AGAIN:
This is confusing (even I was confused) so:
This is James
This is Lily
This is Remus
This is Casey
This is Sirius
This is Natalie
This is Peter
Sorry if it confused you! Read and please Review!
James walked up to his dormitory and flopped down onto his bed. What if they're right? What if Lily really won't ever accept me? I can't imagine ever loving anyone besides her, James thought. I need to try something different, something she won't be able to refuse! But what is that? I have to find out something!
Just then, Sirius and Remus walked into the room. James slowly sat up and turned to face his friends.
"Hey guys," James said softly.
"Hey Prongs, how're you doing?" Remus said.
"Not so good."
"Did I miss something? Is something wrong?" Peter asked.
"No! He just feels like this all the time! Of course something's wrong! Where have you been?" Sirius replied with a sarcastic tone.
"Oh, well I have been...busy. What happened?"
"Not much, just Remus and Sirius don't think I deserve Lily, that's all," James answered.
"Prongs, come on, lets not start this again, it's stupid," Remus said.
"Start what? You guys don't believe in me and that's it!"
"We talked about this yesterday! So please Prongs, shut it already, you know we care and we're sorry you feel so lousy!"
"Well thanks, because I do!"
"Again sorry, but we've got something that will make you feel much, much better!" Sirius said with a grin.
Suddenly a tall blond haired girl with sparkling blue eyes walked in. She smiled at James, revealing her perfect white teeth.
"Prongs, I'd like you to meet Julie, she's in Ravenclaw and has agreed to go to Hogsmeade with you!"
"Hey James! We're going to have so much fun at Hogsmeade! I can't wait!" Julie yelled.
"Ummm, I'm not too sure I can make it…." James responded.
"Prongs what are you talking about? Of course you can!"
"No, Padfoot I can't!" James said. "I'm sorry Julie), but I'm in love with someone already," he said, turning to her.
"But, Sirius said you were over her! I thought you wanted to go out with me?" she said sadly.
"It's not like that! The truth is I'm not over her. If I ever am, I'll look you up," he said apologetically.
"Thanks James. Bye," she said as she left the room.
"Prongs what the hell is wrong with you?"
"Do you realize what you just did? That was one of the hottest girls in our whole year!"
"I don't care! The only girl I want is Lily, so stop trying to make me get over her! She's not one of those girls who only want to go out with me because they think I'm hot! She's different! I don't want someone who only cares about my looks! I want someone who actually cares about me and I know that she could be that girl! She's perfect and I knew that the second I first saw her! It's my choice of who I'm gonna love, not yours, so just stay out of my life if you won't accept it!" James yelled with anger.
James ran out of the room with a look of anger in his eyes, and he looked as though he could cry. He ran down many staircases, towards a door leading to a porch. He ran outside and leaned against the side of the building. He covered his face with his hands trying to hide is emotions. He was breathing heavily from exhaustion. There was snow falling slowly to the ground and a refreshing breeze was hitting his face.
"Hello?" someone said, startling James.
"Huh? Oh, sorry! Oh, Hey Lily, what are you doing out here?" James replied uncovering his face startled.
"I'm just getting some fresh air. What are you doing here? Please don't tell me you're here to ask me out again?" Lily said.
"I'm just….hiding from my friends," James said.
"Playing some stupid game aren't you?"
"No, not a game."
"Then why are you hiding from them?"
"Well, don't laugh, but they're trying to set me up with Julie."
"Why would you be hiding? Everyone wants to go out with her! Why don't you? She is like the prettiest girl in our year and I'm sure she'd love to go out with you."
"No, she's not. No one can be as beautiful as you." James said causing Lily to turn a bright shade of red. "Plus I couldn't go out with her."
"Well why not?"
"Because she's not you!" James said laughing, surprised that she didn't know the answer already.
Lily giggled and turned even redder. She and James sat in silence, just looking at each other.
"I have to go, see you later," Lily said finally after a few minutes.
"It was nice talking to you." James replied.
"Bye," Lily said, unable to stop smiling.
Lily walked inside and shut the door behind her. James stared at the closed door with a grin spread across his face. He sat outside for a long time until he slowly fell asleep.
A few hours later, James woke up from the loud sound of girls having a conversation. He sat up and looked at his watch. Seven o'clock! How did I sleep that long? Wow it's cold out here! I think I'll go inside now! He thought. He ruffled his already messy hair and listened attentively to the conversation.
"I know! I can't believe it! I am so excited!"
"You are so lucky Lily!"
"Tell me about it! I wish Jake Roberts had asked me to Hogsmeade! The only person who asked me out was Sirius Black! I still don't know if I want to go with him. Let's just hope James doesn't get mad and beat him up or something!"
"He wouldn't! If he does I swear I will never talk to him again!"
James turned around and stood up. He opened the door and was surprised to see Lily facing him. The smile on her face disappeared as she stared into James' hurt eyes.
"Oh, hi James, I was just –" she said trying to explain.
"Uh, I can't talk, gotta go!" James said walking away quickly.
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I AM SO STUPID! Why was I talking so loudly? Now James hates me! Wait, what am I saying? I want him to hate me! Don't I? Lily thought as she closed her eyes, trying to sleep. It's not like I like him or anything, I mean, I like Jake or at least I will. After Hogsmeade I can forget all about James! I mean Potter! I mean….
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