He opens his palm and shows her what he found. Her faces falls and all you can hear is the sound of their heavy breathing as she stares at the white stick in his hand.
"Where did you find that?" She asks slowly.
She's scared out of her mind about him finding it.
"You're…you're…that is why you…pregnant."
She mumbles something under her breath as she snatches the test out of his open palm.
"Just forget about it." She says quietly as she turns to leave. His arm shoots out and wraps around her waist. She fights him as he pulls her to him.
"Forget about it! You're pregnant! I'm going to be a father in…"
"About eight months," she informs him quietly, her eyes darting to the floor.
"Eight months and you want me to forget that fact? I love you Sam but sometimes…" He bites his tongue already regretting what he's said so far.
"Sometimes what? Do you not like the fact I didn't tell you? I'm pregnant Luka! There, you happy? I told you."
She pushes herself out of his grasp forcefully.
"Sam…" He says lowering his voice to a normal level.
"I didn't even want Alex! Why would I want another child now?" She screams at him, her voice becoming louder with each word as she backs up against the wall.
It's silent for a moment but then the pounding of footsteps and the slamming of a door is heard through out the apartment. The moment the slamming is heard she starts sliding down the wall towards the floor. She regrets what she said. Everything.
She's crying now and he can't handle it. He bends down to her level and whispers something she can't understand but she does what he wants her to do. Together they stand up and she wraps her arms around his body. His arms wrap around her body and he kisses the top of her head, his eyes closing of their own accord.
"It's okay Sam."
She just keeps crying making his shirt damp with her tears.
After what seems like forever, she lets go him and goes to explain things to her son.
"Alex?" She says opening the door slowly.
"Go away!" He yells to her from his spot on his bed.
"Alex, please?" He doesn't say anything in response and she takes his silence as an okay to come in. "Alex I didn't mean it." She wants to talk it back. It's bad enough he is still down from Luka keeping him from going with his dad.
"Yes you did." He tells her. His back still to her. "No fifteen year-old wants a baby Mom. I'm not stupid." And he's right because she didn't want him when she first found out. But life without him now would kill her and his next comment almost did that. "I'm surprised you even kept me after you had me."
"I couldn't have done that Alex. Do you know how much I pain I would be in? I would have missed everything. From when you came home to your first day of kindergarten. To even now. And I'm sorry your father doesn't feel the same way," He flinched at the mention of his dad. "…but I wouldn't trade you for anything. You're everything to me. I would jump from a bridge for you."
"So we can go bungee jumping?" He says turning around to face her a grin beginning to form on his face.
"No!"
"But you just said…"
"I meant if you were in danger."
He smiles at her and she thanks God. Something she finds herself doing a lot lately. She snorts at the thought.
"What?" Alex asks her.
"You remember when Luka dragged us to that Catholic Church down the street for Christmas Eve?"
"Yeah," he said, his eyebrows furrowing at her in confusion.
"I think it got to me," she says laughing slightly at the thought of that night.
"Why do we have to go again?" Alex asked her for the fifteenth time.
"Because Luka wants us to. Now go put on your suit."
"This is retarded Mom." He tells her as he leaves the room.
"Retarded?" Luka asks as he snakes his arms around her and pulls her closer towards him.
"Stupid. Dumb. You know I can't put my make up on with you holding me like this."
"You don't need it," he tells her burying his head into her mass of curls, sniffing in the scent of her that he loves so much.
"You flatter me. But I need it. Trust me." He lets go of her and she turns around to face him. "But hey keep it up and you might get your Christmas present early."
The look of confusion on his face only last for about a second before he smiles. She laughs and leaves the bedroom for their bathroom.
"Mom?" Alex says interrupting her thoughts.
"Yeah Alex."
"If you love me so much why don't you want another baby?"
"Alex, please." He drops the subject and returns to reading his magazine. "Are we cool?" She asks him before leaving the room.
"Yeah. But I want a brother," he tells her with a huge grin on her face.
"Sorry Alex but there's nothing I can do if it's a girl." She informs him as she leaves the room.
As she's walking down the hall she runs into Luka. Literally runs into him and as he catches her in his arms he says:
"Why?"