I am still falling,

Down the darkness of myself,

I am falling,

Never to see the light again,

In my own world,

I am falling forever.

.Fin.

Did you like it? I got deep again (celebrate!) which I love doing. Imagine, Dark being wise. Strange to think about, but why not? Anyway, thanks to reviewers of my whole fanfic, and I really did enjoy writing this. Thankyou to my anonymous, but signed, reviewer who gave me a really good idea for this last chapter; so thanks very much. You know who you are!

You will like my other fanfics, I hope. They are quite similar, really, weird plots. I like doing fanfic with strange plots so yeah. I hope you like my ending; I thought it summed it up pretty well. Ok, please R&R and since this story is good and done, why not check out my other ones XD? Now I sound like one of those advertisement women. Thanks for reading, and bye!