I left again. Just like last time. Why did I do something so foolish? The last time I left, I was nearly killed. So why do it again?
Because of a threat. I cannot let anyone get hurt.
There is something wrong with me. Whenever I use chalk, my alchemy doesn't work. But when I use blood or spit, it does. Dammit, who or what the hell am I?
At the moment, I'm alone in a dark room. They have gone and left me here. I don't mind. They tried to make me cry, but it didn't work. I rather enjoy making them angry. It's my only source of entertainment.
My memory when I was little is coming back. Little by little, it comes back. There's only one problem. Little by little, my new memories fade. I don't want to forget my new friends. And I really don't want to forget Ed.
Why is that? Whenever I think about Ed, my heart gets very tight and I have this odd feeling in my stomach. My cheeks become the color of the rose quartz that I gave him.
Is this what is known as falling head over heels in love? Nah, probably not. But what if it is? The love I feel for him is different somehow. How can I distinguish the love I have for my friends and the love I have for Ed? Does he love me? Maybe . . . maybe I do love him. Too bad I can never tell him. If I do, I'll have to tell him my whole past, past and present. If I do, he'll truly despise me.
I think know why "Kesenai Tsumi" rings in my head. If my theory is true, all I can say is "I'm such a dumbass".
Uh-oh. They're coming.
Another diary entry. Just making sure you know what is what. Well, I guess it's pretty obvious that's this is a diary entry since it's written in first-character narration.