EDITED REPOST, 10/24/05… Please leave a review and tell me what you think of the editing!
Disclaimers: Rurouni Kenshin belongs to Nobuhiro Watsuki-sama
Warnings: Sexual content ahead. You are now entering a rated M chapter, so if you are sensitive to this kind of material do not read any further.
CHAPTER 22
"First tell me who did this to you." His hands still sat reassuringly on either side of her face, holding her to meet his intense gaze.
"I can't—" Kenshin barely gave her a second to even explain herself before interrupting, his anger ever-growing. "Kaoru, don't start that with me again!" His temper flared but he was careful not to hurt her. "This time you are going to tell me EVERYTHING."
"I never said otherwise, Kenshin, but that comes into focus later on, though." Not looking very happy about her response, he seemed to accept it just for the time being. It was only fair for him to listen to her now. With a keen nod from the one that sat beside her, she began her side of the story, one that was filled with much woe, and anger.
"To answer the question that you've been asking since we first met, yes I knew of Enishi back in high school too. First off I wasn't exactly the most popular girl around, and Enishi along with his friends, they did all they could to make my life a living hell back then. Just like any stupid teenage girl, I had issues with my self esteem. Other kids automatically assumed I was some stupid rich bitch and they avoided befriending me. Living with a famous family name is hard, really hard." Both his brows raised understandingly into his spiky long bangs. "Tell me about it."
Her slight hands fiddled absently with one other while she began to re-tell the stories of constant torment she painfully endured all because of a slight slip of her tongue. As she spoke she observed her listener's attentive face and how his lips drew together to become a fine thin line expressing the anger he held withdrawn inside. The ever watchful eyes that belonged to Kenshin turned a wonderful shade of amber tainted with amethyst swirls as she re-called the heavy withdrawal process she encountered after the harsh medication that she had been put on. The admiration that surged through his body and into the warmth of her own hand interlocked with his gave her the strength to continue even when her voice faltered. Carefully without missing a single detail she gave explanations of everything starting from being a loner to Enishi knowing of her slight attraction to him. After that chapter in her life she moved onto Kumi-san.
"She was one of the presidents at Kasshin Ryu, and we became very close. She's the one that registered me at this university and found me an apartment here in the city. Kumi-san made sure I had a generous life; she took care of everything Kenshin. She had been a good friend of my parents and it broke her heart to see me the way I was. When I—" Sudden realization dawned on Kenshin, and without purposely intending to sound rude he cut her off to ask if Kumi was by chance related to Tomoe, and Enishi. "Ah, yeah she was. I didn't know that until… well I'll get to that, too." Kaoru's voice was hesitant, her expression unsure as if she wanted to continue but forcefully kept herself from doing so. In her own mind she wanted everything to be stated in sequential order. It would just make more sense.
"I believe she's dead as well," Kenshin informed gravely, exaggerated the bleakness of the situation. Her response came back low, like a haunting whisper that sometimes only the deepest recesses of your subconscious ness can pick up. Like the times you think you've heard something, like your name being called out but aren't quite sure because when you turn to gaze about there is no one around. "I know, Kenshin." Turning her slightly away she continued on. "I met you on my first day of university. We became friends, and then my feelings for you started to grow. I had never really liked anyone that much before so this was awkward and I didn't know what to make of it. It was exciting too, almost like a rush. And then you remember what happened at my apartment?" Kaoru was pretty sure that he didn't need a detailed refresher on that blush worthy event.
"I guess you could say that I was a little upset so it was natural for me to confide in Kumi-san about the situation. But little did I know that the real nightmare was about to begin." The thick curved brush stroke of her lashes fluttered slightly before brushing against the smooth skin of her pale cheeks. She felt Kenshin's warm hand squeeze her own, a reminder of his protective presence urging her to continue. "Kumi-san decided to take the situation into her own hands by confiding in a certain cousin of hers, one that attended the same university. She asked him if he could keep an eye out on me and to make sure that a certain 'Kenshin' didn't cause me anymore trouble."
The once steady amber eyes widened in surprise.
"Don't tell me…"
"Enishi," Kaoru confirmed. She sounded and looked as bland as grey stone. "She told Enishi."
"So he knew this whole time about what happened back at your apartment?"
"Apparently so. In addition to that he also overheard our conversation further proving that we had something going on."
"What conversation!" Kenshin demanded while his bright eyes flickered back and forth uneasily across her face. Kaoru had the intense feeling that he was close to snapping again from the way his eyes would not settle for even the briefest second. "Remember? The one we had in that lecture hall that day?" His reply was drawn out slowly with heavy emphasis that thickly outlined his anger even more. "Enishi HEARD that?"
"Yes he heard it all, he saw everything," she replied dryly. "So can you just imagine what was going through my head when I realized that you were dating his sister? God, I will never forget that day when we were studying and how they both happened to appear out of no where. It felt almost unreal to see him standing there in front of me years later."
Kenshin gingerly rubbed at his own marred cheek, an action that didn't go unseen. However, as curious as she was, she knew better than to question him, but still she found that she couldn't help but wonder whether that red mark on his face had anything to do with the particular person their conversation was revolving around. In his mind and much to his agonizing dismay everything was beginning to come together in a way that made him feel sick with worry. Unexpected events lay ahead, untold and waiting for his reaction. For the first time in a long time Kenshin felt utterly defenseless. He couldn't prepare himself for the onslaught of information he was about to receive. For all he knew it could be bad. Really bad. And now Kaoru was looking at him in a strange way. Realizing that, he quickly shifted his expression and said, "That's why he was acting rude and weird to you that day. He knew you from before, and then Kumi told him…"
"You're going to love this," she said to herself rather than Kenshin. "Enishi eventually approached me at my apartment. He came over, surprising the shit out of me and proposed a plan of action so to speak" Heart fluttering wildly, Kenshin sat there, guessing that the events were about to take a nasty turn knowing that bastard Yukishiro and what he was capable of. "He wanted me to be his girlfriend in exchange to keep the information he knew confidential."
"And you agreed." The statement fell flat out as if to say in other words that she had had dozens of other options available at her fingertips.
Raising her voice in turbulent surprise, she said, "What did you want me to do?" For just a moment his fierceness was matched by her own red hot one as she stared in surprise. But that too faded away for both. "You went on and on about how much you loved Tomoe, how could I ever break you two apart?"
That stung.
Those words struck through the center of his heart, ripping it apart slowly like a jaggedly spiked knife slowly cutting through. Once again Kaoru had been looking out for everyone else except herself. "I wouldn't be the cause of that, I couldn't! Even though you had led me on, and I felt completely heart broken I still remained true to you! I accepted Enishi's offer, and believe me, if I knew what was going to happen after that I would have never agreed. I would have gladly chosen to die bravely instead!"
Kaoru let out a yelp when Kenshin's hands suddenly appeared at her shoulders, gripping tightly and shaking her violently. "Don't you ever say that! Nothing is worse than that Kaoru bel—"
"Don't you dare try to start counseling me!" She yelled back and tried to fight him off. Of course it was useless and she ended up causing herself more pain. He blinked and then as if he suddenly became aware of what he was doing he snatched his hands back ashamedly. Now he was gazing down at them as if they had been burnt by hot coals.
"Just because you've changed, and you've been through a harsh life, and all that… that BULLSHIT," she spat out, "You have no idea what it was like with him. You will NEVER know!" Tears of frustration slipped through her tightly shut eyelids. Kaoru's delicate body went limp with anguish. "You will never know," she echoed with a whisper. This time when Kenshin's voice sounded out it caused the air to quiver with overpowering fury, giving Kaoru an uneasy feeling just like when the air was suddenly eerily warm before a great storm blew over. His voice sounded like it had fallen deeper down his throat, and it reminded her of animal's growl.
"What did he do to you?"
"I... I'm so sick… so sick of crying," she sobbed lightly. Giving into his overpowering masculinity, she threw herself onto his shoulder. The soft scent of his cologne drifted through her nostrils, soothing her while his silky hair caressed her cheek. She gripped more tightly until he complied with her need, and slowly brought his arms up around, pressing her to the comforting solidity of his body. It felt so good to be against Kenshin. The warmth from his was spreading into her hers, and it almost made her shiver as the calmness stilled her nerves. If she died now she knew she would have been in peace. The way his hand was rubbing against her back, it caused her eyes to close and instantly she felt like a small child once again. "Tell me what he did to you." She heard his light words, and his lips brushed her ear as he nestled his face into her hair. He continued to soothe her and rock her as if hushing a baby. "Just hold me," Kaoru whispered in turn.
"I'm not planning to let you go," he warned. Those words caused her to smile against the fabric of his shirt. Instantaneously her tears were slowing receding now, too and she felt as if she could try to continue but she refused to look up at him. For if she did that she knew she would've completely lost her nerve. "That day, he forced me to give him those marks and then he did the same to me. He made me wear his t-shirt, and told me that I better show it off to you somehow. I'll never forget the expression on your face when you saw it. I was dying inside Kenshin; he forced me to do it even though I was crying. I didn't want to and I felt disgusted and… and violated. But that only seemed to drive him even more."
This new information made Kenshin dizzy with hatred. He didn't know how much more he could hear before truly snapping. That would not be a pretty sight for anybody. His arms tightened around Kaoru, clinging onto her as if she were his sanity that was slowly slipping away.
"The night of our study session at their house, he gave me his credit card while you were busy arguing with Tomoe. He told me to buy something sexy and to wear it to Sano's party. Kenshin, I hate to make this all about me, and my feelings but—"
"You aren't," Kenshin cut in, informing her otherwise.
"I was feeling so hurt when you and Tomoe headed upstairs."
"Wha— oh…" There was silence on his end while he digested that bit.
"I was hurting. I was jealous. Why couldn't I have a normal relationship like that? I was stuck with that bastard while you fell for his deceit and rubbed it in my face."
"Please Kaoru," Kenshin struggled with the obvious pain. He rubbed his stubble free chin against her hair. "Forgive me," he breathed.
And he doesn't even know the rest…
"You obviously know what happened at Sano's party. Even after we argued you still defended me. I had hope, you know. But then he dragged me off upstairs and you know the rest of that. I just," she paused and sighed. "I just thank Kami-sama that you stopped him in time."
But he had his way with me…
"For the billionth time I was feeling like shit because that next morning things didn't go so smooth for us. First Tomoe saw us in bed together but it hadn't even been like that. Everything that I had sacrificed had almost gotten blown over. I was scared of what Enishi might do to me so I went home for a couple minutes only to shower but that was all. I came back much later in the evening." Something in her eyes darkened. The lively blue fell into midnight, a color that gave Kenshin a foreboding feeling about what she was about to say next. Anxiously he sat, but patiently he waited to hear all the sins of her words. "Apparently he had gotten inside through the staff, god knows how okay, and there he was waiting for me…" Trailing off with that last sentence, Kaoru looked away. This was it. Everything was about to reach the climatic point and she felt so ashamed that she had to take her eyes off of his. No way could she look him in the eye now.
Kenshin had an awful sinking feeling. Slowly he moved away so that he could look into her watery blue eyes but she avoided them. It pained him so much. It truly felt as if someone was ripping off his skin slowly, taking their time to enjoy it.
"Enishi had another proposition for me." Kaoru backed a little away from Kenshin, who was staring at her with a thousand questions in his eyes. The shame, and dirtiness that she was feeling made her want to crawl underneath the couch and disappear so she wouldn't have to face the never ending sorrow that lingered in his lovely but sad eyes.
"Why did you move aw—"
"He wanted me to sleep with him," she interrupted.
There. It was out. Finally.
She braced herself but when she opened her eyes she met the fires of hell burning right in front her. "He… nani?" Kenshin questioned quite sanely. If it weren't for the telltale color of his eyes she would have thought that he wasn't as surprised.
No matter what I must not look at him… I can't look at him. No way could she stand the pressure to tell him what happened next. "He promised that he would take care of Tomoe and feed her some crap story if we had sex. Apparently he had lied to her about who he had fought with at the party so it was easy for him to lie to her again. I was reminded once more, courtesy of Enishi, how his sister's wrath would be absolutely unbearable if she found out about you, and I. Imagine what other shit he'd pull off. He'd convince her that you and I did a hell of a lot more and god knows what else…" Kaoru slowly trailed off allowing herself to catch her breath before she declared the next few words out loud.
"So I had sex with Enishi."
Red hot shame burned at her cheeks. Her body was urging her to run away and never look back but that was way out of the question now. So she did the one thing that would let her escape but only for a brief permitted moment.
She closed her eyes.
Everything was absolutely quiet save for her deep breath that seemed to be louder than the blood rushing in her ears. Kaoru waited several seconds, hoping that Kenshin would just get it over with and rage out all his emotions but all she was met with was deafening silence. Alas she bit her bottom lip and slowly lifted her head allowing her eyes to carefully look ahead.
And what she saw caused her voice to choke back in her throat.
The disheveled looking being that sat beside her was no longer human… he was demonic.
Twin yellow fires sparked from the depths of the underworld burned coldly through her body. His deathly pale face hung dangerously close to her own, so close that she could feel his jagged inconsistent burning breath upon her cheek. He looked…possessed and ready to strike. This look, without a doubt was what caused fear to strike the most strongest of hearts.
The eyes of a mad killer.
"Kenshin… you're scaring me," Kaoru fumbled with her words and tried to get up; desperation drove her but an iron like grip brought her flying back down painfully. She winced.
His voice changed. It came out deep, and low, rumbling like thunder and she could feel her own eyes widening like a deer's upon hearing it. It was as if Kenshin was no longer in that body, as if something else much older and evil had awoken the dark side of his soul.
This was Hitokiri Battosai.
"You allowed Yukishiro Enishi to touch you? To fuck you?" The words slid coarsely out of his mouth like sandpaper shaving at her open wounds. She tried again to get up, to move away but each and every time he jerked her back to face his menacing wrath.
Pressing her quivering lips together, holding back the tears that threatened to spill, she said, "Don't say it like that Kenshin that's not the way it was."
But it was the truth.
It hadn't been making love, nor was it sex. Enishi had manipulated her, toyed with her and eventually forced her to make a decision that not only scarred her physically but mentally and emotionally.
"How could you?" His fingers clenched into her wrist so hard that she was sure there would be indents imprinted onto her skin.
"Did you want him that bad that you allowed it to happen?"
"No!" She cried out completely horrified by his ludicrously savage accusation.
"Why?" His eyes bore into hers dully.
"Why?" the question was repeated, his body quaking with violent tremors.
"Kenshin stop it please, you're hurting m—"
"Am I now? Am I really? It hurts you right now? Did it hurt when he was fucking you? Did you hurt then too?"
"Yes!" She screamed, sheer terror took over her body and she instantly stopped her struggles. Kaoru's terror filled eyes met with the ex-assassins as she relived those terrible moments once again. The memory had replayed itself several times, never failing to bring a cold clamminess to her body. "It hurt when he touched me, it hurt when he forced himself inside of me and it hurt when he left me there lying broken and dead!" Deep guilt. It was all deep guilt.
Complete silence enveloped the two. All the shock gathered up into one big bolt and Kenshin absorbed it instantly. He recoiled. It was almost as if the mask had been peeled away revealing the subtle, gentle Kenshin once again. "I'm sorry," he murmured while backing away. "I'm sorry."
Kenshin disappeared out of her direct sight, and wandered off presumably into the kitchen. Left alone to herself, Kaoru put a hand to her head and slumped back into the heavily upholstered couch. This was all a mistake. I should have never came here, he obviously can't handle anything right now because of Tomoe's death and I haven't even begun on that yet. No, I have to get out of here, she warned herself reassuringly.She made up her mind, and slowly made her way towards the door. Though she didn't look back to check on his state, Kenshin had been watching her carefully and was now struggling with the assumption that she was soon to be heading out that same door.
"Where are you going?"
His voice halted her cold in her tracks.
"Stop," she commanded. She'd heard his approaching footsteps. "Don't follow me. I want you to leave me. I need to be alone right now."
Carefully with deliberate slowness, Kaoru turned her head over her shoulder, and observed his expression, how he was fighting hard to keep his sanity but he was just barely winning. Her body stiffened in terror when she realized that the fragile hold he had could snap again at any second. The thought truly scared her like nothing else ever had. Shaking in his trembling hands was a glass cup filled with what she presumed to be more alcohol. Kaoru calmly told herself again that it was really time to be going now. Just turn around. Look away, and turn around.
"I'm sorry…"
It sounded out as a light whisper and he ran his fingers through his un-kept hair.
"Please," he began again, his free hand reaching out but catching onto nothing but the air that separated them. Kaoru shook her head and tried to drown out the rest of his words as she continued to somewhat limp towards the door. "You can't go like that, you're injured. Let me at least take care of you. Please Kaoru, I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me."
From the corner of her eye she saw the glass move, but that was the only warning she received. It dropped onto the tiles of the entryway sending bits and pieces of shards everywhere. She turned with the full intent to give him a piece of her mind but stopped. The sight before her eyes caused her heart to throb with agony.
"Please don't leave me. I feel as if slowly going insane. Please don't leave me, Kaoru…"
Kenshin was on the floor. Crying. Actual clear rivulets were streaming down his rosy cheeks.
C'mon Kaoru just LEAVE! Open the door, and go! Instinctively by her thoughts alone she put her hand on the cool metal debating on what to do. His light sobs filled her ears, and sunk her heart fully; it was more than she could take.
Kaoru went to him, kneeling down by his side.
He looked so vulnerable. No longer was he a man, instead a lost little boy had taken his place. The moment their eyes met, the moment dusk and dawn hit, she threw herself into his open, waiting arms.
"Don't leave me," Kenshin whispered against her hair. "Don't ever leave me. Tomoe is already gone and you've sacrificed so much for me. You've suffered so much Kaoru, so so much when you're already torn up inside. I'll never forgive myself for either of the crimes that were committed against the both of you."
Kaoru could feel him pulling away from her shoulder and. She didn't want this moment of complete madness and comfort to end. But he shut his eyes and she understood his intent just as he learned forward to kiss her. It felt so good, so right to be against his lips. He pulled at hers with a need, a deep hungry urgency to feel her real flesh against his. We can't do this, her instincts screamed, he needs to know everything; he needs to know the truth!
"Kenshin…"
When she spoke she did not remove her lips from his as she lacked the strength to separate from his powerful embrace. Instead she talked against them, brushing them with a soft tender touch that caused a sigh to be emitted from him. "We need to talk. There's more you—"
"God, Kaoru. I don't want to hear anything more, I don't want to feel anything else except you here with me tonight. I can't… I can't take it if you say no. Please don't leave me or push me away, koishii," he murmured huskily against her neck. Aroused with so many new senses, Kaoru inwardly sighed but knew the situation was getting the better of her. For god's sake Kaoru, he has a right to know how his girlfriend died! TELL HIM!
"Kenshin—"
"That's right. I don't want to hear another word coming out of your mouth unless it's my name. Promise you won't leave me. Promise me," he begged desperately. He wanted to hear it from her mouth. Her body arched in pleasure when he planted soft kisses along the sensitive flesh of her soft inviting neck. Flashes of red imprinted against her closed eyes and Kaoru sharply opened them, wide, but she did not take her body back. Instead she let him explore her neck and chest.
"Kenshin."
It sounded out as a sigh.
"Promise me."
"I promise!" she moaned sharply. "Oh god, Kenshin this is serious," she urged.
The three words that he used to answer her back sounded out clearly and as solid as an unmovable boulder.
"So am I."
Before her mind got the chance to register what he was doing next, she was in his arms and was being delicately carried towards his bedroom. The sparkling mess behind them was left carelessly forgotten.
"Kenshin, I really think that this is wrong, an—"
"To hell with what's right, and wrong," he cut her off yet again to her dismay. "I can't live like that anymore because life is too short and I don't want a day to go by living in regret. If I let you go now this WILL be my biggest regret. I need you." He leaned forward, and kissed her hungrily, devouring her lips, lavishing them with his tongue. That one action left her dizzy while her body craved for more of the erotic poison that was flowing through her veins. Lightly turning them over with his delicate movements, he allowed for Kaoru to sit on top of him, figuring that would be best so that her wounds could not hinder them.
"I don't want Enishi to hurt you or touch you ever again. THIS was the last straw," Kenshin forewarned protectively as his fingers ran across her stomach, smoothing over her wound with a touch as light as a butterfly's. Shock covered her from head to toe. He thinks Enishi is the one who hurt me! Dear god, he has it all wrong! I have to stop him! We have to stop this! Now! She struggled on top of his body but only succeeding in arousing both her and him further. Biting her lip in frustration and to keep from sounding out her pleasure, she wearily tried to get another word in. "But he—"
Kenshin's ever growing persistence kept her from discussing the matter further. Desperately his lips tugged at her own till she was forced to part them, allowing his tongue to further access her mouth. All the while the deep internal nagging was still there and she was feeling both better and worse as the seconds slipped by. This is so wrong, Kaoru told herself. But her body was no longer listening. It accepted that what Kenshin was doing was feeling good, feeling terribly goodIt had a mind of its own, reacting to his touch and giving Kenshin satisfaction, and fulfilling his yearning need.
But the impulse grew.
He needed more and this became quite apparent when he released her scrumptious behind to unzip her free from the concealing sweatshirt. Every action ached her heavy heart even more. She didn't have it inside to persist. Something was telling her to just give in and accept what he was holding out to her. He needs me, she finally realized, mentally and physically he needs me and by god, I think I need him too. Finally her barrier broke and Kaoru let herself be set free.
Fighting no more, she gave in.
Suddenly becoming aware of his strong fingers, though they were rough, they danced upon her back, trailing up her creamy skin to the black clasp that concealed her heavenly chest. "Kenshin…" she groaned a light protest. It was meant to come out seriously but his yielding touch was arousing all areas of her body. "Let me make love to you," he whispered huskily into her ear, nipping gently with his teeth. "I'd never hurt you. I only want to wash away your troubling memories of Enishi by giving you the utmost pleasure." He then groaned into her throat as she carefully removed the elastic band that was anchoring the few remaining strands of silky red. "Fuck… Kaoru," he swore, expressing just how hard he was holding back till he had full consent. "If you don't say yes I think I might go crazy. I need you Kaoru, like air and water. I need you so bad.
How could she deny him of what he was begging for when she was so heated, and overcome inside? He wanted to please her, to make her feel like she never felt before.
But…
There it was again to pick at her nerves but Kenshin threw that all aside when she felt his hands tug at the black stretchy band of her bra. A slight click and it unhooked, coming undone within his fingers. The bra cups fell away revealing the full curves of her pale skin. In turn Kaoru's face turned red and she tried to use her arms to cover herself making Kenshin sigh and he brushed them aside with his hand. "You have such a beautiful body don't be ashamed of showing it."
"It's not…that," she murmured with her head turned the other way. "Oh?" He raised his eyebrows, and slipped a hand beneath her chin guiding her to his light eyes. "Then what is it?" he asked. When she tried to reply it came out disfigured. Kenshin smirked on, bringing her body down against him so that he could taste the newly revealed skin. His hot, wet mouth suckled gently at her rosy breasts while his free hands teased the other till it became erect beneath his touch. Kaoru bit back a moan, her mind telling her to stop while her body shook with pleasure. Kenshin continued to tease her, flicking his tongue like a sensual snake. She was becoming more and more aware of the bulging strain that was beginning to push against the center of her heat. Her hips seemed to guide themselves by rocking back with an intense, rhythmic motion. Kenshin voiced his need through another groan, his body demanding for more. Strong hands were back on her behind, pushing her down to meet his clothed erection.
They continued to play around, tantalizing and tempting another till Kaoru could take no more of it. Her emotions were pushed over the edge. The need to feel his bare skin against hers was overwhelming. She wanted to feel him, all of him against her, melded together as one. Solving the problem that her fiery body had created, she extended her hands to unbutton his shirt hastily. "Take your time," Kenshin murmured between tasty mouthfuls of her exotic skin. The faint aroma around her tinged his nostrils with baby white musk. It was such a pleasant smell that he wished he could have delved into her, whole. Clumsily his inexperienced lover fumbled with his tightly stitched buttons but when he brought his hands to guide her, the task became much easier. Soon enough his upper body was exposed to her pure, sensual delight. Hungrily she ran her palms up and down his firm chest, reaching behind to caress his back as he pulled her down to devour her well swollen lips.
"Kenshin… I feel so hot," the words floated from her mouth as her back arched when he ran his fingers across her chest. Without further prodding, his hands reached above and unzipped her jeans which he casually threw aside within a matter of seconds. Wildly his hands groped the soft skin of her firm behind. One slid beneath her cotton thong, and followed up but stopped just before the front. He fingered the dampness of the fabric, his mind slowly losing all boundaries of patience as the primal instinct screamed to take over. Kenshin warned himself to take control. The last thing Kaoru really needed was wild, savage sex. She deserved the complete art of love making and all the sweetening rewards involved. When he ceased all hand movements it left her writhing within his grasp. "Kenshin… Don't…" the hoarse plead whispered off her lips.
"Don't what?" He demanded to know. Even if she had truly wanted to there was no way to stop Kenshin now. He was persistent. He wanted her. She gasped when she felt his tongue moving in a circular motion against her erect nipple.
"What Kaoru? Tell me," he whispered deeply and her eyes flew open to find amber swirled eyes staring hypnotically at her. He captivated her completely as if she were under a spell and no matter how badly she wanted to look away from his compelling eyes she found that she couldn't. Nor could she utter the words. Her cheeks burned with want, and shame. "Tell me…" he drew out slowly but forcefully. Kaoru's long black hair fluttered about when she shook her head. With one stroke of his finger he received a verbal answer but not the specific one that he was looking for. His eyes held hers magnetically as he questioned her carefully again.
"What do you want?"
Gleaming sapphire eyes were lit with lust and they seemed to stare at him accusingly as if to say 'you know exactly what I want… don't make me say it'. He smirked when his second touch caused her to roll her eyes to the back of her head while her whole body arched. "I don't want you to stop," she managed to whisper shakily.
"Look at me and tell me." Her long lashes fluttered but stayed only half open. Kenshin felt his lips tug again at her teasing response. "I… I was going to say that I don't want you to stop," she answered finally. Kenshin smirked when she boldly placed her hand atop his. "Why'd you stop me in the first place?" he growled before smugly smiling again, giving it all to her with an experienced touch. Not even pausing slightly once, Kenshin continued with his touch, his lips kissing her flat constricted stomach. It was so agonizingly delicious. Oh and did he ever have control. His touch was perfect, his movements impeccable. She succumbed to it, and shifted her hips forward anticipating it. Kaoru's internal muscles buckled as the explosion came close to hitting home but Kenshin, who had the remnants of a smirk at the corner of his lips, slyly took his hand away before she could cry out his name in a way that would surely wake up half the apartment complex. A quick blur, a flutter of movement, and she was pinned underneath his well toned body. Kaoru whimpered at the loss of contact but he hushed her quietly with a kiss. Kenshin carefully pressed one knee between her legs, spreading them evenly apart, loving every bit of her body that was exposed to his ever torturous touch.
Off came her remaining undergarment along with his pants. Kaoru knew it wasn't very polite of her to stare at him while he slipped off his black boxers but her eyes couldn't avoid the sight. And such a lovely sight it was. Kenshin was a well grown man. One of Kami-sama's finer breeds, Kaoru thought and nearly giggled out loud. "Are you alright?" Kenshin paused while leaning over her to ask. His eyes keenly took in the sight of the goddess that lay before him. Her cheeks were abnormally flushed; her lips plump from the constant tug of his while her hair was a mass of shining black that framed her head, stretching outwards like the sun's rays. The thin strands of her black bangs were slick with perspiration but she looked as desirable as ever. Any guy would die to have someone like her, Kenshin thought. One man in particular crossed his mind, and his eyebrows knitted closely together.
"Kenshin…?"
"Hai?" He looked back down to his goddess who lay perfectly still atop the crisp bed sheets, the troubling expression completely gone from his face as if it had never been there in the first place. "Umm… are YOU alright?" She questioned him carefully while toying her fingers around his red silken strands. "Hai, I am. What about you Kaoru? How are you feeling with everything?" He stared into her blue eyes examining her face carefully for any hidden emotions. Once again the truth was biting at her, begging to be set loose but Kaoru did not heed it. "Everything is right except that… I guess I'm a little scared, and nervous."
"I said I wouldn't hurt you, remember?" Although her body instantly flooded with warmth and admiration for his kind, protective attitude she knew that it just might not be enough. "I know that but this might be something that you can't help."
"I'm almost offended. You should know me better, Kaoru." The devious smirk was back on his face and she couldn't help herself as it contagiously caught on. Without another word he continued where he left off stroking at her heated folds, the pressure point of her pleasure. It mounted, and escalated till she could no longer hold back. Kenshin chose that heightened moment to withdraw his hand and slowly enter her for the first time. Kaoru met his immediate thrust with an arch, and she gasped lightly. It hadn't hurt like she thought it would've. In fact it filled her, and she yearned for his length to stretch its way deeper inside. "Are you alright?" He managed to question her through a clenched jaw, beads of perspiration already building up above his brows. Kenshin was quickly losing himself amidst the tightness of her body. Her walls constricted around his member in such an agonizing way. Sooner or later he was going to go mad with desire if he didn't hurry, and work his way through. "Hai, never better," Kaoru sighed softly as she placed her arms around his shoulders lowering him down closer to her. His thrusts began at a steady pace that left her completely breathless. Every time he thrust inwards her breath hitched. "God, Kenshin… I want to feel you… completely," she drew out slowly, seductively, knowing fully that her words were kindling the burning fire located deep inside his body. "Lift up your legs," he commanded. She complied slowly, teasingly, and he gave her a rather amused look before wrapping the slender silkiness around his waist. She hugged his glistening body tightly to hers calling out his name over, and over like a spell in his ear. In turn he slowly began to relax some of his weight onto Kaoru, thinking that it was safe to do so.
"Unh!"
"What's wrong?" His lust-drunk eyes sobered instantly while he frantically searched her. "My cut…" she breathed out uneasily. Kenshin shifted back his weight, and lowered his eyes apologetically. "Gomen."
"It's alright," she returned softly as she rubbed at his smooth cheek.
The mood picked itself up again as he worked his way back into a steady rhythm but with her growing demands he increased the speed and soon Kaoru's moans were echoing off the walls.
"Oh god… Kenshin, I don't want you to stop. Oh god," she groaned.
He did not dare to deny her of anything and it pleased him immensely to know that she was in complete heaven. He carefully repositioned them again so that Kaoru was sitting up on top of him— and looking quite sexy, he noted. Gently, skillfully with his hands at her hips he guided Kaoru's body to move in a steady tempo working her way up and down his full, hardened length. The emphatic moans from her mixed with his steady groans were almost enough to drive each another madly over the edge. Kaoru felt the tension in his grip change. His face ever so slightly contorted as he breathed deeply to contain himself and allow Kaoru to catch up before giving into the bountiful pleasure that was lay so very close. Within a few fast pounding assaults her muscles contracted, and with a final loud moan her cup ran over. The orgasmic waves coated her body with pure bliss.
Kenshin let himself go with his eyes closed, the pressure shooting from his body deep inside of hers, stimulating it to give her one final shudder of sweet release. When his eyes slowly opened he found Kaoru leaning back, smoldering eyes staring intently at him, one hand tangled within her mass of raven hair. "Come here," he called out to her softly as he lifted her up, and off his flaccid body, snuggling her in comfortably by his side. With one hand he reached down to grab the comforter to cover their naked, sweat coated bodies. He protectively placed his arms around her slim waist, kissing her damp forehead.
Kaoru listened in to the descending beat of his heart as the time slipped by. When it lulled to a quiet steady rhythm she moved herself closer to the warmth he was radiating. Her mind tried to desperately comprehend everything that had just happened but it was difficult. I did try to tell him but… and now isn't a good time. Right now would be the worst time. Just forget it for now Kaoru. What good is worrying going to do? There's absolutely nothing promising that could come out of it if you open up your mouth now. Just wait for the next opportune moment.
The most obvious thought struck her then, and she instantly panicked.
The man beside her whose eyes had been firmly shut but had yet to fall asleep felt her body alarmingly stiffen against his. His light voice startled her from her panicky thoughts. "Is something the matter?" She carefully turned her head, and saw the concerned look placed in his lavender eyes. "Yes, protection," she replied quickly and swallowed. "Shit," Kenshin swore. He angrily ran his fingers through his wild, loose red hair. "Damn it Kaoru, I got carried away. I'm an idiot. Tomorrow we'll have to stop by the pharmacy." His hand dropped to rest upon her own cool strands. After she didn't say anything he apologized again. "I'm sorry Kaoru. I meant to be a bit more responsible about this but I—"
"Lost control," she finished for him. "Yes I know. It should be ok. I should have some pills left over… from…" She didn't bother to finish her sentence. Kenshin chose to remain quiet, too, for the sake of not bringing up that jackass's name especially since they were both riding on a delicate situation. "I thought you fell asleep on me." She tried to break the uncomfortable silence by muttering softly.
"No. I was waiting for you first. I'd wait till sunrise if I had to. I'd do anything for you." The sweet confession caused the butterflies in her stomach to tingle. She pressed her lips to his bare shoulder and remained cuddled comfortably against the curve.
"Kaoru?"
"Yeah?" She answered without moving to look.
"You can tell me anything, you know. Are you alright with what just happened between us?" Kenshin was unable to see her expression which was filled with utter confusion. "It's a little too late to be asking that isn't it," she replied without thinking. Her mind had slipped elsewhere to Satoshi and Tomoe…
"Kaoru…" The hurt reflected off his widened lavender eyes. She heard the pain in his voice and hurriedly tried to fix her mistake. "I don't mean it like that, Kenshin. I'm sorry, that came out the wrong way. I don't regret anything and if anything I'm happy that we got to share this moment together."
Because it's probably the only moment we will ever have for a long time… or forever. Many things have been left open…
"Are you sure?" She kissed his bare chest, a light intimate action to prove her words. "Yes I'm sure."
Kenshin calmly waited till her breath steadied before letting his body succumb to the sleep that was pulling at him urgently. Kaoru may have been able to think that she had fooled him but his thoughts were troubled, and unsettled by the uneasiness of her last response. His mind dissolved into nothingness and he was soon fast asleep, arms wrapped around the delicate woman that lay beside him.
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Yes… things will not stay pretty for very long. The situation between Kenshin and Kaoru got the better of the both of them. And I don't think Kenshin is going to be very happy when he finds out the truth… and how he finds out…
I received a ton of reviews for my last chapter and I was really surprised but happy at the effort that you guys all put in! Thank you very much! As always they mean the world to me and I truly appreciate it. I cannot express how much reviews mean to me. When I receive them I know that people are reading therefore it makes me want to keep on writing to please everyone, and to hopefully meet their expectations and add a little fun to their day.
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Now for my individual thank you's:
royal blueKitsune: Lol, your comment totally sounded like cheerleading! It was cute! Thank you : ) And hey Linay put up 'Complete Me'! Dances with you I got the alert right in the middle of writing this comment so I had to take a big break to read and review!
Mooing Bunny Rabbit: Yes I'm evil aren't I with all these damn cliffhangers. But it makes things much more interesting! Thank you very much for wishing me well on my job! Hugs So far I've been working pretty much every day but hey it keeps me busy and I really do want to buy a puppy… lol. Hehehe yes the bad guys are always sexy aren't they? I wouldn't mind an Enishi myself… Kenshin would be better of course ; )
erica6060: Hmm looks like Kaoru didn't get the chance to voice the truth JUST YET which will only make it worse later on… but it adds to the drama! Thanks for the review! Muah!
Snow Lepord: Aww, I'm sorry I've been taking so long to update! Thank you for waiting patiently though and sticking with me! Thank you for the review! I hope you like this chapter.
Reignashii: Woohoo for finals being over but… S.A.T.'s? Oh man I've heard, and seen in several movies, lol, that those are really hard. I hope you did well on yours though! Lol good for you and your friend! There's some motivation for you now Reignashii so go beat her to it and post a story up hon!
Mizz-Clumsy: Oooh someone finally came out of the closet! Just kidding ; ) It takes a lot of nerves though to actually say what you said. I am not mad at all, I am actually grateful for you committing the time to sit down and write that long review. It is very much appreciated! Yes the problem count seems to be rising doesn't it?
T3H KIMCHI: I don't think your love for Kenshin will grow that much because of this chapter and his foolishness. I hope you liked this chapter overall though! Thanks for reviewing!
Tameka-tanuki-jouchan: Hey you! It's about time for you to update too! Oh wait never mind school comes first :p I'll be waiting for your next chapter though ok? Thanks for leaving a review : )
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animeguzman: I love cliffhangers as well! Just as you said, they give the story excitement. I hope you like this chapter and thank you for reviewing!
lyn: Thank you Lyn. I have written a little more in this chapter.
joann: Hi! Thank you for leaving a review! I hope you like this chapter and I hope you feel that it didn't take toooo long.
Kinomoto: Thanks for leaving a review! Hmmm not TOO many explanations just yet. If everything came out in this chapter it wouldn't have been that exciting. Best to save a little for later so I can make it all the more dramatic.
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Phi-Dono: You really are a sweet heart! You leave such nice, big reviews it truly warms my heart! I love the fact that you point out your favorite bits! It's really nice feedback to receive! I hope you like this chapter… and once again not all the problems are resolved just yet. Sounds kind of hopeless doesn't it? Well to tell you the truth and since I doubt that readers really go through ALL of these comments at the bottom, I will let you in on a little secret. This story will have a sequel. I decided that some time ago. Just a little warning that not everything will all be peachy by the end…so a sequel will be required. Thanks again for the awesome review!
anime pixie: Thanks for the comment! Hehe I love cliffhangers. I'm evil. I hope you liked this chapter!
crest fallen212: Yes I admit it I am evil for leaving these cliffhangers but… it's so fun! Gosh that probably sounds horrible but then it does make it all the more interesting doesn't it? Thanks for being a committed reviewer! I appreciate it a bunch: )
Ju-Yeon 15: I hope you liked this chapter! Lol Enishi looks mighty fine in my dreams with a body like heaven! I hope you finished all those projects on time and received good marks! Yes school can be overwhelming at times can't it? Well summer holidays should be around the corner right? Thanks for reviewing!
Sosoru: I had to do a double take when I read the name 'Sosoru' on the review. I was like holy cow and being the dork that I am I ran to my boyfriend and jumped around like a rabid fan girl. I try to make him read Kenshin fan fiction but it doesn't really work. He's also a git because he doesn't review but I think he has read your story because I kept telling him to because it's AWSOME! I'm deeply honored that you reviewed my crap story because compared to yours this is dirt. Hey and please update 'The Devil Wears a Pinstriped Suit'. For those of you who haven't read it, read it damnit!
Pixel-the-evil-fairy: Aww, that's really sweet and cute that you print out my story and make time to review! I know you are an avid reviewer and I thank you for that. Muah!
Silent Tears of Agony:p That comment scared the sh!t out of me at first! Ahh I'm sorry! I hope you liked this chapter though! And phew, please don't scare me again like that :D Just playin' : )
Xujin: I'm glad that you found the last chapter emotional in different ways. Thank you for commenting on that it totally made my day… or should I say evening since it is 2 a.m.? Early morning? Ah, you get my point ; ) Thanks for reviewing Xu!
Immortal-Blood: Thanks for reviewing! Is something wrong with your internet? Or are you just busy with school? Well I hope you like this chapter!
kara mcpherson: Lol yes you had a good point about the whole bleeding stuff which I um, didn't really think about but since you have a medical mind I'm sure that's why you figured it out first. Um ah… I hope you can try to pretend with me that everything went well even though it feels like it's not realistic. Sorry about that! But I hope you liked this chapter nonetheless!
Silentdreamer: Hello! Thank you for reviewing and I hope you liked this update!
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Kaoru4: Hmm I liked how you said that you hoped Kaoru didn't hold back… but she sort of did but Kenshin is really to blame because he didn't ALLOW her to even finish properly. He assumed that Enishi did the rest and did not let her correct him. Of course that will make more problems arise in the near future… Thanks for the review!
If I forgot anyone please accept my deepest, sincere apologies. Muah to everyone that reviewed. You are on the 'loved' list while the rest of you lazy… blah, never mind, I'm not going to waste my time.
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