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A/N: I feel so ashamed! I haven't updated for months now! I'm so sorry and I thank you all for your reviews that made me want to write again! I'm graduating this year so I am being pilled with TONS of homework! And a few months ago a week after I updated my last chapter my mom reformatted our pc and I lost ALL my saved files including the chapters that I already wrote! I know that isn't a good enough reason but it made me feel so frustrated! I spent hours on those and it just vanished overnight! So I didn't want to write them again and I WAS thinking of discontinuing my story (I'm really like that and I hate the attitude of mine!) but after I got, miraculously, reviews even after months of not writing I got my inspiration back! Well I hope you like this chapter even if it is short, I just wrote now to show my appreciation! Thanks again everyone for your reviews that helped me a lot!
Start of Story:
Feed Back: Huh? Thought Miriallia and what she saw next was extremely shocking...It was Dearka and Emily! She saw them but they didn't see her.
"Realization"
Miriallia's POV
Dearka's here with Emily? What should I do? Should I talk to him? Should I hide from him? What must I do? I wasn't planning on seeing him now! Wait! What am I doing! I should start explaining to him already! But why do I feel so scared! Do I feel guilty? Why am I thinking like this! I love him and that's what only matters!
"I can't believe you forgot to close your door!" said Dearka, he quite annoyed with Emily at the moment.
"Hey! I'm allowed to forget things once in awhile too you know!" Emily shot back.
They were bickering all the way to Emily's room which was only two doors away from Miriallia's.
They're coming back! What should I do! I-I think I'll talk to him tomorrow...He doesn't seem to be in a very good mood.
END POV
Emily had just locked her door with a big smile while a fuming Dearka followed behind her. She won their little bickering contest which made Dearka even more annoyed.
"You see! Even other people forget to close and lock their doors!" Emily told him cheerfully as she pointed to Miriallia's door. Me: they don't know that it's Mir's
"Then other people should be as good as me then!" Said Dearka while he slammed the door shut which gave him a surprise because he heard an "OUCH!"
"Uh-oh! You shouldn't have done that," said Emily in a singsong voice.
"Shut up and RUN!" yelled Dearka.
"Oh no you don't! You're going to apologize to the lady!" yelled Emily while holding onto Dearka's collar.
"What! NO!" Dearka replied in disbelief. He was looking at Emily like she was an alien from Jupiter.
"I can't believe you became an elite soldier of ZAFT when you're afraid of a girl!" Emily cried also in disbelief.
"That's different! I didn't have to apologize to some old lady with a big stick! I didn't have to stay and take their beating out of respect!" Dearka shot back.
"Who said she was old?" Emily asked curiously.
"I-I don't know," Dearka answered dejectedly like he had lost all hope.
"You've been avoiding people lately you know?"
"Well duh! I'm me after all."
"Just apologize so we can go to the hot springs already!" Emily said sternly.
"We would have already been in the hot spring, enjoying and relaxing if it wasn't for you and your stupid door!"
"Humph!" was Emily's reply.
"Alright already! I'll do it!" Dearka said in a very annoyed voice.
He walked to Miriallia's door and knocked softly. A few seconds had past and nothing happened.
"Ok no one's there we can go now," Dearka said happily.
"Not so fast! Of course there's someone there! How could we have heard the ouch if there wasn't?" Emily said to Dearka in a tone that Dearka hated because it made him feel like a dumb 3 year old.
"I'm beginning to hate you," stated Dearka.
"Just do it!"
Dearka went up to Miriallia's door again and knocked a little louder.
Inside Miriallia's Room
Miriallia Haww stop thinking those thoughts and open the damn door!
"Hello?" Dearka asked outside the door.
"Um...Yeah?" Mir's voice surprised herself with how different it sounded. It sounded very shaky, guilt-stricken and scared.
"Sorry about pushing your door...I thought you had forgotten to close it like my cousin here." She could tell that Dearka was feeling embarrassed by doing this...I mean who wouldn't? He's talking to a closed door!
He doesn't know it's me. I can fake it! I know I can!
"Never mind young man. I'm alright now. Go and have fun in the hot springs," said Mirialllia while trying to imitate her grandparents' voices.
Dearka apologized once again and went away. Miriallia on the other hand was rooted on the spot were she had talked to Dearka.
Someone's POV
That didn't go as well as I planned…I must devise a new plan! It's hard doing this if the people are TOO proud!
Miriallia's POV
I don't know what to do anymore. I know I love him but after what I did to him I feel as if I don't deserve him anymore. Everyday when I wake up I feel so down hearted and guilty and when I look at the mirror I see someone who has hurt the one they love. I guess you can count what I did as cheating even though I absolutely hated it and to think I used to hate people who cheated on their boyfriends and now I'm just like them…maybe I really should just leave Dearka alone. He seems to be happy though his voice was a little sad, I know he's starting to move on and I can't just say "I'm sorry please take me back!" to him and then tell him that I'm still engaged and I can do nothing about it. I really am a bad girlfriend…I mean was a bad girlfriend. My head is starting to hurt from all these emotions! I'm sorry diary if you don't agree with me but I just want him to be happy! People say that if you love someone you'll do anything to make him happy and I know that if ever Dearka and I do get back together it'll cause us more problems and pain especially to Dearka. I don't how he would react to my parents if he found out about the engagement. He once told me that my parents are very loving and he just knew that they would do everything for my happiness and that I was very lucky to have them both…I guess his opinion would change if he found out. I don't really blame everything on my parents anymore because I know their real intension was to see me happy and not sad and besides they gave me this opportunity to go to the hot springs and away from Mike so I know they feel bad. Anyway my tears might smudge everything I wrote so bye for now. I'll write again soon and I hope with better news!
-Mir♥
P.S. Diary, though it seems as if I'm not really saddened by all this…I am. I am sad, hurt and feeling heart broken right now. I never knew losing Dearka would feel this painful. I miss him so much…
Far Away From Dearka and Miriallia
It was midday when Athrun reached Earth and so far nothing bad has happened. Everything went by smoothly. Right now Kira, Athrun and Lacus are in the living room catching up and having a snack. They were so tired from playing with the kids.
"Whew! Never knew the kids could be so strong!" Athrun said while wiping sweat away from forehead.
"Haha! You'll get used to it soon…so why did you really come here?" Kira asked.
"I told you about Dearka right? Well you now Miriallia better than I do so do you think that she would do something like this? Especially to Dearka?"
"No. I don't think she would do something like this without a reason and not telling Dearka," Kira answered.
"How about you Lacus? You saw how those two acted whenever they're together, they're always so in love. You're a girl so you should know how other girls think. Would you suddenly cheat on your boyfriend like that?" asked Athrun.
"No of course I wouldn't do that! Why Athrun are you saying that only girls cheat? Your sentence you're a girl so you should know how other girls think sounded like you did." replied Lacus with a small smile playing on her lips.
"No! I didn't mean that…I meant…I meant…Oh you know what I meant!" cried Athrun looking exasperated.
"I'm just kidding Athrun. You should lighten up a little!" giggled Lacus while Kira chuckled softly.
"Ok ok. Now back to the why I'm here. Since Dearka isn't feeling any better and I think Miriallia also is the same, I thought of having a party! We won't tell them about inviting the other one so they'll have to meet and Dearka has to give Miriallia a chance to explain! We'll just tell them that it's a sort of reunion thing but we won't invite the other one," Athrun said excitedly.
'That's a great idea! We can also tell them that we're having separate parties for them so that they won't get suspicious!" replied Kira.
"I don't know…It seems like we're meddling in their love lives. We might make things worse." said Lacus.
"Well we have to do something or else they'll really hate each other forever," said Kira.
"Well…ok I guess just as long as we won't do anything drastic. Ok?" replied Lacus.
"Yeah!" agreed Athrun and Kira.
Well that's all everyone! Hoped you liked it! I tried to make it long but I'm not sure if it's nice…I haven't written anything for awhile now. I know Dearka isn't in this chapter much but I just wanted to let you all know how Mir felt. BTW sorry if it sucks or if it is boring! ☻
I don't know when I'll update the next chapter…but I promise to work on it now! ☺
P.S. Hope you all read my author's notes!
To all who reviewed:
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