Author's note: Hey guys what's up? Things are so crazy around here! I'm almost finished with chapter 11 of my other fanfic…I have to find some time to type it though. Anyway, I just had to write this fanfic after reading the lyrics to Daniel Bedingfield's "If your not the one" I felt that it closely would describe how Seyia really felt for Serena. So yes, this is a SxS fanfic all the way! I know my other fanfic has a little bit of it, but I wanted to explore and try something new. This story is told from two different points of views…Serena's and Seyia's. The story is about them so why shouldn't they tell it huh? (Smiles). So I hope that you really like this…please read and review. Love ya all!
Serena's POV
Tears fell down my face as I turned fromSeiya and walked away. I never looked back but I could feel him staring at me. What were you thinking! The little voice in the back of my head screamed He spills out his love for you and all you could say is that you and that jerk are destined to be together! He really loves you Serena and he's been the best friend that you ever could have. He was there for you when Darien wasn't. He's perfect for you and you probably lost your chance to actually be happy! "But I love Darien!" I protested. I tried to convince myself that I was right. I am right…I know I am…maybe…just maybe…Girl you must be kidding yourself! What logical excuse could he possibly give you? And don't forget that he had the nerve to call you immature! You know all too well…that it really is over. "NO!" I whispered to myself through crutched teeth. I shook my head vigorously from side to side. I tried to stand my ground…against the truth of the matter. I tried all that I can to be hopeful and not to give up on all that we had….we had…
As I continued to walk towards the direction of my house I could feel my self losing a battle. A battle against myself and what I thought to be true. From that moment on, I broke down in tears as reality began to settle in. It really is over between Darien and I. How could we possibly move on from this? And as for Seiya….I felt a pull at my heart…I thought back to everything that he had said…the look in his eyes as he spilled out his love for me…I could feel it…in the deepest part of my insides…that I really did care for him so much…in fact, I actually think that I might lo-. My thoughts were cut off at what had just crossed my mind…and the most stupidest mistake that I have ever made to top it all off. The tears never seemed to end…the more that I thought about Seiya…
I finally got home. It was about 9pm. "I'm home!" I called out as I walked through the door. I had stood out side of my house for about 5 minutes before walking in. Had I walked in with a tear soaked face, red puffy eyes and a cracked voice, my family would be bound to ask questions…even if I wasn't in the mood to answer them. As I heard silence in reply, it just hit me that…all the lights in the house was off. No one was home. I breathed a sigh of relief . Even if I stood out side for 5 minutes, it wasn't enough to make myself presentable….they would've figured out for sure that something was wrong.
I walked to the kitchen and headed for the fridge. That long walk made me so hungry! Just as I grabbed a few items from the fridge, the phone rang. I growled (as well as my stomach) in annoyance that I couldn't even have a few moments of peace to eat. I decided to ignore the ringing phone and let the answering machine take the message for me. As I took a bit, the phone stopped ring and the answering machine started to play. My voice came from the prerecorded message to greet callers. As soon as that message ended, a familiar voice came from the machine as it started to leave a message.
"Serena! Where are you!" Cried out a desperate Mina. "Please pick up the phone if you are there…"
She didn't need to say anything more, I ran towards the phone as fast as I could. As I picked up the receiver I answered. "Mina?"
"Serena! Your home!" Mina cried out excitedly. I could hear the others in the back ground asking a thousand questions but Mina ignored them. She continued in a more stern voice. "Don't you ever do that to us again! We were worried sick about you…After this last call, if we didn't hear from you, we were going to go to the police and fill a missing person report and call for a search team!" I smiled at her comment…take it for Mina to be a bit over dramatic.
"I'm so sorry Mina, I didn't mean to make you guys worry like that. I'm ok. I was actually heading for the park to be by myself when I ran into Seiya."
"The park…" Mina started thoughtfully "Why didn't I think about that? You always go to the park when you're…wait a minute…did you say you were with Seiya?" She asked suddenly. I could almost see her smiling ear to ear on the other side of the line. "What happened?" She asked eagerly. At the same time there was a whole lot of commotion in the background at hearing that I was with Seiya.
I went on to tell her in detail what happened. When I finished, her side of the line was quite…in fact…I didn't even hear the other girls in the background…
"Mina?" I asked concern.
"What were you thinking!" Leta called out from the background.
"Leta?" I asked confused….then it hit me, Mina must have put the phone on speaker so that everyone could hear…oh gosh…I'm gonna get it!
"I cannot believe you…how could you?" Mina finally spoke up…her voice sound more clearer then Leta's…she must be standing right next to the phone.
"I'm very disappointed in you Serena, I would have expected more from you…you just crushed his heart." Amy said
"I don't even think she deserves him!" Raye said with a slight bit of anger in her voice.
"You're not the only one who saw what Darien did to you, we all saw it…" Mina began, her voice was filled with seriousness. "We were as stunned as you were. We know the history that you two share…we even know about the future that the two of you are suppose to share…" Her voice drifted off and Leta continued on from where Mina left off. "Serena…he messed up big time. He knows….he knows that you two are distended to be together…but that doesn't mean that he could take advantage of that and hurt you whenever he wants to…what kinda of love is that?…"
"And like that song that Missy Elliotte sang…about a one minute man….yea…yea…you don't need no one minute man!" Mina added in. I could hear the gasps of everyone in the room…I was thankful that no one could see me from where they were…I must have turn many shades of red at that moment!
"Uh…Mina…you never listened to the words of the song have you?" Was all that I could mange to say as I tried to suppress my laughter.
"Yea…it's talking about a one minute man….a guy who's there one minute and gone the next….like Darien…one minute he's like 'I love you' and the next minute he hurts you. I wonder how many one minute man's are in that song…considering that the song must be about 5 minutes? Wow…that's a lot of one minute men….what do they do?"
Now, had I been eating, I would have choked on my food a long time ago…thankfully I wasn't eating…but I nearly did fall to the ground in disbelief….I know I'm dense, but at times, Mina can actually be more dense then me! One of the girls in the background explained to her the meaning of the song. I heard her gasp as it all began to sink in.
"OH MY GOSH!" She cried out. "Serena…please tell me that the two of you are…that the two of you didn't…OH MY GOSH! I hope that he didn't…with that girl he was…" I could almost hear hyperventilating on the other side of the line.
"Mina…Mina…take it easy! We didn't do it…and I'm sure as heck he didn't do it with anyone else…otherwise he'd be a dead man!" I said reassuring my freaked out friend.
I could hear Mina breath in a sigh of relief. "Thank goodness!" She breathed out. She continued seriously. "Anyway, moving on, what Seiya said made a lot of sense…Darien doesn't deserve you, not after all the love that you've shown him and for him to continue to hurt you. He is wrong."
"We have no doubt that you really do love Darien," Leta added. "It is understandable if he had hurt you once or twice, but since you met him, all he has ever done was hurt you. There is not enough good to cover up the bad."
"Ever since the first day you met Seiya, he has treated you with respect and love that Darien never showed to you. It was clear to us from the very beginning that he was truly in love with you. Seiya never did a thing to hurt you." Amy said softly
"But you treated him much more worst then Darien treated you. Here he was declaring his love to you and you turn around and tell him that you love someone else who you both know treats you like trash." Raye said bluntly. I know that Raye's words towards me can sometimes be harsh and to the point, but her words just now held such a weight to it that I sort of flinched at the thought of what I said to Seiya. I swallowed hard.
"Although I wouldn't use those exact words…" Mina began "I must admit that Raye is right. Who knows if you still have a chance with him. It may be too late."
As I stood there listening to my friends honest criticism, I felt a tear roll down my cheek. The truth had hit me like a pile of brick…and I wasn't even finished telling them the rest of the story. "If you thought that was bad enough…there's more.." I whispered.
"There is?" Leta asked questionably
"I…I…" I began. I couldn't even believe what I was about to say but it was really tugging at my heart and I couldn't hold in much longer. "As I was walking home, I started to think to myself and I thought that….what I was thinking about was…I think I love him too." I blurted out in one breath.
For a moment, there was silence on the other end of the line. I was almost afraid to know of what they were thinking…then I finally got my answer. "It's about time…" Was all that Mina could say.
My eyebrow rose in confusion. "Huh?" Was all that I could manage to say.
"Well, it's about time that you finally admitted to your feelings…he would be very pleased…" Mina continued
"I think you shouldn't waste much time…call him up right now and tell him what you told us. Tell him the truth…about how you feel." Amy added
"The two of you are perfect for each other. Don't waste time….you don't want to give up true happiness do you?" Raye said softly
I kinda gasped at Raye's unexpected comment. For Raye, to be soft spoken…to me was kinda creepy. I wished I was there so that I could see her facial expression, though I had no doubt that she had a sincere look across her face. I smiled at what my friends had said. I could feel myself being lifted up from my former down state. "I have to go…" I said smiling ear to ear. "There's a very important phone call that I have to make. I'll talk to you later."
"Ok, we'll talk to you later….just don't forget to tell us what happened." Mina said as we hung up. I suddenly felt this sense of renewal. I hoped and prayed that he was home and also that we could talk. I quickly dialed the number and pressed the receiver against my ear. After a couple of rings a male's voice answered on the other side of the line. Suddenly for no apparent reason, I froze.
"Hello…" The voice repeated again on the other side of the line.
"Uh…Se…Se…Seiya?" I stuttered. My brain was a wreck. Before I even dialed the number, I had about a minute or so to rehearsed I what I wanted to say. I thought that I had it down perfectly before I called….I'm starting to guess that I needed a little more time.
"Serena? Is that you? It's me Taliki!" Taliki said cheerfully
My face grew hot in embarrassment…I was so happy that Taliki couldn't see me from where he was. "Huh…sorry about that Taliki…for a second there you kinda sounded like Seiya."
"No problem….That's what you get for having two brothers…someone is bound to get mixed up…" He chuckled more to himself about his own comment. "So what's up Serena?" He finally asked.
"Uh…" I started off, my mind still trying to pick up all of the pieces of what I wanted to say. "I need to speak to Seiya…it's very important."
For a moment Taliki's side of the was silent then he spoke. "Huh….I'd give him the phone…but as soon as he got home tonight he just went striate to his room…he hasn't been out since, I think he's sleeping by now. I haven't heard any sounds coming from his room for an hour now." He paused before he continued. "He's been acting so strangely since he came home…but he said nothing at all about what was going on…did you see him tonight?"
My heart skipped a beat at hearing what Taliki had said. He was acting strangely because of me…because I broke his heart. "Yea.." I whispered softly.
"Well, what's up? What happened? I'm really concern for him Serena." Taliki asked concerned. I took in a deep breath and continued to tell him everything. The situation with Darien…my conversation with Seiya and what the girls told me. The entire time I spoke, Taliki keep silent. When I finished, his side of the line was kept silent. "Hello?" My voice sounded desperate. I knew what was going to happen…he was going to hang up on me, neither him nor Yaten would ever speak to me again…as a matter of fact, they probably would brake up with Amy and Mina because of me!
"I'm still here." Taliki said softly "I just can't believe it."
"I'll understand if you decide to hang up on me and brake up with Amy cause you don't want to have anything to do with me ever again." I said in one breath.
I could hear Taliki chuckling on the other side of the line. My face twisted in confusion. "What's so funny?" I asked a bit confused and annoyed
"Hang up on you?" Taliki sounded taken aback. "Why on earth would I ever do that to you?"
"Because I'm the cause of your brother's broken heart! I'm the cause of him probably never wanting to have anything to do with me again…and if he doesn't want to have anything to do with me, probably it would likewise be the same with you and Yaten." I cried out as tears started to roll down my cheeks.
"Serena, first off….no matter what goes on between you and my brother, Yaten and I will always be your friend. Secondly our relationships with Amy and Mina is in no way connected to you or Seiya….so don't even worry about that. And thirdly Seiya is in love with you….it's not the end of the world...no matter what he will still love you. The way I see it, it was just the wrong timing for you and him to run into each other. He probably had the intention on telling you his feelings for you and you had a very nasty encounter with Darien…give a little time for the two of you to cool off and then try to talk out your feelings again." He said seriously then he paused before continuing. "Tell me truthfully, are you really in love with him?"
I thought for a moment before I spoke. "Before tonight, I loved him as a friend. I was content with our friendship. But now…with this whole thing with Darien …and now I'm beginning to see things for what they really are…I don't know how on earth I couldn't have seen it before…" I paused as all of these emotions came rushing towards me, like a wave rushing to the shore. "I love him so much! I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I don't ever want to hurt him like I just did, not ever again. He was always there for me and he loves me for who I am. He's seen me at my most clumsiest moments…at the moments when I said or even did the most stupidest things. We've been through everything together, and the funny thing is that he acted more like my boyfriend then Darien did!"
"That's what I thought…" Taliki whispered. I could almost see the smile across his face. "But what you had said to Seiya…about loving Darien…is that true?" He suddenly asked. I was completely off guard by his question.
"Uh…what do you mean by that?" I asked caution
"Well, it's clear that you love Seiya…but do you also love Darien…I mean if Darien were to suddenly come up to your front door with a dozen roses, would you take him back?" Taliki asked calmly.
I was slightly dumfounded by the question. I sighed deeply as I thought about what he said. The picture came to my mind….Darien ringing my door be and me opening the door…him with a dozen of my favorite flowers. I gasped at the sudden emotions that flooded over me. Could it be that I still loved Darien too? My heart was so confused. Why on earth would Taliki ask if I loved his brother and then turn around and ask me if I loved another man? "Taliki…why?" I asked, completely unsure of what I should say. "Why did you ask me that?"
"Because you said that you don't ever want to hurt Seiya like you just did right? If you are in love with both of them…it's better to sort out your feelings and really think about the big picture before you make any finalized decision. You don't want to make another big mistake do you?"
I thought about what Taliki was talking about. He made a lot of sense. If I really did care about both of them…it wouldn't be fair to be dishonest with my feelings. "I get what your saying…but I have no idea…"
"You do, you do know. Just think about it. Don't stress over it. Your heart will be drawn to the one that you truly love." Taliki said reassuringly
I smiled at his helpful words. "Thank you so much Taliki, I'm glad that we're friends."
"Me too. Now, get some rest, it's getting late." He said in a playful athoritve tone of voice.
"Yes sir!" I replied playfully as I giggled. "Goodnight Taliki."
"Goodnight Serena." With that, be both hung up the phone. For a moment, I started at the phone thinking about my conversation with Taliki. I was really happy to talk to him. He made so much sense. Not that the girls didn't, but being that he knows Seiya much more then any of us do…I could just tell that everything between Seiya and I would be alright. A smile crept up across my face. As I continued to pick at my food, the phone rang. I jumped startled at the new sound in the once silent room. After letting it ring twice I picked it up.
"Good evening?" I answered politely.
"Serena?" A male's voice called out on the other side of the line. I gasped as I immediately knew who it was.
"Darien?" I gasped. Why is he calling me? I franticly thought to myself. I was completely off guard by hearing him on the other side of the line. I had just hung up with Taliki…I didn't even have time to sort out my feelings!
"Serena?" Darien continued "Serena are you still there?"
I took a deep breath. I had to keep my cool…in no way…shape or form, was I to give him the slightest bit of satisfaction that at this very moment, my heart was racing and I felt like the world was spinning and I wanted more then anything to…
"Serena can we talk?" Darien asked, interrupting my thought.
I could feel what ever anger that was building up inside me earlier now coming back. What could he possibly have to say to me that he didn't say or show before. "What do you want Darien." I said coolly into the receiver.
For a moment Darien's end of the line was kept silent. Then I heard him swallow hard. "I guess I deserved that…" He said slowly. I guess he was waiting for me to say something but I honestly had nothing more to say to him. After a moment of silence, he continued "Serena…tonight….what I said and what I did….it was the most stupidest thing that I ever could do. I know my actions didn't prove it, but I'm really in love with you!"
My eyes widen at hearing those words coming from his mouth. I would have told him the same thing in a split of a second. However, one thing kept itching in the back of my head. "Why?…..If you love me so much, why did you do it?" I asked
"I got caught up in the moment…" He began. I rolled my eyes and sighed at the excuse he was giving me. "Yea…Yea…I've heard that line a thousand times.." I said sarcastically. For a moment Darien didn't say a word. "Really, I did…and of all the mistakes in the world…this was the worst. When you left, I figured that you were heading home…I really wanted to talk to you about what had just happen…but you never came home. I was worried…thinking that something terrible had happen to you…"
A part of me was shocked to hear that he came looking for me. I started to question myself as to wither or not he really did care. But I couldn't shake off the feeling…that what he did, no matter what excuse he came up with…how could I take him back? What if this would happen again? I shook my head as I began to speak. "Darien, I don't have time for this….I have to go." As I began to hang up the phone, I could hear him calling out "Wait!" I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath. In the pit of my stomach, I knew I was going to regret not hanging up on him at that very moment. But something in the back of my mind wanted to know what it was he had say. "What…" I said exhausted.
"If you can't talk now, can we please talk tomorrow? I just can't let this thing pass with out the two of us trying to talk." His voice pleaded over the other end of the line. The last time I did check, I did say I was going to regret this. Though my heart was screaming NO, my mind was screaming YES.
"What time do you want to meet up?" I found myself saying.
"How about 12pm? I could come and pick you up and we could go into town and get something to eat."
"Sure, that sounds good." I said redundantly.
"Well…" Darien began slowly "I'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight Serena." He said before hanging up.
"Goodnight." I said as I hung up.
The next day
As Darien and I sat a cross from each other in the café, for just a second things felt like they were back to normal. I could feel a smile creep up on my face as he told me a joke and he laughed at something that I said. All was great, that is until I remembered why we were there in the first place.
"Darien…" I began seriously. "Although I'm having a great time sitting here with you…it's just not the same…I mean to say…everything that happened last night, I can't just forget it." I looked down at the ice coffee that was sitting right in front of me then looked back up at Darien. His deep blue eyes looked right into my own blue eyes…I felt my heart skip a beat. Every time that I looked at him, no matter how up set I was, no matter what he did to me…looking into his eyes, it's almost like being caught under a spell…that's some times very hard to break. I broke by eyes away from his stare. I took in a deep breath, I had to be strong…I couldn't just let him win me over just like that. This was serious. No matter how you looked at it, he cheated on me. "Talk." Was all that I said as I looked down at my drank.
He took a deep breath in before he began. "Like I said last night, we got caught up in the moment. She's a girl in my class…we were studying for a test. That's why I cancelled our date, I really did have to study. About an hour into our studying she suggested that we take a break and head out to get some coffee. We decided to go into town. When we sat at the café, we talked and laughed…when we finished and was about to leave, she caught me off guard by telling me that she had feelings for me and then suddenly kissed me. I didn't resist it…I don't know why and I regret that I didn't. That's when you came. I felt like my whole world just came crashing down when I saw the expression on your face…I've never seen you so angry before. I felt so embarrassed when you started yelling that I opened my big mouth and…and called you immature. At that very moment I wished that I could take the words back….then suddenly you slapped me….then told me that you hated me…I felt like I was lower then dirt at that moment."
After hearing what he had to say, I felt so confused…did he really care about me? Or was he just saying this so that he could have me back. I shook my head as I stood up. For just a brief second I could see his eyes widen in surprise at my reaction. I could feel the tears swelling up in my eyes at what I was about to say. I guess he could sense it as he to, because he stood up and walked over towards me. He grasped a hold of me from around the waist and held me close to him. "No…" He whispered into my ears. "Please don't say it…" But before I could even say one word to him, he leaned down and kissed me passionately. I honestly felt like I was floating on cloud nine. If my heart could sing it probably might out loud. As we broke away from our kiss, I could feel….
"Serena?" A very familiar voice called out in surprise from behind me. I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand striate and a chilling feeling ran up and down my spin. As I turned around to see who called my name. My heart just stopped. There standing before me with most deepest most hurtful expression on his face, was Seiya. I gasped as I could see the anger flare up in his eyes. In his hand was a dozen roses…and not red ones, but white ones. He threw them to the ground and I jumped at his sudden reaction. "I thought that maybe we could talk…seeing as how my brother explained everything to me this morning…about your feelings towards me…I finally thought….after all of this time…that I actually won your heart fair and square. I can't believe how stupid I could be. The two of you are distend to be together…no matter what I say or do I can't change that can I?" With that he spun around and ran out of the café. I was left standing there stunted. I could feel everyone's stare piercing right through me. I tore myself from Darien's embrace which I was still in. Darien was left with a surprised look on his face. I looked at him as tears began to flood down my cheeks.
"This cannot go on…" I said sternly. "For the first time ever…I found someone who really loves me…someone who would treat me with the respect and love that I deserve. And to tell you the truth," I said as I looked him striate in the eyes. "I love him too. It's over between you and me." I said plainly
Darien stared at me with wide eyes. "Over?" He whispered. He shook his head in disbelief. "No way…it can't be. We're suppose to be together…our future…Rini…"
I stepped away from him as I turned my back towards him. "Darien…I gave you everything that I've got. I gave you my heart and it's been more then once that you've stomped all over it…treated me like trash…like my feelings didn't count." I spun around and stared at him my eyes filled with hurt and anger. "Do you really think I'm that stupid? You just wanted to talk…that's all? You know you wanted to try to get me back. You are so selfish. You want me all for yourself…and you take advantage over the fact that we are destined to be together. Well let me tell you something…this relationship is not written in stone…so when I say it's over…I mean it!" With that I spun around and left the restaurant…with a very stun Darien. As I ran out…my mind only turned to one person…Seiya. I hoped with all of my heart that I didn't lose my chance to be with him.
Eden's Crush "Get over yourself (goodbye)
Uh Huh
Yea-ey-yea-ey-yeah
Get Over
Get Over
Listen
Yeah I was right there
Like a little wife
I was everything that you need
Always in line
I was living you, loving you
Filling your desires
But that was then this is now
Look me in the eye and
Ooooooh oh oo oh
If love could choose sides
Ooooooh oh oo oh
It's taking mine so
Chorus:
Get over yourself goodbye (goodbye)
It must be hard to be you yeah
Livin' in your life
I was always the one to cry (to cry)
Now everything, everything,
Everything is all right
Get over yourself, know why (know why)
'cause without you see I do anything I like
Sometimes I stay out all night (all night)
And everything, everything,
Everything is all right
This just can't be it, I kept telling myself
That every magazine say was me was on the shelf
I was giving out giving in giving way my dreams
That's why you (put it in) put me down
Now I found my self esteem
Ooooooh oh oo oh (ohhh)
Won't get me back (won't get me back, no)
Ooooooh oh oo oh (no, no)
Think I overeact
Chorus:
Get over yourself goodbye (goodbye)
It must be hard to be you yeah
Livin' in your life
I was always the one to cry (to cry)
Now everything, everything,
Everything is all right
Get over yourself; know why (know why)
'cause without you see I do anything I like
Sometimes I stay out all night (all night)
And everything, everything,
Everything is all right
Bridge
So now you wanna talk
Say lets do it just once more for luck
Lack of times make up
Better yet, just forget, better get over yourself
So stay in touch
When you learn a few things about love (tell me baby)
Until then we go
Better yet, better get, better get over yourself (Ohh)
Over yourself, goodbye (Over yourself, goodbye)
Over yourself, over yourself,
Get over yourself, goodbye (Over yourself, goodbye)
Over yourself, oh-over yourself,
Get over yourself, goodbye (Over yourself, goodbye)
Without you see I do anything I like,
Sometimes I stay out all night,
Everything, everything,
Everything is all right
Chorus
Get over yourself goodbye (goodbye)
It must be hard to be you yeah
Livin' in your life
I was always the one to cry (to cry)
Now everything, everything,
Everything is all right
Get over yourself; know why (know why)
'cause without you see I do anything I like
Sometimes I stay out all night (all night)
And everything, everything,
Everything is all right
(Repeat x2)
Get over yourself, goodbye (everything is all right)
Everything is all right (Over yourself)
Get over yourself, goodbye (everything is all right)
Everything is all right (Over yourself)
Get over yourself, goodbye
Author's note: I really liked this song when I heard it and I thought that it discribed how Serena would now view Darien. I also would have been a really good song to use after the end of chapter 2.