A/N: I feel like when I sit down to write there's some roulette table that is spinning to tell me which story to write and today it was this one that it landed on. Must have landed on a double or something because I actually have 2 chapters set up to post, but I'll wait a few days before adding the other one. Everyone enjoy! Until next time-PCGirl.

"This is all I have, but drink up," said Rex as he brought over a cup of tea from a tea bag he had in the cupboard—probably something leftover from Lindsey or Jen.

"Thanks," she said, giving a slight smile. "Did you lock the other door so they can't come in and look through the window?"

"Yeah. Don't worry-nobody is going to be bothering us until you want to be bothered. So spill it, sistah," he said causing her to laugh some.

"I—I found out John was leaving tonight and went to talk to him. He gave me this letter—and he didn't tell me to wait for him, or that he loved me, but still—I realized how much I'm going to miss him.

"When I went back into the Community Center and saw Cristian there—I realized that it's almost like he died again, but this time in the end I had Cristian and lost John."

"God, Natalie—why does this have to be about love life? Why can't it be something simple—something I can actually help you on," sighed Rex as he closed his eyes before he looked at her again and jumped directly next to her.

"This is what I'm going to say, and it might make no sense—so you've been warned. I don't remember much from my childhood before Roxy shipped me off but I remember you were more my mom than her. You took care of me—made sure I had food and clothing while you played the part of a mother.

"What I'm getting at is that you're entire life you've been trying to make everyone happy, but never thinking of what makes you happy. So what will make you happy? A giant hot fudge sundae? A trip through Europe? Just tell me and I'll try to make it happen."

Natalie smiled at the way he was thinking, "I think right now I just want to try and sleep—maybe if I get some rest I'll clear my mind and in the morning it will all make sense."

"Ok, I can do that—you take the bed tonight and I'll take the couch and watch guard," he said as he helped her up and towards the bed.

"Where is she? I have to find my wife," said Cristian as he returned to Angel Square from wandering around.

"She's not at Roxy's or Rodi's," said Jessica as she and Antonio came into the Square themselves.

"She's got to be at the Hotel with him," said Cristian through gritted teeth as he turned towards it.

"Seriously—what is your problem with my cousin? He's done nothing wrong to you—and all he's ever wanted for Natalie is for her to be happy. If she ran from you then it's for a reason—and if it has to do with my cousin then he has no clue because he's on a plane to a new life right now," glared Shannon.

"You don't know anything about me or my wife," said Cris as he walked towards her but was stopped by Antonio.

"Don't do this, Cris. You are upset—why don't you just go to the diner and if we find Natalie we'll come find you."

"No—I need to find Natalie."

"We'll find her—I promise," said Antonio as he reassured his brother through a pat on the back and watched him walk away and then turn to Shannon. "What was that all about?"

"I know where Natalie is—but I really think it's in the best interest of everyone if we give her space."

"That's fine—just tell us where she is."

"After I watched John's plane take off I went to Rex's to wait on him to get back—he must have found her when she left the Community Center because that's where she is now—sleeping most likely."

"As long as she's safe and not somewhere crying alone," sighed Antonio. "Come on Jess—let's go tell your mom and come up with some way to keep Cristian away from her until she's ready."

John threw his bag down on the floor next to his bed and threw himself on the bed. He glanced at his watch—it was close to 3 am in Llanview which made it what time here? He was too tired to think of the time difference at the moment so he just rolled onto his back and stared at the ceiling.

He wondered if Natalie had ended up going through the renewal of vows—he hoped she had—prayed she had, but he had this feeling she didn't. She wouldn't want him to be blaming himself—he knew that, but right now he felt like he should be there in Llanview telling her to go to the man she'd wait to return to her for a year.

But right now he wasn't in Llanview and he couldn't leave until the case with Sonia was solved. John gave a loud sigh as he got up and hit the lights—he wasn't used to the time difference yet but he knew Sonia and his day was going to start much earlier than he wanted it to.

"Here—I grabbed some more stuff when I knew Cris was out of the cottage," said Jessica as she walked in with a small suitcase.

"Thanks," said Natalie as she took it and laid it down on Rex's bed—she'd been hiding out here for two days now—not venturing even past the front door, worried that Cristian would see her. She wasn't afraid of him—she just didn't know what to tell him. The truth was what she should be telling him, but she knew it would kill him for her to say the truth about John.

John—he hadn't come to her mind in a whole two hours, a new record for the day. Soon enough she would have all the space and time she needed to sort everything out, but first she had to make a phone call, "So Jess—you heading back to work?"

"Yeah, I'll probably stop by with Antonio later. Call if you need anything," she said giving her a big hug.

"I will," she said giving a fake smile as she walked Jessica out to the second door and locked it behind her before going to find her cell phone and dialing. "Hey—it's Natalie. I'm ok. That's what I was calling about," she said as she began to tell the person on the other end her plan.

"I'm glad the four of you are able to meet me tonight," said Natalie as she sat on the steps of Ultra Violet—Rex had closed the place for Natalie to have a meeting with him, Roxy, Jessica, and Viki. "I've had a lot to think about the past few days—what I've done the past year and where I belong."

"You did nothing wrong, sweetheart," spoke Vicki.

"I know. And I know you four love me so much, but I still have more thinking to do—straighten out my life more, find peace and understanding in where my choices have led me."

"We'll give you as much time and space as you need," said Jessica as she came to sit down next to her sister.

"Yeah," agreed Rex as he sat down on the other side of her.

"I know, and I love you all for doing that. But it's not fair to Cris—I can't keep running around in the shadows of life trying to avoid him face to face. So tomorrow I'm going to talk to him—tell him I'm sorry for hurting him-."

"That's good of you, but you don't have to do it tomorrow—take as much time as you need," spoke Viki.

"Well, I have to tomorrow or I don't know when I'll get another chance. There's more—tomorrow afternoon I have a plane ticket for London—Dad and Joey already said it was ok for me to stay with them for awhile."

"Oh sweetheart—you could have just shown up on their doorstep unannounced and they would be fine with you staying with them. We'll all miss you terribly while you are gone, but I'm glad you made this decision on your own. Is there anything we need to do to help make the transition easier?"

"No, just knowing you are behind me is enough. Roxy—you've been quiet, is everything ok?"

"Yeah, Vicki just said everything so beautifully I didn't want to screw it up," said Roxy as she began to tear up.

"Roxy are you crying?"

"No, I—I just think I got some dust in my eye," she said as she began to walk towards the doors.

"Wait—come here," said Natalie as she hopped up and pulled Roxy into a hug. "What's wrong?"

"I just—I guess I'm going to miss you. No matter what it's always been the two of us and who is going to be there for me to say stupid stuff to?"

"You'll always have me, mom," said Rex as he got up and joined the two before all three pulled into a hug.