Author's Note: This is really just a short drabble with nothing really behind it. It doesn't fit perfectly into the Canidate world, nor really any other. I suppose this is like my favorite Japanese candy: Like a stick of gum, but not.
It wasn't my first time strapping down like this. But each time, I feel like its ten years ago. I can still remember the taste of anxiety on my tongue. The breathlessness that came with stepping up. Every painful second it took for the wires to connect.
The first time...
He was shaking. His rival turned to him, gave him this look, the look, and said, "You scared?" Before he even thought about it, he shook his head. "Scared? You must be joking. I'm so excited I can't stand it."
In the end, the talk meant nothing. When he stepped inside the darkness of it. It swallowed him up. His confidence was gone; Pride meant nothing. His body settled into the back of the dark void, the light of the outside seemed so far. It got smaller as the door shut. His mouth opened to scream. He wanted to scream so much. Then the light was gone and he seemed so alone.
Pain, panic, nausia followed the loneliness. Wires and metal-like restraints. The wires connected to ever nerve, every part of his body. The restraints held him still, kept him from thrashing and even from talking somehow.
When the pain stopped, there was silence. Silence, silence silence... tunka... silence... tunka...
What was that? A heartbeat... not mine. Who's heartbeat?
Another being... I was connected to it.
I'm connected to it. I'm connected to it right now! Its breathing with me. When I move, it moves.Ishake and this being shakes with me.
Would you cry, if I cried?
Ihave fallenin love with it. It became my life, my obsession, my one true calling.
I'm notafraid of dying anymore. I am not alone.
So now I'm dying, I'm dyinginside this angel. The pain of death doesn't seem painful at all, but I'm crying. It cries with me. And as the darkness came around me again, we cried together.
As one heartbeat and one being.