My Secret Journal

4th August

Today my parents told me that my (Older) Brother has got a problem. Duh! He was born! NO. He's a werewolf. Like, how dumb do they think I am? I worked that out AGES ago. He's always weirder than normal around full moon. Anyway, TUTHILL TORNADOES RULE! We won! We won! We are now like top of the league. I wish I knew some more witches my age. Starting Hogwarts in September. Bet Mom and Dad expect me to be top of the class. HONESTLY! Just because Moons is. Oh, that's what I'm calling him now. Kind of suits him. Also annoys him! Hee Hee. WHAT!

Oh. My darling brother just told me that his friends at school call him Moony. Great! Bet they're the famous Sirius Black and James Potter. Like my brother could be friends with them! OW! Remus STOP hitting me and give me back my journal.

Actually, ELECTRA, my best friends are Sirius Black and James Potter so there!

Get out of my room, MOONEY! ELECTRA! STOP CALLING ME MOONEY! Stop calling me Electra. But it's your name! Duh! I hate it! Ellie or Elsya is WAY better! Girls! You pancake! You call your best mate Padfoot. How do you know that? Umm… ELLIE! I read your letters? And some of the notes that everyone scribbles on. MOM! MOM! I didn't hit you. Yes you did. No I didn't. Whatever. Oh yeah I meant to ask you. Who's Tonks? Is she your girlfriend? NO! Mooney's blushing. He's gone off in a huff. Good night.

4th September

Nobody talked to me on the express. Ok Mooney tried but I ignored him. Well Duh! His friend were beghind him sniggering. Ok. Hat time.

'Hmm. So you're Remus' Sister Are you? Well what about Griffindor?'

No. Thank you.

'Ravenclaw's No Good. Well, You'd Better Be SLYTHERIN '

The look on Mooney's face. He was completely shocked. You could see him thinking, 'There wasn't a witch or wizard who went in to Slytherin and came out good.' But I mean I'm not going to go bad. I'm me.

Everyone went quiet but then the clapping started. Mooney and his mates walked out of the Great Hall. Idiots!

Quite a few Slytherins congratulated me on breaking free from Mooney. Whoa! He must have got well up their noses. I don't think I made any friends though.

Later

Our common room is really cool even though it's by the dungeons. Before I got here, Mooney and his mates cornered me.

"How could you do that?" I'd never seen Mooney so angry. I looked at hi m and said, "What? As far as I can remember, you were the ones who walked out. I did as I was told." I pushed past him but one of his friends grabbed my arm. "I'd be careful how you act, ELECTRA. We'd hate to have to treat you like Slytherin." As I walked off all I could hear was the ratty one's laugh.

5th September

Moons is ignoring me! I scowled at him. First, I've got Care of Magical Creatures. Most of the Slytherin's are really arrogant. It's kind of hard to fit in. I haven't actually got a proper friend yet. This 5th year and 6th year keep stopping people from other houses from talking to me. Servus Snape and Lucius Malfoy they're called. In COMC we did theory. BORING! I want to see the creatures.

Potions next. I had to sit next to a Ravenclaw. Her name's Syma. Her name was on her book. She hadn't put her last name. Half way through the lesson I said, "Don't even think about it!" Her hand was hovering over my head, filled with dung bombs. Professor Slughorn sighed and muttered something about her following in her brother's footsteps. I wonder who her brother is.

Next it was Charms. That was theory as well so I'm not going to talk about it.

At lunch I was feeling really bad about falling out with Mooney. I went looking for him and he was outside, under a tree, by the lake. He was with one of his friends. It was either James or Sirius. I don't really care so I didn't ask. His friend was looking over at some of the girls and showing off playing with a snitch. I went up to Mooney and started saying sorry to him when I notice that his friend was laughing at me. I looked at him. "Honestly," he said, "You get put in Slytherin, you act completely rude towards your brother and you expect him to forgive you." I stared at him coolly, "Yes actually I do. And I don't remember being the little sister of James Potter or Sirius Black."

The friend was shocked. I think he expected me to be scared. Yeah, right! He stood up. He's taller than me. "For your information the person you are addressing is James Potter." That means Sirius grabbed my arm last night.

"And that bothers me because?"

James stalked away then. That was when I went back to being me. A quivering pile of jelly.

"Moons. I'm really sorry, but it's not my fault that the hat put me in Slytherin. It could have put me in Hufflepuff. Sorry that I was just really mean to James but he really got up my nose."

Moons stood up and pulled me into a hug. EWWW! I wriggled out of it as soon as I decently could.

"It's OK, little sister. It's not your fault you were put in Slytherin and James can be really annoying. Oh, and Sirius little sister is called Syma."

I backed away from him then. I stared at him in disbelief. The one person who I had thought of as a potential friend was Sirius Black's little sister.

I ran to the great hall and got some lunch when guess who should come up to me? Syma Black. "Hi!" she said. I carried on eating and said to her, "Go away. You're Sirius Black's little sister." Without my mouth full obviously. She ran off then, after she'd tried to throw pudding at me. She missed. It hit the boy next to me. Honestly, Ravenclaw's. So emotional.

I had the last two lessons off because it was a welcome assembly. SO BORING!

5th November

Sorry I haven't written. Nothing really happened. I still haven't got a friend. I have got a detention instead. I kind of cursed Sirius accidentally on purpose with a full body bind. Mcgonagall gave me detention. Tonight. Seven o, clock. Great. So Mooney's really mad at me. Loads of Slytherin are really mad at me because they fancy Sirius. I only cursed him 'cos he saying stuff about Slytherin. Oh yeah and he's not that cute.

I went to Mcgonagall at the end of the lesson and she told me that I had detention with Syma Black. Which is just perfect as Sirius is her older brother. I asked why Syma had got detention and she'd dropped gibberish potion over Snape. A Slytherin. How could she do that? I've got to go to detention now. It's in Alcre's room. He's the janitor.

Later

I had to clear out Mooney's 'bad' drawer. I was there first. Syma Black hadn't turned up yet. Ok so she turned up. She started saying stuff about how proud she was of her brother. She had to clean out his drawer. I said, "Oh yeah? And what about this?" I picked up one of the photos, which showed him basically bullying Snape. He'd used Levicorpus. She went quiet then. She started to go out of the classroom. "What are you doing?" I asked. "I'm going to find my brother and ask him about this." In her hand she held the photo. I hadn't have known it was her, I'd have sworn she was trying not to cry.

She ran into the Great Hall. I waited outside. She yelled at her brother and I winced. It's not nice to fall out with your brother. I should know. She ran out, breathing heavily. I looked at her. "Are you ok?" I asked, "I mean obviously you're not and I know what its like to fall out with a brother but…""He's not my brother. He's a traitor. I should have listened to mom. (pause/ silence) but thanks anyway." "What did you say to him?" "Didn't you hear?" "Well, I didn't go in because Sirius isn't going to want to see me at this point on time so… no." "Oh… You don't want to know."

That was Sirius and James came out.

"Look, I know it was wrong but we've done stuff like that before. It's no big deal."

"Yes it is." me and Syma snapped.

James started, "…" "SHUT UP JAMIE!"

"I was only trying to…" "SHUT UP J-POTTER!" is what came out. Sirius and me had said the same thing at the same time only I said potter not Jamie. A historic moment. Sirius and me agreeing on something.

Then me and Syma walked off together. YES! I HAVE FINALLY MADE A FRIEND!

At about 11 o, clock someone set off load of Dr Filibusters Fireworks. Probably Syma because its bonfire night.

UKTSAE (Unknown To Syma And Ellie.)

Griffindor common room

Sirius was looking out the window of the window and Remus was reading a really thick book. James and Peter had already disappeared upstairs.

"Mooney."

"Yeah?"

"What would you say if I said really liked your sister.?"

Lupin really listened then. "1. Oookkk. 2. Why? and 3 boy, have you got a problem."

"Why? I don't know. Why have I got a problem?"

"Well, I'm still not talking to her 'cos the body bind thing and 2 she hates your guts."

"Ah."

"Exactly."

6th November

If Syma's ex-brother ever finds this out I'm dead. I told someone that he has a pink teddy bear for a joke and now it's all round Slytherin. I really hope the Blacks NEVER read this journal.

Mooney forgave me about the body bind incident. That is really weird. I expected him to at least be mad at me for at least 48 hours! I wonder why he forgave me? It couldn't have anything to do with Sirius or James could it? Nah! They still hate me, which is good because I still hate them.

Next e.g. fourth lesson was DATDA.

We were doing theory. BORING!

"UMMMMM…" said Syma. "What's the matter?" I said. "Well, you see, mybrotherkindsoffanciesyou." I didn't quite catch what she said. I thought she said that her brother likes me but that can't be right. "What?" I said. Syma groaned. "There are 2 ways I could do this. I could either shout it out so loud the whole class hear or I could write it down. "I think you should write it down." I said. So she did.

My brother fancies you, she wrote. I stared at her in disbelief. "You are joking." I said. She shook her head, "No. No jokes." "Well he's got a problem then." I looked at her. "I hate him." "Um, so do I but that's not the point." "Yes it is." I said a bit louder than I meant.

The teacher, Professor Nightshade, stopped what he was doing and turned around. "Lupin. Detention, 7 o, clock my office."

Seven o, clock, detention

I turned up at his office. Someone else was already there for detention. Guess who? Sirius Black.

"Hi." he said. I ignored him. "Black. You are here for a detention NOT to make new friends." said Professor Nightshade. Sirius gave Nightshade his 'I'm going to make life difficult for you face' behind his back. "Actually, I'm not a new friend, I'm an old enemy." I said. "Well that could make things interesting, couldn't it?" Nightshade said curtly.

Sirius stuck his tongue out at me behind Nightshade's back. "Aren't you a bit too old for that?" I said, as we entered the classroom. Nightshade set us to do lines when a dung bomb went off. Nightshade went to sort it out. Black flicked a piece of paper at me. I ignored him. Then he flicked a pencil at me. I whirled round in my seat. "WILL YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, BLACK?" I yelled. "Whoa!" He said, calmly, "Calm down." "I would if you weren't here." "Come on. Surely you can think of something better to say than that." "Black! Just leave me alone!" He chucked his pencil case at me. I caught it and threw it back at him. I am glad to say it hit him.

"Hey!" he said. Again, I ignored him. My rule now is to retaliate silently. He grabbed my lines. I kicked him. He threw them in the fire. I bit him. He morphed into a dog. That was supposed to scare me? Then he bit me. He didn't break the skin. Ok, now I have his teeth marks on my hand. I levitated him and told him, very politely, if he didn't morph back I would throw him out the window. Ok, bang goes my rule! He gave me puppy dog eyes (in dog form). I opened the window. He morphed back. He fell on the floor. "Thank-you," I said. VERY SARCASTICALLY. I sat down and started my lines. ALL OVER AGAIN! He closed the window. And locked it. I carried on with my lines. He kissed me! I slapped him. " What makes you think I'd like an opionated, bossy, mean bully?" The bell went and I stalked out.

7th November

I couldn't face Syma today.

8th November

I told Syma what happened in detention. She was so totally freaked out. I kind of managed to avoid HIM today. She asked me what I was going to do. "Carry on as normal, I guess." I shrugged. She was really shocked. That was when HE walked in. N.B. Syma + Sirius had made up by now but he still hadn't said sorry to Snape. HE went red and walked out of the room. I just ignored HIM. Hey, its what I normally do. Then Moons walked in. He said hi and also walked out. That was weird. You don't think… no he couldn't have…could he? Syma asked me, "Is this anything to do with you?" "Hey! I didn't do anything." "What? Apart from got kissed by my big brother,." "That was NOT my fault!"

Then James walked in. " Ok and You blew it." I raised my eyebrows at him. Oh, I get it. They were all listening. Haven't they heard of privacy? James walked out. We followed. Syma opened the door. The door gave a doglike yelp. "Sirius." I stated. The door said "Um". "Very good use of vocabulary." I commented. The door said "um". James then said, "we were doing homework?" "Idiots," I said. "Hey!" said Moons. "Hey!" yelled James. The door said "um". I turned to Syma. "What did I say?" "Something about us being idiots?" James offered hopefully. "And we were talking to you?" me and Syma said at the same time. Syma added jinx. "Don't try to be smart James. It doesn't suit you." I said. Sirius slammed the door. It hit Syma, her being in the way and all.

"Well, if you will talk about us you've Got to expect us to eavesdrop." he said.

"Well maybe if you want people to like you, you shouldn't." I said acidly. Sirius shrugged.

Lunch

That was when the howlers came. I must admit I DID NOT feel sorry for HIM. It was his fault in the first place.

WE ARE SHOCKED AT YOUR BEHAVIOUR, ELECTRA LUPIN! YOU SHOULD CONCENTRATE ON YOUR SCHOOL WORK NOT BOYS! PROFESSOR NIGHTSHADE TOLD US WHAT HAPPENED! Yours sincerely mom and dad.

I immediately went red while the WHOLE of Slytherin laughed at me. I mean, it wasn't even my fault.

Then Sirius got a howler. I must be going telepathic. I knew what it was going to shout about.

SIRIUS BLACK! HOW DARE YOU BRING MORE SHAME INTO OUR FAMILY! YOU KISSED A MUDBLOOD! ELECTRA LUPIN, HOW DARE YOU! YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO EVEN KISS HIS FEET, BLOOD TRAITOR THOUGH HE IS! IF YOU EVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS AGAIN I WILL PERSONALLY CURSE YOU WITH A LONG-LASTING CURSE!

I thought my howler was bad enough! There was complete silence before the entire school erupted. I got slapped in the face a couple of times as well, by girls who really liked HIM. I tried to tell them that they could have him, but they weren't listening. Apparently, He HADN'T told his friends because Mooney and James looked absolutely shocked. I am EXTREMELY glad the teachers weren't there. Loads of girls from every house (especially Slytherin) were yelling at me. Most boys were laughing at me. I wanted to die. About 5-1o minutes later, someone tapped my arm. I whirled round. One of the Marauders had fought their way over to me. Guess which one?

"I'm sorry. My parents are evil. I expected more than…" That was when HE was cut off. His face contorted and then he was gone.

9th November

(written from Sirius' mother's point of view.)

That brat of mine went and APOLOGIZED to the mudblood.

"SIRIUS BLACK!" I screeched. He should have got here by now. Oh, yes. Here he is

2 hours later

Why couldn't' I just have had Regulas? Sirius is so… I'll let you fill in the blank. I think he wants to die at the moment. GOOD! It will serve him right.

9th November

Oh, man! It's Sirius' birthday and he's not here. I can't help worrying about him. Whoa! Back up just 1 minute. Did I say I was worried about the idiot? Ok, I suppose I did. So what does that mean? That I like him? No. I hate him… kind of… possibly not… ok, ok. I admit it. Yes, I like Sirius Black. But as a friend! Not as a … I can't even say the word. 'Gulps' boyfriend.