:The Illness:

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It nearly seemed like forever to him. He couldn't bear to part from those violet pale eyes; yet in the end he was forced to as they sunk into a weary sleep. All that night Clive had remained by his bed side. Constantly worrying of the state of his loved one who lay stranded in the bed clinging to life.

His fingers kept running through the soft silver in hopes he would awaken with a new light. Hoping that he could help him if that was possible by this point. Even in the early morning Jet didn't strain to shed his eyes open. There was nothing other than his soft breathing to leave Clive in prayer. By noon, his fear flourished into thorns. Startling over the boy, he shook him trying to wake him. Still, there had been no sign of anything. Inside, a part of him was crumbling to ruins. Almost all hope lost inside his fragile heart.

Helplessly Virginia and Gallows hung by the door way. Their own hearts being shattered by watching the two rot away in the dark depth of the room. Finally, she couldn't take it anymore. Placing a hand on his shoulder Virginia attempted to lure him away from the boy's bed side. She urged him to rest, have something to eat also, but he remained stubborn. Cliff refused it all. The only thing that remained deep in his mind was how it was his fault Jet was like this. It would be his fault if the boy faded away now. Loosely his arms had tied around the smaller one's body.

"You'll wake up soon…"

"Right…?"

Not giving up herself, Virginia dragged him away. He was forced to rest weather he wanted to or not. Though he could not remain by Jet's bed, still Clive remained worried for him. Often away from his bed side he would end up pacing back and forth outside. His mind wouldn't stray for even a moment. Staring into the fire was the only thing he could keep his mind focused other things. Unfortunately, as the days grew on, Clive fell deeply ill into depression. His body took the punishment of this fall. Not long after, Clive was in a near lifeless state leaving both Virginia and Gallows to treat the two alone.

For the next for days everyone took shifts to keep watch over Jet. One after another, they treated his wounds. Cleaned him up. Things had begun to turn for the worst for the adventures. Their dreams nearly shattered when Gallows had made a discovery. Time was of the essence now. Bidding a short farewell to Virginia he was off to find a doctor. Four days it took for him to find one. Between the walks from town to town, to trying to track one down and being lead down false paths, they ended rushing back by train.

In shock, he couldn't believe it. He was sitting on a chair near the bed just watching. He had watched for hours. When he needed it the most, help never came. Tears had been flooding down his flushed cheeks ever since he passed on. Hand in hand, it was now too late. Forever he was lost. The doctor stepped foot inside, already catching the feeling by the sad eyes looking up to him. With a jaw gapped Gallows was dumbfounded. "You're awake!" He asked startled.

Silence passed through the room and the soft wind blew his silver bangs away from his eyes. Facing Clive, Jet nodded closing his blood shot eyes. By the looks of it, for the longest time he had been crying. Bandages had covered his torso, neck, and arms, covered in blood and scraps but… not a scratch remained on Clive. It looked like it should have been the other way around. It looked as if Jet should have been the one to lye lifeless in the bed. But, things happen to change sometimes for the worst. Sometimes, they change because of one un-thoughtful action.

"You asshole." Sobbed Jet. His head buried against the cold hand. Tears kept falling from his eyes, and still, Clive was no longer there. No longer there to tell him it was okay. No longer there to smile and pat him on the head or get into small petty arguments over each other's morals. Clive was no longer there to be by his side. All the promised had been washed down the drain. Unfolding his fingers from the cold grasp, Clive's hand limply fell to the bed, and again Jet turned back and took a note off from the bed. His tears still fell, and his lips trembled to read over the words scratched down onto the paper.

'If only… I was there for you.'

'I'm sorry…'

'I was too late for you.'

Jet's P.o.v:

What I learned over my life time is that through out time I shall forever travel this world alone. People come and go everyday. I can even stay with them for a long time however… They can die right in your arms and there is no way you can pull them back to you. Even when your strong… they are forever lost. Love, it's a useless emotion that leaves you hurt inside time after time again. It twists your mind and heart in half sometimes. Sitting here now I laugh at myself of how foolish I was. I see now that there was nothing I could of done to save him. There was nothing I could of done to make things right. There is nothing left for me here but to run… But no matter how fast or far I go, the pain will still linger deep inside my chest, and I'll never be the same. Forever, I'll hold these wounds, till the day I die. And if I have no soul as I am a 'heartless' machine, then let me burn in hell. Let me rot away in these sands to never recall this pain. Let me fall down. Let god tell me why, why does everyone but me die?

'Tell me god, why?'

:Clive's Letter:

For days I sat here restlessly. My heart can not carry on. I sat here watching you for hours seeing everything that I done wrong. I'm sorry my dear Jet. I've done this to you. Forgive me my dear, Jet. I shall pay for this sin. Forgive me. I see what I did wrong. Forgive me. I'm taking myself away from you. Forgive me. I'll forever love you. Till we meet again at those heavenly gates, I shall wait by your side. Day by day, I'll be here just as loyal. Just don't stop smiling dear, Jet. For you are my stars and my sun on a cloudy day. You are my everything dear Jet, even as lye here in pain. You are my everything Jet, that's why I die here today.

Forever Yours,

Clive

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:Author's Note:

Enough people have bugged me to continue this fan fiction, so I wrote a short. Yes, it leaves many things open, but to let you all know it is not over yet. So keep in tune to find out what happens next! I shall be hopefully updating more.

Inspired by: Kid Rock- Only god knows why

Lyrics:

I've been gone I've been gone for way to long
Maybe I forgot all the things I'd miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life then this
I said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in, and people get what deserve
Still I ain't seen mine no I ain't seen mine
I've been givin' just ain't been gettin' I've been walkin back that line
So I think ill keep on walkin with my head held high
Ill keep movin' on and only God knows why

To be continued…