I lied. I'm not gonna write the whole sequel or whatever it's called to "Ruined My Life". I apologize to anyone who actually might have been looking forward to it. But on the bright side I finally fixed the ending to "Nakatsu's Girl". I changed the ending twice and the second time I only changed a sentence or two but now it's finally the way that I wanted it to be when I first wrote it.

Disclaimer- I. DO. NOT. OWN. HANA-KIMI.

I starred in horror at him. Those words… They came out of my mouth didn't they? I want to jump off a bridge; the pain in his eyes is too much. I didn't mean to say it, it wasn't my fault!

I blame my curse. All my life I was destined to only feel the emotions of others. I never told anyone about this before, I was already a freak to begin with, why make it worse? I've always been able to control it though, but lately… Things have been slipping out, just like what just happened.

"Nakatsu, I didn't mean it." I told him with my normal emotionless voice. My words seemed to break the trance he was being held in he punched me right in the jaw. I didn't say anything; the pain was bearable although I knew that it would bruise.

"You didn't mean it?" He asked me angrily, fists still clenched. The pain in his heart was tearing me apart; it took all my strength not to loose control and feed off his anger. The last thing I wanted to do was make things worse.

"How the fuck do you say something like that and not mean it!" I stood up from where his punch had landed me on the floor. "It's… complicated." I could only manage to say. The teen standing across from me could never know of the curse I had. Sure he had accepted my other supernatural "gifts" but this one I haven't even told my parents about.

"Damn you Kayashima. You're always just too complicated for me aren't you? Rot in hell for all I care." When he stormed out of the room that was when it happened. I felt heart break but no one near me was feeling this.

I couldn't believe it, my heart actually broke! I was feeling on my own! This had only happened a few times before when I with Nakatsu before. Then I remembered why I was feeling this and all excitement died. He hated me. I remember once when I was little walking past a fighting man and woman. The man was yelling at the woman, saying heart wrenching things that made me almost want to cry. This feels just like that.

I guess you guys want to know what I said, huh? Like everything else in my roommate's life it involved Mizuki. He was extremely excited that he had found out her secret. Of course it was no secret to me even though he thought it was.

He was saying about how much he loved her and other bull shit like that. I guess someone on the first floor of the dorms had pissed off one of the teachers really bad because anger just flared inside of me uncontrollably.

"You moron. She'll never give a fuck about a guy like you! It's just so damn obvious she's in love with Sano; you're just so fucking blind you can't see! Give it a rest, you'll never compare to him in her eyes!"

He's a sensitive guy; tears were in his eyes when he hit me… But then again his eyes had also been gleaming with pure hatred of none other then me. I don't like feeling on my own if it hurts this much, take it back; I sure as hell don't want this pain.

I crawled into my bed and tried to sleep. It was surprisingly easy to fall into a deep dreamless sleep. Well… at least I thought it was dreamless, I had accidentally picked up one of the guys dreams that I won't go into detail with.

I have more dirt on all of these guys that I go to school with then anyone could imagine. I dream there dreams, feel there emotions, sometimes I even feel whatever physical feeling they're going through. (That wasn't the best thing to have to go through when everyone was going through puberty; life was a living hell for those years. Right now I'm just thankfully girls aren't allowed in the dorms… Although Mizuki and Sano's emotions do keep me up most of the night.)

When I woke up Nakatsu was in bed. I smiled to myself, he really didn't have a choice but to comeback, I mean there was no room for him in any of the other rooms. I loved watching him sleep, I guess that was one of my few guilty pleasures.

He just always looked so peaceful and happy in his sleep. I always wanted to tap into his dreams to see just what he was so happy about but never did because if he ever found out I would never be forgiven. I do however share his bad dreams; it's easier to comfort him when you know exactly what's wrong... Not that he asks to be comforted anyways.

With all of my cold heart I was hoping that he would forget my words from yesterday. Of course I knew better then to actually believe anything I want would come true. I just don't want to loose the only real friend I've ever had because of this damned power.

I watched him sleep for what seemed like hours, I normally wake up early just so I can do this with no fear of him waking up. The longer I watch him the more I realize something is wrong.

His lips are tilted in a slight frown and his eye brows furrowed. He shifts a little in his sleep. "I love her too." I hear him mumble. Tears form in my eyes but there's no feeling behind them. I'm numb once more.

Okay well I know this first chapter is short and I apologize! I don't really know what to write so I decided to stop it here. Please tell me what you think, and if Kayashima is a bit OCC I apologize for that too. But I won't apologize for the main pairing in this story to be Nakatsu and Kayashima, yaoi parings are the best!