Well thanks you guys so much for your reviews. It really does mean a lot to me. I am leaving to go back to my home town in a few days and I wont have access to a computer so this will be the last update until then (wincing waiting for the tomatoes) I know I'm sorry, but I promise when I get back a big Juicy 2 chapter update. Love ya guys.

Jude woke up the next morning with the smell of coffee hanging in her nose. Her mom and Sadie must be home. She got up and went into the bathroom.

She looked into the mirror and noticed the bags underneath her eyes. It's not like bags haven't been there before, just not this bad. And her eyes were sore from crying so much. All she wanted to do was cry and crawl in bed all day. But she had planned this lunch with Jamie before she knew she and Tommy would get into it and she couldn't get a rain check because he was going back to New York tomorrow with Kat.

"Just gotta face the music." she sighed as she got in the shower and got ready to go.

Tommy had been awake all night. He was drinking coffee by the gallons and didn't care either. Did she really mean what she said? Was she lying? I don't get it, I thought she loved me. Where did it go all wrong?

All these thoughts were haunting him like the Ghosts of Christmas past, present, and future. He didn't understand why she was doing this.

He couldn't take it anymore. He had to get out, and get away from his thoughts. He couldn't go to G Major, all memories of her were there. He got into his car and found himself at a tiny coffee shop in town. He got more of the only thing keeping him going and sat in the very back right corner, in the dark, and started to listen to the music playing.

Jude walked down the stairs to see her mom and Sadie once again, sitting in the kitchen talking about some shop they went into.

"Hey guys, how was your trip?" she said getting a cup of coffee.

" Oh hi Jude, it was great. How was your vacation?" Sadie asked, like always, with a smile on her face.

"It was alright, but I think I'm gonna leave tomorrow." she said sitting down next to her mother.

"Oh, honey well we really were so happy to see you again. You worried us sick when you left." her mother said hugging Jude.

"Yeah, I know and I wont let that happen again. Christmas, okay?" she smiled weakly.

"Of course, you are welcome her anytime."

"Yeah and you better come back or I'm comin down there to get you." Sadie said sticking her tongue out at her younger sister.

"Yeah, of course." Jude said smiling again and then looking out the window.

"Jude, honey, is everything alright. You don't look so good." her mother said feeling her forehead.

"Huh? Oh, yeah I'm fine mom I just am tired is all. I think I'm going to take a nap after I go have lunch with Jamie." doorbell rings "Oh that's him. Well I'll see you guys later then." she gave her mom and Sadie a hug goodbye before grabbing her coat and walking out the door.

She walked with Jamie out to the car when he stopped and looked her over. "God, Jude, you look like the living dead. What happened?" she shoved Jamie playfully and looked at her feet.

"Long story."

Tommy was sitting in the coffee shop so long he didn't realize that Kwest walked in the door.

"Hey man what are you doing here?" Kwest said walking up and sitting across from him at the dark table.

"Huh? Oh nothing, just relaxin." he said as Kwest looked at the numerous coffee cups he had consumed.

"Relaxing, huh? Sure you're not overdosing?" he went and took all the empty cups back up to the counter.

"Nah man, I'm just a little upset is all." he said looking at his still half full coffee cup.

"Oh, I see. You got the Jude sickness again, huh?" he laughed.

"What? What are you talking about?" he looked confused.

"I'm talking about everytime you get that look on your face. It looks like somebody just ran over your dog. You've had that look for the past four years. So Georgia, EJ, and I named it the Jude sickness. 'Cause we all know why you always had that look on your face. What happened man?"

"She lied to me, to my face!" he said as he looked out the window to the cars passing by.

"What did she lie about? She said she wasn't here forever. All good things gotta come to an end man."

"No, Kwest, it wasn't that. I asked her to tell me she didn't love me and she did. She said 'I don't love you'. She lied."

"How do you know she lied?"

"Because, man. I kissed her and she kissed me back. You don't do that to someone you don't love."

"Maybe she was doing it for the greater good. Maybe it will be better for you both in the long run."

"How, Kwest? How can it be better for us in the long run when I know deep down we are supposed to be together. I mean yeah, I messed up before, but I don't want to do that again."

"Wow, man. You really do care about her."

"Isn't it obvious by now?" he laughed and looked at him.

"So you gonna go say goodbye at the airport tomorrow?"

"Nah, I mean, she wouldn't want me there."

"What! Are you crazy? Did you not just hear anything coming out of your mouth? You love her man, you have to be there."

"I don't know, man." he looked at Kwest and he just shook his head.

"It's a shame, you know that Quincy?"

"What?"

"The fact that you can't grow the balls enough to fight for the one you love."

Tommy just sat there taking everything Kwest had said in. Was he really giving up too soon? Was there still hope for him to get her back?

"You did what!" Jamie said as he almost choked on his double cheeseburger at the diner.

"I kinda told him I didn't love him…why are you so mad Jamie. You of all people hated the thought of me and Tommy together." she sipped on her coke.

"Okay, Jude. I know that of all people I don't understand why you would chose Tom Quincy, in fact I would rather you have chosen the 3 foot tall midget in the Ringling Bros. Circus over him, but that was back then, and this is now. He cares for you so much Jude. I saw the pain in his eyes when you left. Why do you think he broke up with Sadie?"

"Why did he have to get with her in the first place? If he was so in love with me, why did he do that behind my back? Explain that to me." she crossed her arms.

"Jude, back then is different from now. He couldn't very well date you. Unless he fancied spending the rest of his pathetic little life behind bars. It wasn't just that, your parents didn't approve of him and you and you know it."

"Okay, maybe you're right…but still! Jamie! My sister? It was like he was trying to keep it in the family." she grimaced at this comment thinking of him and Sadie together.

"Jude, no offense to your sister or anything, but don't you think that the reason he dated your sister was because at the time you were too young to be dating him, and maybe he wanted the next best thing?"

"I don't know, Jamie. All I know is I'm leaving tomorrow and it's back to coffees and Wednesday night Open Mic."

"It could be better, you know that Jude? You don't have to go back and deal with all that."

"Jamie, I can't stay here. I have a life now, and I'm going to live it, without Little Tommy Q."

"Okay and we'll just see how happy you are. Face it, Jude. You love him and you know it."

She sat there amazed at how right Jamie was. It wasn't that New York wasn't awesome. She just was always so…alone. She didn't like feeling that way.

The next thing she knew her mother was driving her to the airport and Sadie was sitting in the back next to her talking to her latest flavor of the week on the phone about their date later on that night. The time had gone by so fast yet it felt like an eternity.

They had all parked the car and were going to say goodbye. The gang was all there. Georgia, EJ, Kwest, her mom, dad, and sister. Jamie and Kat said their goodbyes earlier since they took off that morning. Tommy was no where to be found.

"He's just scared is all, he'll be here." Kwest said pulling the red head into a big hug.

"Yeah, take care of him for me, will ya Kwest?"

"Sure thing, red. Don't worry, and you come back and visit us."

"I will."

"So, I guess I'll see ya around?" Jude said to Georgia who reached in and gave her a hug.

"Yeah you bet. Don't forget about us." and with that she hugged EJ also.

"I wont. I couldn't."

She walked over to her sister who was crying a little.

"Aw big sis, don't cry. I'll be back. And then we can go shopping." she smiled at her sister who smiled back and gave her a huge hug.

"Honey we are going to miss you so much. Please call as soon as you get there and keep in touch, okay? We love you." her mother and father pulled her into a bug hug and kissed her forehead.

"I will, and keep my room open for me, for everytime I come back."

They nodded as she walked away and blew a kiss to all of them. She hoped Tommy would have been there, but after everything that happened she couldn't expect him to want to be there.

Just then she heard a familiar voice yell 'Wait!' as she saw a man running towards her.

"Tommy, I didn't think you were coming."

"Yeah, well, you know me; always gotta be fashionably late." he smiled and handed her a white rose.

"Thank you." she pulled in and gave him a hug.

"I'm gonna miss you, girl." he whispered in her ear.

"I'm gonna miss you too." she smiled. "Oh and Tommy?" she said still hugging him.

"Yeah?"

"35,040" she whispered.

"What?" he said confused still hugging her.

"That's how many hours I thought of you. And that's how many hours I will continue to think of you plus a million more. I love you with all my heart and soul, Tom Quincy."

And with that she handed her ticket to the flight attendant and turned back and smiled and him, blew a kiss, and then left.

Sometimes the things you want to deny most in life, are the things you know, deep down, you're the most sure about.

There ya go, I know its long but It will make up for the time I will miss. Happy Holidays and a Very Merry Christmas to you all! Love Ya