Part 15 - It's just the beginning.

They were hugging again and it felt good, it felt right.

After a moment Tara broke the silence again.

"Will...maybe we should… you know… get up..." Tara said with a smile.

"Oh yeah, of course…" They got up still holding hands. "Tara, I still can't believe it's really you…." Willow said touching Tara's chin and continued after some time "Ah… it's not even morning yet and it's kind cold here… so do you wanna have coffee or something so we could talk better?" Willow said.

"Sure...I'd love too." Tara answered with a bright smile.

They went to the first coffee shop that was open; it was a comfortable place after they order they sat on the table.

Feeling the company of each other again was stunning, they had so much to ask to talk about but it seemed that all the words just disappeared. Willow took a big breath and controlled to not babble and started the conversation...

"God Tara… I just…." Willow stopped and looked at Tara, she was so peaceful and her eyes were full of love, so Willow couldn't control herself and just said "You look so beautiful…"

"Oh…" Tara got extremely shy giving Willow a smile. "Th-thanks…"

Willow realized how Tara got shy, so she took Tara's hands "Oh Tara, I'm sorry… it just came out… I'm so sorry…"

"It's ok… it's just that it's been a while… but…you…y-you look beautiful too." Tara said giving a shy smile.

Willow receiving the shy smile from Tara started to say "Thanks… ah… let's start slow… how have you been?"

"Well... I'm better now… I guess… and I've been well… dead...and... confused... you?"

"I've been...I mean… god Tara! How did you got back?" Willow couldn't control herself.

"Well didn't you bring me back?" Tara wanted to enjoy Willow's questions for a bit. She missed that.

"You have no idea how much I wanted!" Willow said. Tara smiled to that.

"So you didn't answer... how you've been?" Tara asked.

"I survived… again... and I'm controlling my magic." Should I say what I've been through? God, will she be able to forgive me after I say that I almost destroy the world and killed Warren?

"Controlling? That's good." Tara didn't know about Willow going to dark magic after her death. Nobody of the scoobies told her, they thought that it was Willow's job to do that. The only thing that they told her was that Willow got devastated after Tara's death. "Any news that I should know?" Tara asked.

"Well... so much happened after... well... I went to England...after you've... to learn more about magic and they were so nice to me. There was this demon called The first. But I want to know about you... how was it? Where were you all this time?"

"I... I don't remember much after my death, nothing clear, nothing concrete, just feelings, I knew that I was in heaven, I could sense cause the place felt right, calm and safe."

"What kind of feelings?"

"It's sounds weird but even though... I could feel you." Tara said and Willow was holding tears to not cry.

"Feel me?"

"Yeah... at first it was all confused and all the feeling kinda mixed up, but after some time it was clearing, I knew that you were ok, that you were safe so that made me calm."

Willow smiled without breaking the eye contact. And Tara continued.

"I don't know how much time passed while I was there, I know that is was a long time..."

"It passed a year here... too long... Tara... wow... when did you get back?"

"Ah... about two days ago..."

"Two days? Why didn't you tell me you were... you know alive!"

"Will… I'm sorry.. I wasn't ready to see you yet, but then you saw me and all my reasons just faded away..."

"You should have told me."

"It's not easy Will… especially now that you had moved on with your life, I was scared to confuse you. "

"What you mean? Move on?"

"Willow I know..."

"You know... what?" Willow was afraid that she was talking about the dark magic.

"Kennedy..." Tara said in a low voice.

"Oh...ah... you know her?" Willow asked worried.

"Not in person... they told me..."

"They?"

"Well... Buffy told me...she didn't planed... I think it just came out..."

"Buffy knows about you?"

"Well she was the one who brought me..."

"She brought you back?"

"Ahh… yeah... she had this wish that she could..."

"WHAT? Are you the sandals?"

"Ok... now I'm the one confused..."

"Oh… sorry it's that Buffy told me about the wish thing but she told me she was going to ask for sandals..."

"Hahahaha...and you believed it?"

"Hey! It's Buffy! Always with her crazy ideas hahaha I really didn't know that to think...and I can't believe that she brought you back... she had asked me what I would ask but I... I think even though I didn't tell her she read my mind..."

Tara smiled.

"Tara... who else knows that you're alive?"

"Well, Dawn, Xander, Giles, Faith..."

"You mean everybody..."

"Pretty much..."

"I still can't understand why didn't you meet me on the first day...and why on the earth wouldn't anybody tell me that!" Willow said not believing.

"I asked them not to...I knew that you were... involved with someone and I didn't want to confuse you... appearing like that in your life, I know how hard it was when Oz left and how confusing and hard it was for you and I don't want you going thought that again. And now I feel like I'm him... you know... the old love."

"Oh god, please don't continue with that thought, what I've felt for him and what I feel for you it's completely different."

"I know… I'm sorry..." Did she just say feel? Does she still have feelings for me?

"And you know there's a big difference between you two."

"Yeah and now it's not that big because she's a woman and so am I." Tara said.

"You don't know how different she's from you Tara, only to start she's not even a witch."

"I know that everybody it's different but...I didn't want to mess with you life... that's all."

"Mess with my life? You can only make it better."

"Even now?"

"Seeing you was just something I wasn't expecting and it took me by surprise, but it seems that all my problems, all my fears were gone when I hugged you, and it made me realized something..."

"What?"

"That my feelings for you hadn't change a bit."

Tara smiled

"Tara, you know me...better than anybody...I get confused a lot but I never ever had regret from the decision that I made that time. When you are involved… I never regret of choosing you…"

"Willow... you chose magic… over me…"

"No! No, I didn't that was a stupid thing that I did. And I leaned from that."

"Will… I know… it's just that…I missed you so much and it hurt that I could not be with you and..."

"But I missed you too and I..."

"Well but that's not all our problems is it? There's something more now, something you have... another one... Kennedy. And it's been so long."

"Yes Tara! I'm with her but it's different!"

"It's always is... I shouldn't complicate your life again, you found someone and...I... I am the past..."

"No! You're not the past."

"What you mean?"

"Tara look, there wasn't a single day that passed that I didn't think about you, I knew it wasn't right but I couldn't help it! It was everyday and these past days it got stronger, I felt you, something was telling me that you were alive! I didn't let myself to think about that because I know that I'm with somebody else, but my heart was never wrong, you are... alive and my heart already suffered enough, so I want to follow my heart I want to be with the person that my heart belongs... I want to be with you."

Willow was crying and so was Tara.

"Will... God knows how much I want to be with you too but it's not that easy..."

"It should be... we… I... ah...in the end… it all comes down to one simple question... Tara do you still love me?"

Tara looked at Willow with a chocked face, she wasn't expecting any questions like that. And finally she said with the sweetest voice. "I had never stopped."

The rest of the morning it was just they talking, Willow avoided the dark magic part, she told every demon the fought and had a pleasant breakfast.

It was already morning when they realized how long they were talking.

"God... look...It's almost seven... I should get going... " Tara said getting out of the chair...

"Oh already? Ok... I should go too...why do you have to go? Is there someone waiting for you?" Willow asked joking.

"Actually… yes…"

"What? Who?" Willow asked chocked.

"No… it's nothing like that.. it's Dawn...she's been making me company… she should wake up any minute..."

"Dawn? I thought she said she was with a… ohhhh you're the friend."

"I'm sorry?"

"Ah… she said that she was sleeping with a friend and it's you! Her friend."

"Oh… I guess...she has been with me these days... it was good to have her company again..."

"Yeah..."

"So... I better go now..." Tara said getting up the chair.

"Tara?" Willow followed her.

"Yeah?" They were already leaving the coffee shop when Willow called Tara.

"Where are you staying?"

"Oh… Giles rented a hotel for me to stay…it's near here..." Tara started to look the right side of the street...and pointed... "There… see that cream hotel?"

"Yeah..."

"It's there... its called Flamey Hotel."

"Mine is near too."

"There..." Tara pointed the other hotel, which was farther than the Flamey Hotel; but they were still able to see it.

"How did you know?" Willow asked.

"Dawn and everybody kept telling me where they were so if I need anything I could go there..."

"Oh… ok... so I guess it's on the same street...it's just a few blocks of distance...and... can I walk you to your hotel?" Willow asked with a smile.

"Of course..." Tara answered with a smile on her face.