Some requested more entries. Although I don't think I like this one as much as the first. Here's another 1:30am job. You'd think I'd have better things to do at this hour. Like sleep. lol Been listening to My Immortal this time. Does anyone know what Evanescence is talking about in her songs? I'm not that good with lyrics, but My Immortal reminds me of Joe and Iola. It's raining outside and I'm feeling slightly gloomy. Hope the below is to your satisfaction. If there are parts that just don't sound right to you please let me know and I'll try to fix them. Thank you for all your wonderful reviews!
Me - Iola died in the beginning of the first Hardy Boys Casefiles book, Dead on Target. Really recommend this book if you haven't read it.
Dearest Iola,
It seems like forever since I saw you last.
But then it seems like only yesterday.
So much has happened.
But nothing's happened.
I feel trapped.
Like I'm in a dream.
How many times have I imagined that you would walk
though my front door.
Imagined that we'd hug and kiss.
We'd grow up and marry.
Have kids.
Spend the rest of our lives together.
Isn't that what we had wanted?
We had it all planned out.
Now it seems as though it'll never happen.
As much as it pains me to say it, I've lost hope,
Iola!
I can't keep living on like this!
I've become weary in my search for you.
But still I want to believe that you're alive!
Although everything denies it.
Oh, Iola, I feel so mixed up inside.
Part of me wants to scream you're alive!
That you're not gone!
To deny all the evidence.
The other says that it's impossible.
You're dead.
Gone in the bomb meant for me.
How I wish that it was me!
The guilt I feel is overwhelming at times.
I love you.
I don't want you to ever think that I don't.
But I have to give up.
I hate saying that!
It feels like I've betrayed you.
I haven't.
But I can't keep living like this.
You wouldn't want me to, would you?
That's what Frank says all the time.
I could never stop loving you.
You have a part of my heart.
You took it with you.
And now it looks like I'll never get it back.
But I don't want it back.
It belongs to you.
Forever.
I won't stop writing to you.
It's one thing I hold onto.
One thing that will always remind me of you.
It makes me feel closer to you.
You were always writing in journals.
This journal of letters is for you.
Even if you'll never read them.
I will love you always,
Joe Hardy oxo
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my
childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just
leave
'Cause your presence still
lingers here
And it won't leave me
alone
These wounds won't seem to
heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much that
time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wiped
away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd
fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand
through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life
you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to
heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much that
time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wiped
away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd
fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand
through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell
myself that you're gone
But though you're still
with me
I've been alone all along
These wounds won't seem to
heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much that
time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wiped
away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd
fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand
through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Written by Ben Moody/Amy Lee/D. Hodges Zombies Ate My Publishing, Forthefallen Publishing and Dwight Frye Music, Inc.