Chapter 12

She found herself at Will's apartment door. She let herself in and found Grace sprawled out on the couch, staring seductively at her. She found herself going to Grace, bending over, and capturing her lips in her own. Grace's arms wrapped around Karen, pulling her closer to herself.

Karen glanced down and found that she was completely naked, and so was Grace. Grace stood up and offered her hand to Karen, who took it and followed her in to the bedroom.

Except it wasn't the bedroom. It was an emergency room and Karen found herself lying on a table. The doctor stood over her, holding a big clot of blood. She cried out, completely distressed.

Damn pregnancy dreams. And why with Grace? And why a clot of blood?

That scared her more than anything. She felt her heart pounding, sweat forming everywhere, she felt like she was suffocating. Quickly she kicked the sheets off her body, and an instant cooling effect occurred. She still felt strange. She felt like she had miscarried again.

Karen placed her hand on her stomach, reminding herself that she had not had so much as one problem since she had found out she was pregnant. She had not been sick like she had the first time, only a little bout of morning sickness now and then. She hoped Nathan didn't notice. She at least wanted to wait until after the one month mark which had been the point where she had lost the first baby. Well it really wasn't a baby. It had been a tiny little egg.

She had to get back to sleep. She was so tired, and she knew she needed her rest. So she turned and snuggled against Nathan's back, sleep enveloping her once again.

Karen found herself at the office. She was sitting at her desk, flipping through a blank magazine. When she happened to glance up, she saw Grace, who was standing in the nude, a bright light cast around her. She was making large, sexual motions. Karen felt herself drawn to Grace.

She got up, made her way to Grace, wrapped and arm around her and leaned in for a kiss, except it wasn't Grace. What her lips collided with caused her to scream. The lifeless baby doll fell to the ground…

Karen bolted upright in her bed, the warm sheets sliding off her body. She looked around, gaining her bearings, reminding herself it was just a dream. But it did little to calm the racing of her heart beat. She wiped a hand over her sweating forehead.

These dreams had to stop. She was having nightmares about babies. It was freaking her out.

Not to mention Grace, who had been in her dreams for quite some time now. They had never had sex, but they had been close to several times. It was only a kiss, or a leading to a bedroom by one or the other.

And how was she going to face Grace at work the next day? She'd dreamed about her being naked while at work.

What did all these dreams mean?

Karen shook her head, rolling closer to her husband. After a few moments she was once again fast asleep.

Karen found herself looking down at Grace. A smile of pure ecstasy was apparent on her beautiful face. Karen could feel her hips grinding in to Grace's. They were actually doing it. They were having sex. Karen glanced down and saw Grace's boobs or an image of boobs her mind had conjured. She could feel Grace's hands on her own breasts, causing her to cry out in ecstasy.

Just as both were on their edge, the dream flicked to a hospital. Karen found herself looking up at a white ceiling. Grace entered and stood, hovering over Karen. She had a surgeon's mask on, but Karen could still tell it was her.

She could sense that Grace was telling her something, but she couldn't hear. The image gradually began to fade.

The image faded from Karen's mind and she frowned. What did all these dreams mean? It was strange that they had gradually progressed, night after night, in to her and Grace finally doing it. She wondered what it meant. She was oddly turned on by Grace in her dreams and then found herself turned on when she saw her during the day, at work.

She really needed to talk to someone about this. It was beginning to weigh on her, and she felt like she was hiding a secret from the world. Well she was, as she had not told anyone, bar Will, about her pregnancy. She was aching to tell her husband, but it was not quite the one month mark and she wasn't ready. But she might just be able to talk to him about the Grace part of her dreams.

"You need to have sex with Grace."

"What!" Karen cried, completely surprised by her husband's reaction to what she had just confided to him.

"Well you obviously have strong feelings for her that you need to work out somehow, so why not sleep with her?" Nathan shrugged. This response to her incessant sex dreams was blowing her mind.

"Because you're my husband!" Karen stamped her foot. "And what do you take me for? Someone who would use her best friend to play out some erotic fantasy and then go about my own business, not caring how it affected her!" Karen was hysterical.

"Honey, sweetheart," He took her in his arms and held on to her, her rage, anger dissolving at his touch. "I love you very much, but I can see how much this is affecting you. I don't want you to be unfaithful, but if we're going to be together for the rest of our lives, don't you just want to have that lasting fantasy played out so that you can move on?"

"What about Grace?" Karen whispered, concerned about her friend.

"She'll enjoy it and then move on. Doesn't she have a boyfriend, or something?" Nathan queried, knowing Karen had said something about a boyfriend.

"Yes." Karen nodded. There was a long silence where both contemplated what was about to happen. "How will I go about doing this?"

"Well, I have a business trip coming up, which I've been dragging my feet to tell you about it. It would be the perfect opportunity to bring Grace back here and play."

"Oh, I don't think I could do that, honey." Karen frowned. "In our bed?"

"It doesn't have to be in our bed."

Karen nodded, seeming to be lost in her own thoughts. Her husband was giving her his consent to sleep with one of her best friends. This wasn't happening. It had to be another strange dream.

But Nathan had been serious, and Grace was more than happy to come to the penthouse for a "girl's night". Karen was nervous. She had never been more nervous in her life. Grace didn't seem to sense her uneasiness when she opened the door to let her friend in. Images of Grace naked flashed through her mind as she stared at Grace from behind.

"Well, honey, Cook made some dinner. We could start with that." Karen swallowed, hoping she was acting as normal as possible.

As they sat eating dinner, Karen's eyes kept wondering to Grace's face. She was so innocent, she had no idea what was going through Karen's mind. Not even Karen knew what was going through Karen's mind. It was racing with questions, concerns, doubts, fears, and Nathan.

They went to sit up on Karen's bed, they wrapped up together, getting close. Karen should have made her move. She could picture it happening. She would lightly graze over Grace's breasts, reaching for the remote, or something on the bedside table. Then she would happen to glance down and find that their faces were right next to each other, their lips right next to each others. She would lean in and kiss Grace. Once Grace complied she would sit up and slowly begin to rock her hips back and fourth, gently pushing Grace's shirt up so she could see those dreamed about boobs. She would touch them, fondle them, place her mouth over them and pleasure Grace.

But instead Karen stayed lying where she was, feeling Grace's body burning beside her own. She was hot from that mental image which had just crossed her mind, but to actually do that seemed out of the picture. She couldn't have sex with Grace. She just couldn't do that to her, no matter how much she might have wanted to in the past. Her sex drive towards Grace seemed to stop suddenly, and she felt as if she were at peace with just laying beside her, like two friends did.

The dreams were merely images her mind had created to taunt her and remind her of what she could have had if Nathan had never walked in to the picture. However Nathan was what stopped her. Thoughts of him, so innocent and forgiving, she just lost all want to sleep with Grace.

"I couldn't do it." Karen cried gleefully in Nathan's ear. She had run right up to him the minute he walked in the door and had thrown herself into his arms.

"Really?" He seemed ecstatic. "You passed up your chance to sleep with Grace?" They kissed blissfully and then Nathan returned Karen to the ground.

"I couldn't stop thinking about you." Karen looked down, scoffing her feet on the ground like an innocent school girl. A smile spread on her face. "Nathan, you're what stopped me. I don't want to have sex with anyone but you!" Karen grinned and wrapped her arms around Nathan, the two kissing like two newfound lovers kissed. "There's something else." Karen backed away, looking down once again, smoothing out her pants, messing with her shirt the way she did when she was trying to get out of the spotlight, when she didn't want the attention being given to her.

"What is it?" Nathan asked, concern spreading on his face.

"Well, I was going to wait and tell you, but I realized I need you with me. I need you to help me through the night." She placed a finger to her lips, and then removed it. She had Nathan's interest piqued. "Those sex dreams with Grace, well they always seemed to end with me having a baby, or loosing a baby." Nathan nodded, not sure what this meant. "And, well…we're pregnant again."

"What! That's great!" Nathan raced to her, placing his arms around her and pulling her in to a tight embrace.

"No." Karen didn't seem excited about this. "Not great. What if I miscarry again?"

"Karen, you can't think like that. I did some research about miscarrying. It's hard when you get pregnant again, but the likeliness of you miscarrying is slim to none. We're going to do this, Kare. I'll be with you every step of the way. Okay?" Nathan reassured her.

"Okay." Karen nodded.

"Have you told anybody else?" He asked.

"Well," Once again she glanced down. She hated confessing things. "I kind of took Will with me to the OB…GYN…" She smiled and shrugged.

"Why didn't you take me?" Nathan looked sort of hurt.

"Well, honey," Karen squinted, "because I thought if I miscarried again there was no point in telling you. It makes it real when you know." She frowned at her own logic.

Nathan just nodded. "I see." He went to her and took her in his arms, smelling her shampoo scented hair. He'd missed her while he was away. "Why don't we take this upstairs?" He suggested.

Karen nodded and hand in hand they walked up the staircase to Karen's room, ready for sex. It was loving, passionate. Nathan spent all his sexual energy on pleasing Karen, reassuring her everything would be fine. He had a good feeling about this child.

TBC...thanks for the reviews guys. I expect more this time. What happened to all4christ? I miss you. If you're reading this and haven't reviewed...I think you should. Unless I've somehow blocked anno. reviews. I hope I haven't, and if I have someone tell me. ANYWHO...review! And I'll try and get the next chapter out to ya.