xXXXx :SUGIMURA X MIMURA: xXXXx

Sometimes I just want people to understand automaticaly..

I have to bear so much just for one person to accept me.

I just wanted to take you without words, like you already know and I don't have to explain..

Sometimes I don't want to think about what will happen later or any of the reactions..

I'll be selfish and do what I want. Just for one day.. that I hope you forgive..

You look so innocent, like something out of a cheap porno.. or any porno for that matter. I pretended I was in a rush for my next class. Then the scoff you made echoed through the room.

... Selfish Bastard ..."

Well..

Earlier I pissed off Okayasu-Sensei, the PE teacher. I was skipping his class with Hiroki, but he found us. Whydid we decide to hangout outside the Gym? He made us run 70 laps around the track. Hiroki was breathing so hard half way through.. If it wasn't so easy for him to kick my ass, I would've raped the guy there in the dirt. I couldn't take my eyes off him. I should kick myself for being so perverted.. what would Hiroki say if he knew what I was thinking? After all 70 laps Okayasu Sensei just left us there.. no lecture or anything. We both layed on the ground exhausted. I couldn't help but check out Hiroki laying beside me, completely limp. His whole body was relaxed, eyes almost closed, wet shirt and his hair... was just a mess. I was thisclose to climbing on top of him.

I look over at him. At Hiroki and our perfect situation.. perfect to me.

" You think so?"

" You better fucking beleive it."

" Oh?"

Hiroki was so beautiful.. I don't see how anyone could miss that. I guess I could say I've always been attracted to him. Ever since I knew him, he changed me. I never liked girls again... though of course there were rumours that I was seen with some girl, or I made out with another girl. I just laugh about how girls can't sense what kind of guy I am.. it's all around them.

" Shut up."

Why is he acting like it's my fault. We both decided to skip. Perhaps I did talk back to Okayasu Sensei a little.. but that doesn't mean he wouldn't of given us laps anyway. He's just jealous because I have great endurance. Sure he has speed but he can't exactly last as long as me. ha ha! He's overreacting anyway... but I'll make it all better very soon.

" Hmm.."

" What?"

I was staring at him. Up and down his body. I'm sure my eyes looked greedy.. because I wanted him, all to myself.

" I think you're right."

I grinned.

" I am a little selfish..." I walked up to him and held his bare waist, " I want you so bad, and right now I don't care who I hurt to get you.. Even if I hurt you."

I slid my hand farther and farther down his waist. Only a towel loosely clinging to boney his hips was covering him, so placed my hands on them. Hiroki's eyes looked so.. scared. Wide but still sad. I moved my body closer to his, and licked from his collar bone up to the nape of his neck. Softly I kissed the side of his neck. I didn't want to end it, I just wanted to lap him up. Just when I was thinking "Que the increasing panting and the OOOOoooh Shiiinji." I could hear.. silence. I looked up to him and found his eyes closed, slightly frowning.

" Hiroki? Stop giving me the silent treatment.. "

I layed him flat on the floor and climbed on top of him. I took his face with one of my hands and went over the bones with my fingers.

Hiroki was squeasing his eyes shut now. I felt his body underneath me stiffen. I started to feel sorry for him.. But then I looked down at him underneath me again. Hiroki's eyes were open and emotionless. He didn't seem scared at all.. So I kissed him. Hiroki didn't push away.. he didn't move. I pulled away and saw hiroki's eyes streaming with tears suddenly. I could understand how confused he was so I lifted myself off of him and pulled him up. He clinged to my waist and cryed into my chest, trying to make a sentence through his tears.

"Mimura... Why .. are you doing THIS? ..is this a stupid JOKE!"

In my head I wished it was. Really I was just as confused, as to why I was doing this now, as he was. Even if he knew I loved him it wouldn't change the feelings he has for me... I'm still just a friend. He's in a happy relationship and I would never want to ruin that for him, I'm making things bad enough already. I realized my eyes were watering and Hiroki wasn't crying anymore. He was looking into me with his wide, gleaming eyes. I tryed to open my mouth to let out all the thoughts in my head building up by the second.. but nothing came out but a quiet whimper.

Then our hearts stopped when we heard a familiar voice coming from outside the changeroom entrance getting closer and closer... Yoshitoki kun.

"Hey Mimura , You in here? I need to borro- AHH! GOMEN!"

He falls to the ground. Almost seizures on the floor while trying to get up and sprints flailing down the hall. We were left speechless...

Ya know.. I'm not sure if he's gay or not. I know Yoshitoki kun actually lives with Shuya, sleeping in the same room, anything could have happened. They're both single, even thoughYoshitoki likes Nakagawa... I'm pretty sure Shuya doesn't have any girl in mind. In fact I'm pretty sure he has the most tempting crush ever on his best friend Nobu. heh.. I would forget Nakagawa San anyday to start dating Shuya.. Shuya... tsk tsk. So obvious.

Hiroki pushed me away. He was so white.

The rest of the school day we completly avoided eachother. The last thing I could have ever wanted.

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END- CHAPTER ONE

The first chapter. The one you should avoid if you're horny.

but the one you should most definetly read if you want to understand the series.

PS; Ew. Change room floor.