Chapter Four: Conversations With Myself

Lily's POV

As I dashed out the front doors I didn't have a clue where I was going. I just ran and let my feet guide me. I found myself at the station.

I flopped down on the couch and stared into space. I kept telling myself that I didn't like him. It was a very confusing conversation with myself.

I'll list some of his bad qualities!

'Does he have any?'

Everybody has bad qualities! Well, he was kind of too pale; he said he didn't like to be out in the sun, which probably meant that he wasn't into sports.

'You're not into sports either!'

Shut up brain! He's a bit of a geek…Parker says that he owns copies of every TV show and movie that's title starts with 'star'.

'You know you love Star Trek! And you're no River Pearce yourself!'

Didn't I tell you to shut up? He seems a bit too uptight…even a bit formal at times. I mean, who's that polite?

'That just means he's a gentlemen! There's nothing wrong with that!'

Well…he's…Parker's boyfriend! That's reason enough that I can't date him!

'Parker doesn't have to know about it! Come on! Let Evil Lily out for a bit!'

No! There is no Evil Lily! Parker's my friend! I can't have feelings for Eric! I don't have feelings for Eric!

I blocked out any other thoughts. It must have taken more concentration that I thought, because the next thing I knew the guys were showing up for the show.

Ray, last one there as usual, came in and said, "Lily! What was that explosion today?"

"None of your business Ray," I muttered.

"Explosion?" Robbie asked raising his eyebrows.

"It wasn't an explosion, I was just in a bad mood," I said.

"Can you guys sort this out after the show? We're on in 5…4…3…2.." Travis counted down.

"I'm Pronto, and I'm wondering. Why do friends hide things that obviously need to be talked about?" Ray said.

Robbie pouted and said, "Hey! That's my line! And I'm wondering what-"

"Question Mark, please. I've already given the topic. Just go with it!" Ray said. "Shady? Can you shine some light on this?"

I called Ray a name that probably wasn't suitable for radio and stormed out. Nobody tried to stop me and I was glad. I would have probably done something I would have regretted if they did.

Ray's POV

Second time today she's gone off like that! Alright, I was a jerk for bringing it up on the air. And now Robbie was dealing with a parent who wasn't too pleased with Lily's name calling. Now she's going to kill me.

Lily's POV

I ran home and stormed up to my room only to find Parker sitting on my bed.

Parker's POV

Lily came in looking even more upset than she did today in class.

"Your mom let me in," I said getting up.

"What do you want?" she asked, not moving from the door frame.

"Randy, I want to know what's wrong. All week you've been acting weird and today you were dodging me completely. Then when you had no choice but to see me you blew up in my face and got thrown out of class! What's the deal?" I asked. I decided not to mention how stupid she looked running through the halls with her head down.

"I've just had a bad week, that's all," she said.

"A bad week? Come on Randy, talk to me!"

She gave me a fake smile and said, "Parker, thanks a lot for your concern, but I'm fine, really. Look, you're going to be late meeting Eric. Here, you can borrow this." She handed me her favourite necklace with the black guitar and two red guitar picks on a silver chain.

"Thanks, hey, you can still come with us. I'm meeting Eric and his cousin at Mickey's like now and this cousin is pretty cute!" I offered.

Lily hesitated for a second before she said, "Sure! It actually sounds pretty good."