Titel: Trust
Summary: Sakura likes Syaoran, but convinced herself of the opposite, when she figures out, he doesn't trust her at all. While capturing the cards, and living her hard life, Syaoran has to seek the truth behind all the mess. SS ET R&R
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AN: What is Tomoyo up to anyway?
Chapter Six
Emotional Confessions
Sakura was in her secret place in the schoolyard, trying to relax. It was very silent, the rest of the school was to far off to hear. She lay flat on the ground, arms spread, staring at the clouds that were partly visible between the trees.
She was startled when she suddenly heard a voice.
'Kinomoto!'
She sat upright and was standing in less then a second, a bit surprised about the fact that it was Meilin who yelled her name so harshly.
'What the hell do you think you're doing?' Meilin shouted, still on her way to Sakura, who wondered how Meilin had found this place at all.
Sakura looked quite dumbfounded, but that didn't stop Meilin.
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Tomoyo was searching for Sakura, and it surprised her that she came at the same time as Meilin did at Sakura's secret hiding spot. She saw Meilin coming towards Sakura – really pissed off – and Sakura, as usual, had no idea what this was about.
Tomoyo didn't know what to do now. She was doubting to go there, and tell Sakura what she had figured out, or stay here, to see what was going to happen.
I guess it isn't so strange for her to choose for the last option.
So she hid behind one of the bushes, not knowing she was already discovered by a certain someone.
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Sakura stood stiff and defensive in front of Meilin, who was obviously up to something. She had yet to figure out what that something was.
'You have to learn a little lesson, Kinomoto! Do you have any idea what you've done to Syaoran?' Meilin screamed.
It was good that they had this fit away from the rest of the school grounds, although Sakura wasn't so sure anymore that no one could here Meilin, for her voice was very loud and high.
Sakura was about to open her mouth, when she saw Syaoran and Eriol running up to them, hearing what Meilin was yelling.
Meilin didn't notice and still came closer to Sakura, grabbing the front of her coat, towering over her. 'You have hurt him! Don't you even know that he l…!'
Meilin was rudely cut off when Syaoran and Eriol covered her mouth and pulled her of Sakura. 'Meilin, what are you doing, be quite for gods sake! Not everyone needs to hear you!' Eriol said harshly, very un-Eriol like.
Syaoran on the other hand wasn't worried about that. 'You're not doing what I think you are, are you Meilin?' He gave her the dead glare, and Meilin shrunk a bit, wondering how mad he really was this time.
But she stood up for him, nonetheless. 'I am doing so, probably! And I have the right. She doesn't even realize what she has done! No one else has ever made you c…' Her mouth was covered once again.
'No one needs to know that, Meilin, I still have a bit pride in me! Besides, she hasn't done anything, I'm still the one to blame.'
Meilin shook his hands off of her, and retorted: 'How can you blame yourself, you don't hurt yourself on purpose, do you?'
Syaoran was about to answer that, when suddenly, Sakura spoke. 'Stop! What are we talking about, anyway? Did Syaoran got hurt?'
The expression on Sakura's face was priceless, as dense as she was at times, with true worry written in her eyes. While Syaoran sweat-dropped, and Eriol sniggered a bit, Meilin spat at her. 'Mentally! You hurt him mentally! You have dumped him, just like that!' and she snapped with her fingers.
Now Sakura grew a bit angry to. 'How can I dump him, when he wasn't mine to begin with!' she spat back. 'Besides, they are the ones who pushed me away!' and she pointed her finger to the two boys, who were both sweat-dropping now, a bit confused where this discussion would lead them. (Eriol muttered something like 'You're right, we shouldn't have interfered. It really is dangerous…', while Syaoran just nodded.)
'They did not!'
'They did! They are the ones who said they didn't trust me! Syaoran literally said that he didn't trust me!'
That remark was the cause of a silent gap in the group. Meilin wanted to retort, but didn't know what to say. Sakura had just closed her mouth quickly, for she didn't really wanted to say that out loud.
And Syaoran, well… Syaoran finally knew what had caused all this, although he still didn't fully understand it.
Finally, Syaoran spoke.
'What do you mean? I never said that. The only time I did that, I explained it afterward.'
'You did not.' Sakura had tears in her eyes now, and looked a bit confused. 'I overheard your conversation with Eriol. You knew what I did, during the so called catastrophes. And only because of that, you didn't trust me. And you know now, don't you? You know what the catastrophes are, what my job is. I've have seen you both at least seven times during the captures of the Clow cards. You didn't trust me, so you just had to watch me struggling, so I didn't do anything wrong!'
Meilin eyes shined with realization as she spoke. 'You're wrong, you know.' Her voice was softer this time. 'They don't trust you, because you are an official enemy. I didn't even know, but they sure did. They recognize the Card mistress, and the reason why they are here, is because of that. You see the Clow Cards officially belong to the Li-clan, and it is our job to take them back.'
You can call that the ultimate revenge from Meilin, who was still angry at Sakura for hurting her not really official fiancée. Sakura couldn't utter a word, and before Syaoran and Eriol could launch themselves on Meilin to shut her up, tears streamed down Sakura's face, and she ran away, right through the bushes, in a straight line away from them.
Meilin started with a look of triumph on her face, but that soon faltered as she saw Syaoran, who was literary blazing from anger… anger towards her. 'Well, it's true, right?' she tried, but to no avail.
Luckily for her, Eriol was still there. He held Syaoran back, before he could hurt Meilin very badly. Instead of that Syaoran ran after Sakura. Meilin wanted to thank Eriol for doing so, but shut her mouth after the first word, seeing the look Eriol gave her.
She knew for sure, she was better of with Syaoran wanting to kill her, than with Eriol in this state…
But she was very lucky on this most unfortunate day of her life, for then Tomoyo stepped out from behind the bushes, saving her from Eriols wrath.
'Tomoyo…' Meilin said. Looking at what Tomoyo held in her hands, she frowned and asked: 'What…? You didn't… you did! All of it?'
Tomoyo choose not to speak to her, and although there lay a smile on her face, her eyes flashed with anger. 'Eriol-kun, we better go after them. I have the prove for Sakura, is she doesn't believe it.'
'I believe you do, indeed.'
'Please lead the way.'
Eriol and Tomoyo left in the same direction Sakura and Syaoran had gone to before, leaving Meilin alone behind, who felt very, very guilty.
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Sakura ran, and… well, ran. She stopped crying a while ago, having no more tears left. It seemed she was crying a lot these days.
In the strange triangle conversation with Meilin and Syaoran, she finally saw the clearing of these past dark days, but it had just become darker again. Instead of not trusting her, it was even worse, he was her enemy. And that was a lot worse.
How could I think that it was a stupid misunderstanding from both sides…?He didn't misunderstand at all, he was after the cards all along…I'm the fool here, I should have never trusted him to begin with…
While she was running, she didn't really realize that it had become darker, every second. She stopped when it was pitch dark, and she got scared. Since when…?
She concentrated for a moment, and was a bit relieved that she felt the presence of a Clow card. Not that she wanted to fight a Clow card now, she was most definitely not in the mood for that.
She walked further, trying to locate where she was. Had it just become dark, or had she been sent to another dimension? She didn't trip over anything, so she figured it was the latter.
The darkness was creeping her out, and all she could think of was the betrayal of Syaoran, and Eriol and Meilin too. She was alone now, there wasn't anyone here… Kero and Touya could probably not find her here, she truly was alone. Her friends al choose the side of the Li-clan, so they wouldn't find her either. The Li-clan… They wanted to steal her cards, her precious cards. Her cards were her life, how could they try to take it away from her? They sure only thought of themselves, or at least not about her. No one cared about her. If they did, she wouldn't be in this situation, now would she?
And as her thoughts turned darker, and more negative, her surroundings became darker as well. The blackness disappeared, and instead of that, there was just nothing. An emptiness, that only made her more depressive.
Soon there won't be anything here for me anymore…I'll probably end up killing Syaoran anyway…Or so the cards showed me…
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Syaoran ran in a straight line after her, following her aura.
He cursed himself. He should have gone after from the first moment, when all this mess had started. He had no idea how he could gain her trust again. If only Meilin had held her big mouth… curse her too. At the moment he was really really mad at her. He could have explained everything to Sakura, on a calm way, so she wouldn't freak out like that, but that was to late now. Now he just had to find her, and try to explain everything to her.
If only I can make her listen to me…
As he ran further, he noticed the sky becoming darker, until he ran in the pitch blackness of a night with no stars. And it became darker every moment, until he couldn't see anything at all. Focusing on her aura, he ran on, until he reached her.
Her aura at that moment, had already reached a very low level, meaning she was very depressed. He found her lying curled up in her own embrace on the ground. Muttering some unheard words. It was strange though, he could see her, while the rest wasn't visible.
He sat on his knees beside her, and put an hand on her shoulder. 'Sakura…?' She cringed at his touch, but did open her eyes to look at her. It was written in her eyes that she was scared to dead.
Without thinking, he gathered her in his arms, and pulled her in his lap. And without thinking, Sakura put her arms around his neck, and her head on his shoulder, so she couldn't see the darkness around her, only the color of his sweater.
The green color fascinated her somehow, and calmed her down. Syaoran held her so tight and careful at the same time, that she actually felt quite comfortable. She snuggled a bit closer as she held on to him, for her dear life. His hand on her head felt right, and secretly she wished she could stay for a long time like this.
'Sakura…' Syaoran started, although he had no idea what to say, so he just said everything he wanted to say, and came to his mind at that moment.
'I do trust you, I really do, and have always done and always will.' She stiffened a bit in his arms, listening carefully to the words he tried to say. 'I'm sorry, if you thought I didn't. I'm sorry, that you still have no reason to trust me. And I'm sorry, for all the pain I caused you. I really am sorry for everything that I did to you.
But please believe me, I am not here to steal your cards. I can't possibly take away from you, what you love most. I don't want to…'
Tears started to flow once again on Sakura's face, as she listened to his words, which were sounding so emotional and honest.
'But I don't want to lie to you, so listen carefully, to the reason why Meilin said what she did. The Li-clan thinks they are the ones who own the Clowcards, and they want to have them at all costs. Eriol, now, is assigned to locate the Clow master or mistress, that would be you, to take the cards and return them to the Li-clan. That's because Eriol is one of the guardians of the card captor, together with Keroberos and Yue. He is the half reincarnation of Clow Reed himself, and therefore, the Li elders entrusted that task to him. But Somehow, Eriol thought that you wouldn't appear for another ten years, so he locked away his power, and never realized that the cards already had appeared.
If he had realized, then you wouldn't be the card mistress now, and then he had assigned that task to himself, or to me, and then the Li-clan and you would both be satisfied. But it didn't go like that. The moment you listened to our conversation, was the moment, when Eriol figured it out. Too late, but okay…
It was not that we didn't trust you, it was that we didn't know for certain that you were the card mistress or not, so we choose to be a bit careful. When we knew for sure, we went along on all your missions, to be there when you needed help. We didn't openly follow you, because we knew you didn't want that. Eriol followed you because he is your guardian after all, and I… well, I just care to much for you to let you in the hands of only Eriol, and a certain yellow stuffed animal who is always to late.
But besides that, the Li elders still want the cards, although they don't know yet that they have appeared. None of the options for them, is good for you, so I suggest that you hide from them, hide your powers and cards, so they wont find you. And if they do, you have to run. You understand that?'
Sakura sniffed a bit, and then sat upright, to look him in the eyes. 'If they figure out I have the cards, wont they sent you and Eriol to capture me?'
'Probably, but I'll will cover you, and so will Eriol. We will make something up.'
Sakura blushed a bit. 'Does this mean, you actually do care a bit for me?'
Syaoran couldn't help but blush as well. 'No, not a bit. I care for you, more then anything in the world.' He saw Sakura's blush deepening, and he grinned. 'Does this mean you trust me again?'
Sakura smiled back at him. 'Hai.'
But then her face saddened. 'But if I hide, then where are you?'
Syaoran looked thoughtful for a moment, and then sighed. 'Probably at home, in China, to make sure they wont follow you.'
The grip on his neck tightened a bit, and her face became a bit desperate. 'You can't do that… We finally made peace, and then you leave me? How can I run on my own?' She inched a bit closer, until their foreheads rest against each other and closed her eyes, tears still present. 'Don't leave me…'
She looked so cute at that moment, that he couldn't help himself. He tilted her chin up, and kissed her softly on the lips, just for a few seconds. Her eyes were still closed, and she licked her lips a bit, tasting his taste again. Then her eyes slowly opened and looked at him with pleading eyes, making Syaoran sigh. 'Hai… I'll do whatever you want.'
She smiled and pressed her lips against his, deepening the last kiss. This time, it lasted longer…
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Their surroundings changed from blackness into whiteness. Making a tall, beautiful women appear, all in black. She looked at the two with a small glare. Then her sister appeared, all in white, while their surroundings changed back to normal.
The two looked at each other, and sighed. They hadn't expect their capture to be like this. The Dark coughed a bit, startling two the love birds on the ground, who broke their kiss to look at them.
Sakura blushed a bit and then remembered, the two ladies in front of them, where the Clow cards she had felt earlier. How they had appeared here, was beyond her. She summoned her wand, and chanted the spell, to bound the Dark and Light to cards. When the cards flew her way, the Dark flew a step further, to Syaoran, who stood behind her.
Now she had really no idea what was going on, and that was very visible on her pouting face. Syaoran just smiled and gave the card to her.
They looked around, to see where they exactly were, only to see it was the Penguin Park again. They suddenly heard someone running up to them, and looking around, they saw Eriol and Tomoyo, the latter all tired from the long run.
'I can't believe I missed all that!' Tomoyo said, a bit angrily, which surprised everyone, except Eriol.
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Wai! Such a fast update! Wai! (cough cough…)
No, quite sorry for the long wait, as usual…
But what is Tomoyo doing that only Eriol and Meilin know for now? Wouldn't you want to know? I do…
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