Okay this was random, it's just I was watching the Bluebird's Illusion opening, just finished reading the Pride Ending for BBI and saw an AMV for Hughe's death… so I got pretty depressed and stuff, all revolving around FMA… so yeaaaaa…. This is the outcome of my fanatic sorrow . In Ed's P.O.V. I don't think this really reflects the same kind of sadness I'm feeling but, I don't really want to write a BBI fanfic so yea.

Warning: Spoilers for end of series and movie

The One I Hold Most Precious

By: KatYoukai

You once asked me who I held most precious to me. You asked me who I loved most in the entire world… no, in all of existence. I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure.

I wasn't sure what the definition of love really was. Not back then anyways. Because the reality I know now is far beyond the comprehension of a child's mind.

You asked me again sometime when we were searching for the Philosopher's Stone. I probably knew then the answer but at that time I couldn't say. No I was afraid to. There was no way I didn't know what loving someone was then. No, it was because I knew that following love would always be pain. Yes, pain, grief, sorrow, and a whole hell lot of hurt.

First with Kaa-san then with Nina... Your question was innocent enough but couldn't you see it then when I looked at you like that Al? I was so afraid… so afraid that if I told you, admitting it to myself as well, then I'd lose that person too. So afraid…

What is the definition of love anyways? Is it caring enough for someone to give up anything for them, to care more about them than life itself? Can something like love even be defined by words?

And who in the world is the most precious to you then my dear brother? Who would you give up everything for? As soon as I ask myself this question, I already know the answer. Who have you given up everything for? Who would you forgive no matter what he did?

Al… you would've given up your life to bring me back. I should've died back then when Envy killed me. But you gave yourself up to save me. Back when we tried to resurrect Kaa-san… you and I both know the fact that you lost your body and I lost my leg was my fault. That it wouldn't have happened if not for me. Still, you tried to persuade me it wasn't my fault, you even blamed yourself. You forgave me when I knew I didn't deserve it. And not that long ago, you gave up everything we had back in our own world to be here. You chose to be here with me over everyone else… Winry, Pinako, Colonel Mustang, Lieutenant Hawkeye, Izumi-sensei, Rose… everyone. You gave up our home, our world… was it all for me?

Do I really deserve it? Do I deserve your love? I know I gave my arm to tie your soul to the armor but it seems as if it was more for me then you. I hated to be alone and I didn't want to lose you. Was binding your soul to that lifeless metal really that good and idea? God knows how painful it must've been for you.

But Al, I would give everything for you. When I found out that you had brought me back after death using yourself, the philosopher's stone, I was fully prepared to give up my life, my soul, and everything else I still had to bring you back.

When I woke up on the other side of the gate, alive, I had no idea whether the alchemy had worked and you were alive and in your own body. I hadn't planned on surviving after all.

When I finally saw you again, after all those years of torment and wondering if you were actually alive and well… I could've exploded from sheer joy. The mere fact that you can bring so much emotion to me with just the slightest actions and words… I knew then who was the most precious to me.

Who would I give up everything for? Who would I lose the will to live without? Who would I miss so much that I'd want to die if we were ever separated? That person would be the most precious one to me.

And that person, Alphonse, is you.

Okay that was really random, my sadness was starting to wear off in the end so… yea… it became a bit more fluffy and stuff… note that Ed says Colonel Mustang because well, he doesn't know Roy got demoted right?

Anyways… this obsession with Bluebird's Illusion is leading up to a Pride fanfic for BBI I'm certain… this is if you're interested anyways.

I can't reply to reviewers anymore so… T-T If the review is particularly interesting and I have something special to say I'll send a pm okay?

Oh yea one last thing: the story is pending name change to Elric no Kyoudai so if you can't find it one day under this title try searching under that.