"Why didn't you tell me before?" he asked, a little louder. "I was scared you'd reject us James, I know that you're not like that but, I left you and I didn't think that you'd take us back so easily," she said, her eyes filling up with tears.
James couldn't bear to see Lily cry; it broke his heart. He quickly walked over to her and sat down next to her. "Lily will you marry me?" he asked, wrapping his arm around her, pulling her closer to him. She tried to pull away. "James I don't want to trap you, I don't want you to marry me just because I got pregnant," she said looking at him. "Lily I wouldn't have said it if I didn't mean it," he replied. "I'm sorry James I just can't, I don't believe you," Lily said getting up and starting to leave.
"Where are you going?" James asked, also getting up. "I'm going home," Lily said opening the door. "No Lily, you're staying here with me, please, at least for tonight?" James pleaded. For some reason he didn't think that Lily was safe on her own. And it was getting really late.
"Fine James, just for tonight," Lily said, sighing in defeat. "I need to call my friends to let them know where I am though." James brought her a phone. She walked into a different room and shut the door.
"Yeah I'm staying somewhere else tonight," Lily said to her friend Katie. "We were so worried about you when you didn't come home after your shift, where have you been?" Katie asked. "I've been…catching up with an old friend," Lily said. "The all famous James Potter?" Katie asked. "Yeah see you later," Lily said and hung up.
She walked out and saw James in the kitchen drinking something. Lily walked in and leaned against the counter. "So would you like to eat in or out tonight?" he asked. "In," Lily said simply, she wasn't up to going out. "I'll cook," she offered. James shook his head, "You go rest, I don't want you to collapse in pain again." Lily frowned. "I was under stress James," she replied. "Fine you cook," James said his hands in his hair.
Ten minutes later the door slammed open. "Honey I'm home!" yelled a male voice. It was Sirius. "Hey James I didn't know that you could cook," he said smelling the food, walking into the kitchen. "You're not James," he said when he saw the back of a red head. "Lily!" he screamed. He ran up to her and hugged her from behind. "Lily you've gained a little weight!" he said surprised. She turned around, "You idiot, I'm pregnant," she said laughing. Sirius stepped back and looked her over. Lily shook her head and went back to cooking.
Sirius and James were out watching TV. "So she just left?" Sirius asked. "Yeah she left out the back door and I followed her, listen Sirius, I don't want to talk about that right now," James replied. "You know what this means right? You're going to be a daddy! There's going to be a Prongs Jr.!" Sirius said, excited. "Thanks for pointing out the obvious, Sirius," James replied.
"Time to eat," Lily called out from the kitchen.
After dinner, and after Sirius left to go be with Remus (it was a full moon), James had settled into bed. Lily was in the next room, sleeping. He couldn't believe that day's events. All of a sudden he heard the door open.
"James?" he heard Lily say, barely above a whisper, so as not to wake him up. James rolled over and looked at her. "Yes, Lily?" he said. "I was wondering if I could sleep with you," Lily replied, looking down. James nodded and she crawled in with him. "I don't like being alone," she said snuggling up closer to James. He pulled away and rolled over. Lily moved back over to the other side of the bed. "Be that way then," she muttered.
"Lily, will you tell me what the past eight months have been like?" he asked. "What do you want to know?" Lily asked, rolling over and facing him. "When did you find out?" he asked. Lily sighed. "About a week before I left," she said quietly. She could see the hurt in James's eyes. "Do you know how long I've been dreaming of having a family with you?" James asked. Lily shook her head. "Since the moment I fell in love with you." Lily blushed. "I wish I could have been there for you when you had morning sickness," he whispered. "Liar," Lily replied. "No really I do," he said.
"It's not a pretty picture, James," she said quietly. "Anything's pretty where you're concerned," he said wrapping his arms around her. "Malfoy knew," she said suddenly. "What?" James asked, as if he hadn't heard right. "He found out a few months ago, he saw me, then he insulted me, and the baby. He said that we deserved not having you around, that you must have finally come to your senses," Lily said quickly. She had to get it out.
"Is it a boy or a girl?" he asked suddenly. "What do I get if I tell you?" she asked, smirking. "A kiss," James replied, kissing her passionately. When they broke apart Lily started to laugh. "What's so funny?" James asked. "I don't know if it's a boy or a girl," she said. James pouted. "Is it healthy?" he asked. "Oh very, very healthy," Lily said, smiling, then winced for a second. "What's wrong Lily?" he asked, concerned. "No, I'm fine, the baby just kicked, it just hurts a little," Lily said smiling. "Can I feel it?" James asked, interested.
Lily nodded and grabbed his hand and laid it on her stomach. "There, did you feel it?" she asked. James shook his head. "There it goes again, did you feel it that time?" she asked. James nodded, smiling. "You're grinning like an idiot," Lily said giggling a little bit. "And you're giggling like a little school girl," James replied. Lily scrunched up her nose and stuck out her tongue. "I love you James Potter," she said seriously.
"Why won't you marry me then?" James asked, getting serious again. "Can we not get into that again?" Lily pleaded. James nodded. "Thanks, hey do you have any chocolate?" she asked. "No, why?" he asked. "I've really been craving chocolate covered potato chips. Are you sure you don't have any chocolate anywhere that I could melt?" she asked. "Nope, but I'll gladly go run and get some," he replied laughing. "No, that's fine, it can wait until tomorrow, I don't want you to have to go out in the middle of the night for a person who just walked back into your life," Lily said, feeling a little bit guilty. "Nah, Lily it's fine, I want to, I want to be able to help you in some way, I've already missed so much, I want to have the chance to do something for you," he said kissing her lightly on the lips. She giggled again. "Silly little schoolgirl," James said. They both laughed.
James left and Lily was left alone to her thoughts. Why had she done this to James? Why had she left him, he was such a great guy, he welcomed fatherhood! Lily was so surprised at that, James was always one to overreact to things. Lily was the one that had overreacted that time, and she regretted it deeply. What had she done to the poor guy? A tear fell down her cheek, as she felt sorry for her and James.
"Lily?" she heard. She opened her eyes and didn't know where she was. She looked around and panicked. "Lily, Lily, it's ok, it's just me," James said quietly trying to calm her down. Lily relaxed at the sight of him. "What time is it?" she asked groggily. "It's noon," he replied. "Crap," Lily said. "Why? Are you late for something?" he asked. "Yeah I have to go to the doctor today," Lily said, getting up, but failing miserably. She fell back down. "Here let me help you," James said quickly, rushing to her side and slowly pulling her up. "My back hurts like hell," Lily said, groaning. "Well that's one of the side effects to being pregnant my fair Lily," James said chuckling. Lily glared at him. "Don't you have to be to work?" she asked. "Not today, I have the whole week off," James replied. "Can I come to your appointment?" he asked. "I don't see why not," Lily said grinning, it would be nice to be one of the lucky ladies that had a guy with her at the doctor's office. "Can we find out whether the baby is a boy or a girl?" he asked again. "No I want it to be a surprise, you can find out but I don't want to know," Lily said, who got to her feet, a little too fast. She closed her eyes all of a sudden and fought to keep her balance.
"You ok?" James asked, holding her steady. "Yeah, I just blacked out for a minute, I'm fine. Now try not to act surprised by everything, I have a muggle doctor, and she may do things that you would never expect. Like I know that in the wizarding hospital they just use spells, but we in the muggle world use all kinds of machinery, so don't act clueless, ok? Just go along with it," Lily said as a warning. "But aren't you a healer? Why do you have a muggle doctor?" he asked. "I prefer seeing the muggle doctor because I am used to seeing a muggle doctor, that's why, James," she said getting a little annoyed.
James sat down with Lily in the waiting room. There were a bunch of other pregnant women in the room and it was making James uncomfortable. Usually around women he was never uncomfortable, but this was awkward. There were other men in the room too, and they also looked a little out of place. The waiting room was decked out completely in the colors blue and pink, and it smelled very sterile. James hated the smell of sterile things. Lily was looking at a parenting magazine. "How could you stand being here alone?" he asked, looking at all of the other couples.
"I don't know, it just bothered me at first, but then I got over it, you tell me," she replied, "but it's much quieter without you here." James smiled at her last comment. "Well maybe I should just leave then if I'm not appreciated," he said. "Fine, everyone here though will think you're a horrible person," Lily retorted. James sighed, partly wishing he had never come.
"Evans, Lily," the receptionist said. Lily put the magazine back down and followed her to one of the rooms. James followed Lily. He really didn't like this place, there were pictures of babies all over all of the walls. They were all staring at him. He shuddered. "You two may step in here," the nurse said, smiling. They were led into a small room with a lot of equipment. James and Lily sat down in the chairs that were up against the wall. Minutes later the doctor came in. She was tall and pretty and blonde.
"Hello Lily," she said. Lily smiled and said hello. "How have we been doing?" she asked, pulling out a chart. "Just fine," Lily replied. James looked at Lily, she had not been fine. He was going to have to talk to that doctor afterwards. "And you are?" she said to James. James stood up, "I'm James Potter, and only found out yesterday that I am the father to be," he said grinning. "Well I'm glad you finally told him, Lily," Dr. Smith said, shaking James's hand.
"Lily would you get up on the table for me?" Dr. Smith said. James stayed down in the chair but watched with great interest as the doctor rubbed a jelly of some sort on Lily's stomach. She pulled over what looked like a television monitor. "Everything looks fine today," she said after a few minutes. "Would you like to know what it is?" she asked. Lily shook her head. "How about you Mr. Potter?" she asked. James nodded. "I'll talk to you afterwards then," she replied. James was sent out for a few minutes while the doctor did other check ups on Lily. Lily came out all dressed and ready to go. "She would like to talk to you now, James, I'll be waiting outside," she said. James walked into the room.
"Are you really sure you want to know what the baby is?" she asked. James nodded again. "It's a little healthy baby boy," she said smiling at him. James's face lit up. "I knew it when I felt it kicking last night that it was a boy," he said, happily. The doctor laughed a little at this. "I'd also like to talk to you for a minute about Lily. She didn't seem to be telling the truth when she said everything had been going fine. She's been in a lot of pain, and it scares me, she blacked out this morning when she woke up. Last night she was writhing in pain, I don't think that she wants me to see here like that but I can't help it, is it normal for her to be like that?" he asked. Dr. Smith looked at him and smiled a bit, "I'm glad that you told me about this, but there's really nothing I can do, some of it is normal but some of it isn't, if it keeps happening though you should take her in, goodbye Mr. Potter," she said and walked out.
Author's Note: I know I know, this isn't much of a chapter, but it's something. It will get better I promise. And I want to let you know that I've been banned from the internet, and computer in general but I'm sneaking on when no one's around to try and do this, so bear with me!