Part 13 – I can feel

Everybody was already packing for the trip...

Kennedy refused to go without Willow and Buffy asked Willow to stay with her, so they both had stayed.

It was a normal day for Kennedy and she was training outside while Willow was in her room.

Knock Knock

"Come in..." Willow was lying face down in the bed and typing on her laptop.

"Hey..."

"Buffy...hi." Willow sat on the bed closing her laptop.

"Hey... are you ok?" Buffy asked entering in the room and closing the door.

"Yeah... I'm fine...why?" Willow asked.

"Oh... it's just that I haven't seen you after breakfast and I thought that something might be wrong..."

"Oh... no... I'm ok..." Willow is a terrible liar.

"Really?" Buffy asked firmly.

"Oh... it's nothing... I'm sure it will pass." Willow got up and put the laptop on the table.

"Hey Will..." Willow looked at Buffy. "It's me... Buffy... what's wrong..."

"Oh.. really... it's no biggy. I should go back downstairs and..." Willow was going towards the door when she felt it again... a feeling... she stopped put her arms below her chest and closed her eyes...Buffy quickly leaped forward and caught Willow.

"Will, look at me!" Willow was gasping and searching for air. "God Will!" Buffy held Willow and lead her to the bed. "Stay here, I'll get you some water."

"No... wait... it will pass." Willow was sitting on the bed and her eyes started to open.

"Will lay down...I'll be right back don't move!" Buffy said going towards the door.

"No... don't go... please...stay with me..."

Buffy was going to call somebody to get water but she stopped and sat on the side of the bed next to Willow.

"Will... honey... what happened?" Buffy asked. Willow sat on the bed leaned on the headboard.

"I don't know...I just... keep having these feelings..." Her breathing was getting back to normal...

"Feelings? Where does it hurt?" Buffy asked worried.

"It's not pain... it's just some feelings that huts..."

"Where?"

"My heart, and I can tell that it's not a medical problem..."

"Oh… is something wrong with you and Kennedy? Cause when..."

"No... it's… it's not Kennedy..."

"Is there somebody else?" Buffy asked.

Willow looked down "Tara."

"Tara?" Oh my god, did Willow saw Tara?

Willow nodded.

Buffy sounded worried. "What about her?"

"I…she won't leave me."

"What you mean?"

"Of my mind, she won't leave my mind."

"Do you want her to leave you?"

"Don't ask me that." Buffy wouldn't force Willow, it was a delicate moment.

"What exactly do you feel?"

Willow took a deep breath.

"While I was in England I thought of her every time, every second. And the pain was overwhelming. And there was nothing I could do. Time passed and this pain eased." Buffy took Willow's hand.

"But?"

"But now... it's back.. stronger, much stronger, I can feel her, again, and it's so real. It's like she's..." Another deep breath "It's like she's alive."´

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Dawn, Xander and Buffy visited Tara that afternoon, they only stayed a short while because Tara didn't want Willow to ask where they were. Or suspect of anything.

Tara hadn't changed her mind, she still didn't want Willow to know about her, it's just that it didn't feel right, to go and destroy Willow's relationship.

The time passed slow for Tara she stayed in her room, reading, thinking, and sometimes she went outside to know San Francisco better but she went to the opposite side of Willow's hotel...she still was thinking about the only thing that she cared for, the thing that she loved the most and the only thing that made her complete, Willow.

Tara received a surprise in the afternoon. While she was in her room…

Knock knock

"Hey, Tara right?"

"Yeah... you're..." Tara said surprised.

"Faith..."

"Right... I remember you... come in." Tara said inviting her in.

"Thanks..." Faith got inside and was looking around the room.

"So... what brings you here? One of the scoobies convinced you to talk to me?" Tara said sitting in one of the chairs and giving another one to Faith.

"Chill blonde... I came because I wanted, they don't even know I'm here." Faith said sitting down.

"Really?" Tara asked curiously.

"Yeah... I mean Willow is all talking in secret with Buffy, the potentials and Giles are busy packing..."

"Willow is wh...I mean ...Packing? Where are they going?"

"England... it's a whole meeting thing...I'm going with them...don't worry Willow is going to stay."

"I..." Tara sounded thoughtful.

"You know, you guys need to learn how to lie." Faith said with a little smile.

"I'm sorry?"

" It's so obvious what you feel and yet you hide it. You know that I can't understand why."

"Hey! You don't know me."

"You're right. I don't know you, but I can tell what you feel, you're pure, there's no way you can hide it, and the red one too."

"Why? Did she said something?"

"She didn't need to, she was normal until yesterday ya know... then she's all weird today, she has barely left her room, I don't know if I'm traveling or whatever but I can tell you that she still loves you."

Tara looked with a weird face to Faith. "What?"

"Ah... it's just that from what Willow told me about you, you didn't seem the kind of person who would say something like that."

"What did she tell you about me?" Faith asked.

"Ah… never mind…"

"Come on… it can't be that bad…"

"Ah…I believe her words were "She's like this cleavage slut-bomb." or something." Tara said with a shy tone after she realized what she had called Faith.

"Yeah I never thought she liked me anyway." Faith said didn't caring much.

"Well... I didn't..." Tara said in a regret tone.

"No... hey, it's fine...I'm used to that, and you know... she was right...but I've changed...Wood and I were talking...and maybe some...anyway I'm not here to talk about myself."

"Ok... what did you want to talk about?"

"Chances"

"Chances?"

"Yes...your chance."

"Of...?"

"Shaving your head... come on T you know what I'm talking about."

"Look..."

"I know that everybody must told you already that but Buffy gave you a chance. And you shouldn't waste it. Go get her."

"It's not easy."

"Of course it's not, but everything that's easy is not worth it. That's why I like challenges, killing vamps and enjoy my life the best I can, even if it has bad consequences that I'm aware of, I like to take risks, and you should too, at least sometimes."

Tara stayed in silence for a moment "I guess you're right, but you know, I'm very different from you, there's something inside me that always told me to be the good girl, to not do anything that probably would end bad, or to take risks...talking to Willow now is going to be taking a BIG risk."

"You always will have choices, two at least, but chances... this is it, it's now or you can wait here a year and let Willow cry for you until she realizes that you're not coming back and get married with someone."

"Married?"

"It's a "metaphor" but you know what I mean...fall in love..."

"Well, what if she already is in love."

"What? hahaha you think she's in love with that girl?"

"She could be."

"She could, but she's not, at least not yet, I can tell when people are "in love" there's always this pain in the ass, all I can get from her is this look that she's ok but something is missing, and I guess that I figured out what this "thing" is."

Tara gave Faith a little smile.

"Listen, I have to go now, in a while our plane to England is going to leave...but think about what I've said cause me saying things like that it's very rare."

Tara nodded.

"Faith... thanks."

"No problem."

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Giles also visited Tara and a short time after that he took the gang to England.