Seyia's POV

As I was heading for the movie theater, in hopes to find Serena, someone ran into me causing me to crash to the ground. As I got up, I was about to give a piece of mind to whoever ran into me like that. I was shocked to see who it was. She like wise looked up at me with shockness.

At the same time we said each other's name "Seyia/Serena?" Her voice was low as she looked up at me and my voice held concern for her. I could feel my insides turning. I finally found her! But now suddenly I felt tounge-tied. Before I could get my brain in working order, I noticed something. Serena was crying and what's more, at this time when the sun had already set and it was somewhat dark out, she was all alone. Suddenly what I want to talk to her about at that moment didn't seem important. I wanted to know why she was alone and crying. I reached out my hand to help her up. She graped it and I pulled her up. For a moment, we just stood their staring at each other. I was a tourture just be like this with her. Since I first met her, I was in love with her. But her heart belonged to someone else. Darien. So the only thing that was offered to me was her friendship and that is something that I adored right down to this day. But the one thing that was not easy was trying to surpress my feelings for her. I could never deny my feelings for her or just forget about it. The funny thing is that she is my best friend and of course I tell her everything…even things I wouldn't tell my brothers. But to tell her how I feel and risk losing my friendship with her is something that I couldn't live with. However, for the time being we were together. I pulled her close to me and we held that embrace for awhile. She continued to cry and all the while I was wondering why, then I got my answer.

"It's over between me and Darien!" She said in between sobs as she looked up at me.

That was defently not what I was expecting to hear! Sure it was great news in a way that now I had a chance with her, but seeing her like this…is nothing at all I would want to see. "What happened?" I asked looking deeply into her blue eyes.

She pulled away from me and walked over to a bus stop bench. I followed close behind. As we sat down next to each other, she turned to look at me. "The girls and I just came from watching a movie. We desided to get something to eat. I was only hanging out with them because Darien cancled out date, telling me he had to study…" By this time the tears had cleared up, but a look of anger, confusion, disbelief and hurt still remaind on her face. I listened intently as she continued. "When we reached the conor of the block, the girls just stopped suddenly. I thought they were wating for a car to pass, but there wasn't any cars passing. As the girls turned around to walk away, I pushed through curious as to what shocked the girls. That's when I got my answer. Across the street was Darien and he wasn't alone. He was kissing another girl."

My eyes widen with shock as I gasped, then suddenly they grew hot with anger. "I could kill that jerk! What was he thinking? How dare he treats you in such a way!" I surprised myself and Serena by yelling in anger. When I saw her eyes growing in surprise, I lowered my voice. "Sorry about that," I apologized in a low voice, "It's just that it upsets me that someone who clams to love you could treat you in such away. You don't deserve that from a man…you are the most loving, caring person that I know. You would do just about anything for anyone and I know that you gave him everything you've got."

She looked down at her feet without replying. She was scilent for a moment. "Serena…what are you thinking about?" I asked.

She looked back up and turned to look at me. A serious look was in her eyes. "I know it's hard for you to understand…but I know that somewhere deep inside he really does love me. We have such a long history together…I don't know what to feel anymore."

I looked at her completely shocked at what I heard. "I don't get it…" I started shaking my head, "This guy has hurt you many times and will very well do so again in the future and all you're thinking about is you past together and that somewhere deep inside he loves you? Call me crazy, but if you really love someone would you continuely hurt them?"

She was slightly taken aback at what I had just said. To my surprise, instead of agreeing, a slight bit of anger crossed her eyes. "I still love him!" She cried out, "We have so much history together…I can't just drop it and forget it! If you really loved someone, would you give up on them for their mistakes? Would you just drop all of your memories that you shared and forget about them? Could you really forget about someone that you loved?"

I just looked at her trying to make sense of what she was saying, but to me none of it made sence…it all sounded like an excuse. "What are you afraid of?" I suddenly asked with out thinking, "If you dropped everything and you did leave him, what's the worst that could happen? Are you afraid that you won't love again or that someone else won't love you?"

She stood up in anger and looked down at me. "You have no idea what I'm going through! Have you ever loved someone so much that no matter what they did and no matter how they acted you just couldn't stop loving them. That every day and night you would only hope and pray that maybe just maybe it would all come together and they just might change?"

My own anger started to flair as I too stood up in front of her looking strate into her eyes. "As a matter of fact," I began in a low voice. "I do. I know 100 how you feel. Because for the longest time I've been in love with you and I couldn't tell you how I felt. I didn't want to be the one to get in the way of you and Darien. I wanted you to see for yourself the type of person he really was and from that point on to make a wise dession as to who you wanted to be with. I hoped and I prayed that you would see him for who he really is!"

She stood silent as I continued. "Your beautiful and perfect in my eyes. If you were mine you never would have to work alone in keeping our relationship in working order. Both of us would keep it going…like we have done with this friendship. My love for you would never cause me to do anything that would bring a tear to your eyes. I would rather die then to be the one to make you cry." As I finshed, Serena lowered her self back down to the bench. She sat in scilence for a moment. I didn't know what to do or say, I just sat back down and looked at her wishing that she would brake this scilence that was slowly killing me. She finally did. And it was something that I dreaded to hear.

"Darien and I are destend to be together. We have a future together and a past. I know that at times he does things that are hurtful, but there are also many wonderful things about him. Your right, this is something that you can't understand and no matter how you may feel towards me, it's nothing close enough to how I feel about Darien. My heart at this point is torned and I don't know how to feel…I just don't know anything anymore."

With that, she stood up. "Goodnight Seyia." She said as she turned around and walked away leaving me sitting on the bench in shock.

15 minutes later I was still sitting on the bench still in shock at what had happened. I did accomplish what I had set out to do, I told her that I loved her. But it seemed to be the wrong timing and I don't know if I'll ever have a second chance. With my heart shattered in peaces, I sat by myself at the bus stop crying. Suddenly my cell phone rang. I pressed the send button and in trying my best to cover the sorrow in my voice I said, " Hello?"

"Hey man what's up?" My brother Yaten said on the other line.

"Uh…nothing." I said. The tears were still coming down my face…it wouldn't be long before he figured out that something was wrong.

"What's wrong?" He asked concerness filled his voice.

"Nothing, nothing is wrong…I think I might be coming down with a cold or something." It was the first thing that I could think of. I was thankful that he wasn't in front of me, other wise he would know that I was lying.

"Oh…" He said slowly. I was surprised that he actually brought it. "Do you want me to pick you up? Where are you?"

"Nah…I'm fine, I'll just walk home, I'm not that far away only a few blocks." I wasn't lying…not really. It's just that I didn't want him to see me right now, not with the tear stains still on my cheeks. He would know insently that something was wrong and insist that I tell him the truth. I just didn't want to talk about it, at least not now.

"Ok bro. Just call me if you need me to pick you up. I'm probelly going to step out in a bit, but that won't prevent me from picking you up."

"Ok" I said

"Feel better." He said before hanging up.

A couple of minutes later, I stood up and headed for home. I was thinking about the last words that my brother had said to me…and I hope more then anything that I would feel better soon.

Daniel Bedingfield "He don't love you like I love you."

He don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

Tell me I should not be feeling what I am today
Tell me to silence my heart
Tell me We've been here before
and I will walk away from you love


For there is a wall between you and I
And he hasn't been treating you right
I've been watching it all
I seen you cry
And I just gotta tell you tonight

That he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't want to have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

Tell me this love's just a feeling and will pass away

Tell me your not what I know you are