I'm going to pick up Mulder today from the hospital. I've been thinking about how to tell him about the baby. I still haven't come up with a plan. I don't even know if he wants a family. That night when I told him my doctor can get me pregnant, Mulder said he would help me out, never said he would be a father.
Georgetown Hospital 10:21 am
I'm just signed the release form so Mulder could come home. He seems very happy to be out of the hospital. He practically ran out. We walked to the car and hopped in. As I sat down in the drivers seat I looked at Mulder. He looked like he wanted to say something but didn't say anything.
"What?" I say.
"I'm going to be able to do my work at home, right?" I had to laugh because he looked so worried.
"Yes Mulder, no one will take your job".
"Why are you leaving? It's not something I did because if it is I will-" I cut him off.
"I will be working but not as much for a little while. I won't be on the field."
"May I ask why?" He asks.
"Later maybe." I drive out of the parking lot.
My Apartment
11:33am
Mulder and I just walked in the door. We take off our jackets and put them on the couch. I go to the stove to make some tea. He knows all ready that he's staying in my house. I told him so in the car so we stopped by his house to pick up his clothes and things. I told him it would only be for about a week and a half. I don't want him to hurt his arm worse. Besides maybe this will give me a chance to tell him about the baby.
"So how are you feeling Mulder? Are you hurting, sleepy, hungry? Anything?" He shakes his head and seats on the couch.
"You don't have to worry about me, I'm a big boy." Then he does his famous Mulder smile that makes me smile. We stand there smiling at each other until the tea starts to whistle. Then I realize and we both blush and I go to pour the tea. I walk to the couch and sit down and give him his tea.
We sat there talking for a while. The empty cups that once had tea in them are seating on the coffee table. My head is resting on his shoulder (not the hurt one) and I'm thinking that there is no place I rather be at this moment. Right now is the perfect time to tell him. To tell him my secret. The secret I have been waiting to tell him.
"Mulder there is something I have been meaning to tell you."
"Okay, tell me I'm all yours."
"I don't know how to say this. I can't believe it myself. It's hard to explain." I stop. I smell something burning. Then I hear the fire alarm going off in the hallway. I jump up and run to the door and open it. Mulder is right behind me. There is lots of smoke.
We go running down the hallway. Mulder has his arm around my shoulder. The fire sprinklers are raining on us. My face and hair are damp with water. We run to the front door and run into the street. I look at the building and see it in flames. I am so out of breath from running, I lean into Mulder more and than he hugs me. I hug him back. I feel so safe in his arms. As we part he pushes my wet hair out of my eyes.
"You okay?"
"Yes, I'm with you."
Two seconds later the fire department came. The fire didn't attack my apartment. It was save to go back inside. But we didn't. We went to the park to get away from the craziness. Why is telling Mulder so hard? I was so close to telling him.
We saw a bench and sat down. I had to tell him NOW! Or I would kill myself.
"Mulder, I need to tell you something before something else happens." When I say this he grabs my hand.
"You can tell me. What ever it is, I'm here for you." He sounds so serious and caring.
"Mulder, I am... Okay, I'm just going to say it I'm pregnant. The doctor was wrong when he said it didn't work."
"I thought... but how, I thought." He looked confused. So confused.
"Remember that night I came home and told you it didn't work. And you said never give up on a miracle. I never gave up." I said with tears in my eyes. I see a smile come on his face and he brushes away my tears.
"I never did either. Not even for a second." Then he hugs me. We sit there hugging for what seems like forever. But I was happy for that. I could have sat there like that forever. But he pulled away and planted a kiss on my forehead.