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I wasn't really satisfied with my first chapter, I hope this is gonna be better.

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Rory's POV

I woke up with a start. I could hear Jess's regular breathing next to me. It had a calming effect on mine which seemed to be pretty much insufficient because I started feeling dizzy. Lack of oxygen I told myself. It happens. I didn´t know if I should wake him up, maybe I was just being paranoid. I shifted in my position, suddenly being extremely afraid. My hand traced down my body, resting on the sheet between my legs. I paused. It was wet. I closed my eyes, trying not to freak out. I slowly switched the light on, looking at my finger tips. The liquid was clear. I let out a deep breath. It wasn't blood. That had to be a good sign, right? The light made Jess stir next to me.

I stayed in my position, afraid to move. I turned my head , trying to keep all my other body parts the way they were.

" Jess?" I whispered, my voice barely audible. Nothing.

"Jess?" I said again, a little louder this time. I started panicking, a sob escaped my mouth.

" Jess?" louder again. He moaned next to me, slightly protesting.

"hmm?" he answered finally, his voice heavy with sleep.

" something's wrong, Jess." this woke him up. He sat up looking at my now tear strained face.

" what do you mean? what's wrong?" he asked panicked.

I swallowed, not able to form the words. Jess switched his lamp on as well.

" god, Rory, what is it? You're scaring me here." I still wouldn´t move.

" my water just broke." I whispered

"I think" I added, almost unsure now.

Jess let out a breath.

" Rory, that doesn't mean something's wrong, does it ?" he sighed in relief.

My voice trembled as I said.

" jess, my water broke… early. I haven't even had one contraction yet. It´s too early." I couldn't hold back the tears that were about to come.

Jess got up from the bed with a jerk, grabbing the phone that was lying on his nightstand.

I could here him push three buttons.

" this is Jess Mariano. I need an ambulance. My girlfriend's pregnant and her water just broke."

He listened to the person on the other end.

" I know, Damnit. But she hasn't had a contraction yet" he voice was uncharacteristically high pitched.

" you got the address ? Yes. Thank you." he hung up the phone and came over to me.

He leaned down to me and whispered in my ear.

" everything's gonna be alright, baby. They say it happens in thirty percents of the pregnancies , you just have to stay like this, they are sending an ambulance, you just mustn't stand up. It´s a precaution thing, no biggie." I could tell that he was extremely nervous, although he tried to cover it.

He hugged me close to his body without lifting me up and told me over and over again that everything would be alright. I couldn't think, I couldn't breath I just stayed like this feeling the wet spot between my legs getting bigger. I shivered.

" are you cold?" I shook my head.

" no, just afraid. Just afraid. What if he's not gonna make it ?" jess closed his eyes, as if he was avoiding mine.

" it would be a lie if I told you I wasn't afraid. But I know everything's gonna be okay, I know it."

" how do you know it, jess. How?" he couldn't answer my question because the doorbell disturbed his thoughts. He got up and opened the door to let the paramedics in.

I heard voices, one of them belonging to Jess.

" yeah, she's in there. On the bed. She's 39 weeks along. No, her gynaecologist told us everything's alright. Nothing out of the ordinary." despite the fear that was growing inside of me I had to smile slightly. I didn´t lie to my mom when I told her he was taking good care of me.

The paramedics entered the room, a man and a woman. Immediately I calmed down. They didn´t run around frantically, they didn´t yell and shout words I wouldn´t understand.

The woman approached me.

" Miss Gilmore, how are you feeling?" she asked while grabbing my wrist to check my pulse.

" afraid, excited.. Should I go on?" I tried to smile at the woman in front of me.

" yeah, I can tell, your heart is speeding really fast, but " she continued as she saw my eyes widen.

" that's not a bad thing, you're just nervous." she squeezed my hand reassuringly.

They lifted me on the stretcher ( is that the word? the dictionary said it was ) as I saw Jess grab the little bag by the door which I had packed a few days ago. Suddenly a pain shot through me, I yelped in pain. The male paramedic looked at me sympathetically.

" seems like that was your first contraction. That's good." that's good.? I swear if I had been able to smack him, I would have. When was the last time he had a baby ? Then it hit me.

" I'm having the baby. Oh my god. I'm having the baby." I grabbed Jess's hand and squeezed it tightly. He looked at me with a pained expression on his face but wouldn´t say a word. Words were indeed a very dangerous thing right now.

Jess rode with me in the ambulance. When we finally arrived in the hospital, he excused himself for a minute to give mom and Luke a call. I still wasn't allowed to get up, and I was getting tired of it. I was tense and bitched around. I knew I was being unfair to Jess, because he was so great about everything, but I couldn't help it. I was in pain Damnit . Jess was everywhere. He went to the vending machine, was standing by my side when I was suffering through my next contraction and got me ice chips whenever I felt like I needed them. Once again I sent Jess out to get me a mars bar, when I heard a voice outside.

" Lorelai Leigh Gilmore ? Where is she?"

" right there. Next door to your right." I heard the nurse tell her. Ah the nurse was really starting to get on my nerves. She was always like " ah honey, keep it up, you're doing great." I do not need to be called honey by a stranger. Jess wouldn´t even call me that.

The door burst open, revealing a very flustered Lorelai Gilmore.

She rushed to my side and welcomed me in a tight embrace.

" ah, my baby is having a baby" she exclaimed while still not letting go of me and I didn´t want her too, I wanted to stay in her arms forever. Here I was to become a mom myself and I couldn't let go of mine. She pulled away reluctantly and looked around the room.

" where's Jess?"

" getting me some chocolate", I mumbled, feeling the next contraction was about to come.

" ah, yes, you are my daughter. I was eating a fat turkey sandwich a couple of hours before I had you. We Gilmore are never in too much pain to not be not able to eat." she smiled at me, wiping the tears away with the back of her hand.

" why are you crying ? I am the one who has to push out something as big as Europe out of my " I got cut off by a very scared looking Jess.

" Jeez, please don´t finish that sentence. I'm begging you here." he had his hands over his ears.

Mom looked at me and laughed

" well, that was kinda funny."

Mom left the room to give Jess and me some privacy.

I was getting more afraid as the minutes passed on. I didn´t know if I was afraid of the birth or of what would come after that.

A little while after Mom had left the room, Jess was sitting next to me reading "Pride and Prejudice" to me, only being interrupted by my contractions that came more frequently now, when the same annoying nurse came in and announced that I was ready. I was pushed into the delivery room and received finally the medication that I had longed for for quite some time now.

" ah, that hurts. I need drugs, god where are the drugs." I yelled all over again while my uterus cramped up again. Jess was standing next to me, feeling totally out of place while he was stroking my hand softly.

" oh, god, I wish I could do anything to help, Ror. Is there anything you want me to do?" he sounded helpless.

" yeah, I want you to shut up." I didn´t know I was all of a sudden yelling at him.

"ok." he said calmly not letting go off my hand.

" and yes, I need you to stay near my head. Don´t you dare try to take a look!" I squeezed his hand while trying to calm my breathing.

"okay, Rory, one last push and you're through with it." the midwife told me.

Jess leaned down and pressed a lip on my forehead .

" you can do it, Ror. I'm right here. I'm here."

The tears that started to fall mixed with the sweat and the sweet feeling of his lips on my forehead.

I grabbed his face and pulled him close.

" I want you to know that despite everything I might have said in the last couple of hours, I love you, Jess. You're the best thing that could have happened to me and I'm so sorry for everything." Jess cut me off. He pressed his lips on mine and whispered into this soft kiss.

" I love you, no matter what."

After one final push , the sound of a crying baby filled the room.

The midwife wrapped the tiny little human being in a blanket and put it on my chest. This time it was Jess who cut off the circulation of my hand when he grabbed it.

" congratulations on your baby boy. He's beautiful. Have you already picked a name?"

Jess smiled at me through tired eyes then looked down at our son.

" yeah, we have." he told the midwife but decided not to reveal the secret.

I had a boy, I still couldn't get it. We had a son. I should be happy but why did it suddenly feel so wrong that Jess seemed to be more excited than I was? Why did I suddenly have the feeling as if this small kid, with his bright blues eyes and his already thick brown hair didn´t belong to me. At . All ?

So? What do you think? I enjoyed writing this chapter, but tell me what you think, please. REVIEW!and yes, i´m still unsure of the name, suggestions please.