Okay! Here we are! My first actual Elricest! And... it's rated M... -cringes- A grade 8 shouldn't write M rated stuff should she... But it's just for safety, no limes or lemons for me! Hm... okay... I just realized I never gave any japanese translations for my vocabulary. So...

Arigato: Thank You

Nii-san: If you don't know what this is... you're obviously not an FMA fan... informal for big brother

Baka: Stupid, Idiot

(insert name)no baka: Stupid (name)or (name) you idiot

Owari: End

Disclaimer: FMA doesn't belong to me... if it did I'd be rich and not broke right now... -sweatdrop- I have 25 dollars...

Warning: Movie spoilers and Elricest, Yaoi, Shonen-Ai, Incest, BL, whatever you want to call it.

In Ed's P.O.V.

Only Ever You

By: KatYoukai

I see your smile, your lush sweet lips that I long to capture with my own, spread in a smile I know is reserved for me alone. These feelings I harbour deep within my heart can only be described as wrong. I can't take much more of this. Each time you speak in that innocent way of yours, I want to press my lips to yours. Each time I see tears in those beautiful grey-hazel eyes of yours, I want to kiss your tears and sorrows away. Each time you tell me how much you love me, I want to take you right then and there. But the love you feel for me and the way I love you are different. To you I always have been and only ever will be your older brother. That's what I tell myself everyday. If this keeps up, I will surely break.

So I try to distance myself from you as best I can but it seems to do no good. I've hidden these unholy emotions behind a mask of brotherly protectiveness. but it all seems futile. When I think that you gave up everything in our own world just to be here with me, it fills me with wanton desire that only proves more that I do not deserve your affection. I don't know how much longer I can restrain my want and need for you. I don't ever want to hurt you... but fate seems to have a sick sense of humor.

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" Nii-san," Your voice sends pleasant shivers running up my spine, one's I try my best to hide," Can I talk to you?"

I take a moment to gather myself before I reply smoothly," Sure."

You enter my room and close the door behind you. Immediately, sick, dirty images enter my mind about what could happen in I lose control of these feelings of mine. I swallow to wet my suddenly dry throat and ask you,

" What's wrong?"

" It's just that," I try my best to focus on your words but my thoughts wander onto other things," I feel like you've been avoiding me lately Nii-san... did I do something wrong?"

The pain in your eyes just about kills me. I want to tell you that you didn't do anything wrong, that it is I who is wrong. These sick desires I try to hide from you... that it what is wrong.

Instead, I try to sound cheerful and reply," Of course not, Aru."

From the look on your face, I know I failed. You frown at me.

" What're you hiding from me Nii-san? Whether you're angry with me or hate me... I want to know!" Your words stab into my heart like daggers.

The guilt I feel and your closeness overrides the barriers I had erected around my desires and longings. My want and need for you, my brother...

I get off the bed and take a step closer to you. Then another. And another. My mind screams this is wrong, that I'll regret it the rest of my life but my body just won't seem to listen. Your eyes visibly widen and I try to stop but I can't. I can't hold back anymore, I'll die if I do. I have to tell you now no matter what the consequences.

" Never," I whisper harshly, by now I have you against the door, my arms on either side of your head," Never could I hate you... not you, Aru. Never you."

" Ni-Nii-san...?" Had I heard fear in your voice, any slight trace at all, I would've stopped.

But I didn't. So instead, I pressed my lips to yours. It was everything I'd always dreamed it'd be like and even more. Passion, sweetness, tenderness... all meshed into one indescribable emotion. I'm almost afraid to break away, afraid to see your reaction, afraid of the consequences of what I'd just done. But I do anyways.

The first thing I see are your tears; glistening teardrops that echo eternities of pain. I want to apologize but I don't. Why apologize for something you've done deliberately on will?

Instead, I cup your cheek in my hand and say," I can't help but love you. I know it's wrong and I know you can't ever return my feelings… but my feelings won't change. Don't cry, please, I hate to see you cry. You can act like this never happened, hate me even, but I can't go on living like this."

Your tears don't stop and my heart sinks. To my shock, you squeeze your eyes shut and hold me tight.

" Nii-san no baka! I'm not crying out of sorrow, I'm crying because I love you too!"

Then, for a moment there is nothing, nothing but your soft sobs and the warmth of your arms around me. Finally, I smile weakly and wrap my arms around you in turn.

It's always been you Al. Always has been, always will be, and only ever will be you.

-- Owari

Hurray! My old writing style surfaces! Yippeee! Heh anyways…. Hope you liked : )

Oh yea and just as an afterthought, I know a lot of people just read and don't bother review, it's not that hard! Just press that button down there! If you like the story just let me know you're reading. I lose motivation to write really quickly so… I need reviews to keep me going… I know it's pathetic….