Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with Instant, Mandy Moore,or the characters used in this story. This is my first story so please bear with me.
-1"Here today Gone in the Morning" I.S. F.F.
"I can't do this anymore" Those words vibrated into his ears and from her mouth. "What do you mean, you can't do this anymore, this everything you've always wanted" He shouted back at her. "I think I need to get away" Jude said while stuffing her hands in her back pocket, while pacing back and forth around Studio A. "Yeah, that sounds like a good idea, take a weekend to get out of this funk" Tommy said while sitting in the reclining chair. "No, Tommy I don't think you understand what I mean, I'm leaving there's nothing here for me anymore" Jude stopped pacing and took a seat on the couch "What do you me there's nothing here for you anymore Jude? Look around this is everything you dreamed and wished for, what more can you WANT" Voicing his anger and concern. What could Jude possibly want, it's been two and a half years, they've had their ups and downs, more downs then ups, but they were finally back into their old routine, their were friends but their hearts would always want more than that and now she wanted out she just wanted to give up. "Something's missing Tommy, my music's missing something, I'm missing something, my songs they have no meaning anymore, I used to write about falling in love, getting hurt, I used to make songs that changed the world. I used to be able to strum one string on my guitar and be able to write a whole symphony and now I can't do either, I don't even know what it feels like anymore to do that." Jude admitted while putting her hands in her face. "Hey, Hey Jude listen to me, everyone has been where you've been, I have and it'll get better you just have to believe that it's going to get better." Tommy pleaded with Jude almost afraid of where she was going with this conversation. She said she had nothing here for her anymore, but what about Tommy? "I don't think it will Tommy, I'm Seventeen and a half, I've fallen in love twice maybe even three times, I've had my heartbroken numerous times. Since I've been here Tommy, I've made so many friends, I've made two double platinum Cds, because you helped me. Now, I just feel like there's nothing left for me here, I need to leave, to go far away maybe for a week maybe forever all I know is that I can't be here anymore." Jude said while tears started to well up in her eyes, it killed her to tell Tommy everything she's had and everything she feels like she's missing, she wanted him to understand, but he didn't she could tell with the blank look on his face, but then it turned into pure sadness "But, what about me, Jude" he said in a whisper looking into her eyes with his pure iced blue ones. "What about you Tommy, we're just friends we've both made that clear over the years, we can only be friends, we hurt each other more than we get along, I'm sorry but you alone can't and won't make me stay" she told him while one lonely tear spilled out of her eye. Tommy turned his back to her, so she could see how hurt he was, he even shed a few tears himself. How could she say that to him, he thought that HE and only HE could be the one to take away all her pain, to make her be the one to stay. "I get it, I'm the one that caused you to be this way, I've hurt you and now there's to much pain that even I can't erase, if this is what you want Jude then fine" He paused choosing his next words bitterly and angrily "Then Walk away Leave everything you've sweated, bleed and cried and fought for. DAMN IT JUDE Quit if that's what's going to make you happy, walk away from everything and everyone that care and love you." "Tommy don't do this, not here not now. I need to do this, I thought you of all people would understand" Her voice matching up with his anger. Why is he being this way, if he cared about her wouldn't he understand, wouldn't he bring her into a hug and kiss her on the forehead and tell her that they'd soon meet again. This conversation was one that neither one of them will forget. "I understand perfectly Jude, You want to walk away, quit give up, that's what it is isn't" Tommy's bitter words stabbed Jude in the back. Jude quickly jumped up from her chair. "I'm not quitting, I'm not like you to walk away from a good thing." "Oh but you are Jude, you're getting ready walk right out those doors, you're trying to make me hate you so it'd be easier for you to walk away, but what about me Jude what if I don't want you to walk away, what if I want you to stay and be here with me recording great music and mixing a killer album? Huh what about me" Tommy yelled kicking his chair as he got up "Get over yourself Quincy, not everything's about you" and with that she ripped opened the door and started to walk out into the G-Major lobby. "OH no you don't get to have the last word Harrison, You told me a year and a half ago that I couldn't get rid of you, and now you want to get rid of me? When did this change in roles start" Tommy asked while closing in on her "Huh are you going to answer me?" not noticing the crowd that was forming into the lobby as the two had it out right then and there. "The roles changed when I went on my second tour by myself, without my best friend Tommy, when you decided that staying and producing someone else's album was more important then MY FIRST WORLD Tour, that's when I realized that I was able to get rid of you and I'm going Tommy and there's nothing you can say or do about it" "You want to bet Jude, you're legally bound to this contract, you can't just walk away unless you want a suitcase" He thought he had her there, until he saw a mischievous grin spread across her face "Oh, that contract yeah well me and Georgia had a talk last night before I left, that's why I didn't need a ride, She actually understands that I need to get away, she realizes the pain and agony I've gone through the past couple of years, and she's giving me the break I need and now why can't you?" She yelled and that's when she realized there was a crowd because she had heard some gasps and 'oohs' and 'ahhs' Tommy stood there speechless, How could Jude his Jude make such a bold move to leave G-Major and him. Why did she need to get away and then it hit him, she needed to get away from everything he put her though, kissing her and taking it back saying it was a mistake, choosing Sadie over her when it came to her first tour, breaking up with Sadie and never telling her why, kissing her again and saying that it was yet another mistake because both their jobs were at risk, causing the break up between her and Jamie. "Oh" was all he said, Jude knew she got the best of him she could see the defeat in his eyes, but then something change his eyes went back to sadness, like reality finally hit him, he was losing his world. "This is it then" he spoke after a moment. "Yeah I guess it is, listen I have to go, I'm leaving early tomorrow to beat the traffic, I still have to pack and handle some last minute things." "Oh, are you coming back" he spoke with hope in his eyes, voice and heart. "I don't know all I know is that I need time to myself." "Where are you going?" "I'm not going to tell you that." "Why?" "Quincy, I'm not that dumb and neither are you, we both know why I'm leaving and I don't need or want the reason to come and find me" "Oh Alright, well I guess this is good-bye then huh" fresh new tears forming in his eyes. "Yeah, so will you give me a hug already" Tommy smirks at her and closes the gap that was between them. "I'm going to miss you so much girl." Tommy said holding on to her tightly and closing his eyes as if he was saving this moment in his mind and heart, because they both knew that this could well possibly be the last time they ever say each other. "I already miss you" She spoke tears pouring onto her cheeks she swiftly and quickly kisses his cheek lets go of the embrace and walks away out of his life, taking his heart with her, and just like that she's gone and she left him there all alone. Tommy just lost the one true girl that ever got him and he knew it was all his fault.
OK I'd really like you to R&R, that'd mean alot to me thanks
Jess