Change of Heart

Chapter Two

Past memories

Sango's P.O.V

He is gone again, this time with some excuse about there being a demon terrorizing a village.

Why do I let him do this to me? He says he loves me, but then he leaves and doesn't come back for days.

I know he is sleeping with other women, I just don't think I have the heart to face him about it. I don't want him to leave me. He is all I have left.

After my village was destroyed and Kohaku was killed in front of me, he was the one that came and took care of me. He got me back on my feet, and he supported me when I needed it.

Whenever I told him I didn't want him with me and that I hated him, or I blamed him for what happened to me, he would just smile calmly and wait for me to let it all out, then he would hold me for hours and say it was alright and that he would always be there for me, and then he would tell me he loved me and would kiss me on the forehead and make sure I had everything I needed.

He never accused me of anything, never yelled at me, he was always there for me.

And then he just drifted away from me. He would leave me for two to four days or even longer at times. When I asked what was going on he would smile and tell me not to worry about a thing.

You said you loved me Miroku, but if you do why aren't you ever with me anymore?

I don't know if I drove him away, I pray that I didn't, because he was the best thing that ever happened to me, he made me smile and laugh at times when I didn't even think it possible.

I stay awake at night, staring up at the ceiling and wishing he was there beside me, holding me and making me feel safe, but he's not, so I let these tears slide down my face and I'll cry myself to sleep again and dream about him, and wonder if he'll be here watching me when I wake.

I miss you Miroku.

Inuyasha's P.O.V

"SIT . . . SIT . . . SIT." That dreaded voice kept ringing over and over in my ear as I slammed in the ground several times over.

When I finally was able to stand normally again without her yelling at me, I yelled back, "Damn it, woman are you possessed?"

"How dare you yell at me!"

"I have every right to yell at you, if I want to go for a walk I have every god damn right to go."

"You have to go out in the middle of the night?"

"You know how I like the night air!"

"SIT!" Kagome yelled and I once again crash to the ground.

"Son of a . . ."

Kagome seeing that she had made me completely pissed, when I got up again, she decided to cuddle up to me, which I hated intensely.

She wrapped her arms around my chest and pressed her body close to mine.

"I just worry about you Inuyasha, you mean everything to me, and I don't want to loose you."

This caught me by surprise so I just stood there not hugging her back and stepped away from her when she let me go, I looked at her face and saw a ridiculously pathetic pout on her face, which I had learned not to buy because I knew she was just trying to make me feel sorry for her, which I long ago stopped doing.

"You do not control my life, if I want to go for a walk then I will. I told you I loved you, why you don't believe me I don't know and frankly I don't care, you need to get of my back and stay off, do you understand me?" I made my tone of voice low and threatening, which did do the trick in making fear come to her eyes.

She hadn't forgotten that I was still a demon, even if I was just a half demon; I still had the power to kill her, and the will.

"But Inuyasha, I just worry about you so much, you mean the world to me."

"If you loved me than you would know to trust me. Now can I go outside or is that against your rules?"

". . . I have to finish lunch."

"What ever." I said and walked out the door to sit on a rock and stare up at the sky.

She is like a god damn slave driver, do this, don't do that, no . . . no . . . no, don't touch that, okay you can touch that but not without me here to watch you. It's the same thing every day.

I know I have to leave if I ever wanted to have a life. I keep asking myself, if that was what I really wanted? But I knew that it was.

I have been meaning to go talk to Kaede about the beads around my neck, and see if she will take them off.

I'm hoping that she will.

Miroku's P.O.V

This is the life, I think to myself. A woman is messaging my shoulders and another is pounding on my back.

"Yeah that's the spot, right there."

I letmy mind wander, and my eyes close drowsily as I drift of to sleep, and I see her face. She has always been a beautiful woman; I loved her eyes the best. Her eyes are such a dark brown they are almost black, and her hair is a lush black as well.

I don't really know why I don't go home to her, I'm sure she is waiting for me even now, probably crying for me, I smile to myself at that thought. A woman crying for me, I love it.

I all ways prided myself in how I can get a woman so easily. She had been a little bit harder than any other woman, but like I expected she melted in my arms when I hugged her. She loved it when I told her I loved her. Those were the magic words; she always came to me when I said those words, like she was starved for love.

I knew she had no one else to go to, its one of the reason's I chose her, besides her looks of course.

She had been fun for a while, but I got bored of her mood swings, and she needed a lot of attention, and I got tired of giving it to her.

I know I have to go and tell her I don't want her anymore but not right now, I'm having too much fun.